Define “worse?”
What if you were healing your jealousy and it was just painful? Sometimes results feel like recon, and sometimes recon IS the result.
Healing doesn’t make pain go away. It makes you face it. Did you face the pain? Did you gain insights?
You mentioned that you’re triggered despite them doing absolutely nothing to provoke that - that sounds like a deep insight into the nature of the problem. You’re not so ignorant of the problem that you’re blaming others for it.
You also asked for help by making this post. That’s a sign of someone taking proactive steps to heal their jealousy. Not the sign of someone who’s made no progress. That’s someone taking action, because their whole being is aligned to solving the problem.
The day is darkest before the dawn.
Limitless executive always makes me less productive before it makes me more productive. It doesn’t mean Limitless Executive “doesn’t work for me.” It means recon sucks.
Before you start stack switching, try leaning into the recon, but also being mindful that this is a difficult topic for you, and you’ll need to go easy on yourself. Keep running whichever title you ran most recently. If 30s gives you recon and makes your jealousy worse, start with 10s. If 10s gives you recon, do it once a week.
All the other subs mentioned in the thread will also work, you’re getting great answers. I might also recommend Genesis, because the “healing” is very light dissolving, where it doesn’t heal, it jus loosens it up so you can heal it thru taking action when you’re ready for that.
That combined with Genesis doing a little bit of everything and helping you understand yourself more deeply would help you (gently) chip away at this.
PS: my fiancée uses subs exclusively to heal jealousy and abandonment wounds. She uses Chosen and Sanguine Elixir. She hasn’t tried all the subs, but she’s very happy with those two and I’ve seen a big big change in her
