day 17 (Emperor * 2)
day 18 (Rest)
day 19 (Emperor * 2)
I feel more rational and I have more insight into things. I think I’m able to see things behind the cover. seeing the bigger picture, seeing the forest but not just the trees.
I contemplate more things than before. I still get disturbed or irritated easily, I think I have a shorter temper for bullsh@t than before. I’m not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. everything has pros and cons. Being more assertive has advantages for me now. because I’ve been too agreeable and less bold, I’d instead take the loss than face conflicts before. I need to be more organized and assertive.
My conscientiousness and industriousness are ‘Exceptionally Low’ from ‘the Big 5 test’ (for those who don’t know about this, it’s a personality test that consisted of 100 questions about 5 traits of your personality. it’s considered as one of the most comprehended and correct personality tests. i think Jordan Peterson was one of whom created this test). I need to do meditation to keep my nerotic side down. hopefully listening to subs and meditation would help me to become a better version of myself