Fri: 5th day of washout
Now I’m here on earth, I can’t be useless, 24hrs grinding and 5hrs sleep, make the most of all my minutes on earth, it’s a steady grind and achievement till I leave here
I should not be desperate or qualify myself outside, I should disqualify myself, I should keep it discreet, I should not make a big deal of it, I should focus on other important things, I should enjoy me.
Forego lustful and sinful pleasure, focus on the pure essence of me
When I feel bad~ change it to positive emotion> affirm things like, I love myself, I am blessed, life is good to be, count my blessings and give gratitude. I have a choice as a human to choose either to feel good or feel bad, it’s all a choice game.
Today was meant to be my fifth and last day of washout but I feel I need to do more washout. The subs are dense and profound each in its own way, the standards are high and i have to constantly keep pushing myself. It just reminds me of when I ran Khan, wanted and QL, I also know if I’m to go through this journey it will be rough but just like that time the changes will be profound and next level shit. I just have to go easy on myself and my journey or I have to go so hard, always debating and questioning myself, take action or deliberate on action to take, rest or keep busy…