Got my first client by myself,
The level of coaching I can give with this custom is on another world. Destiny directive, Chiron, Chosen.
Holy moly, As I did the call I was like where did all these ideas come from.
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So just got scammed for 1k dollars, and honestly itās kinda amusing.
Iām shifting between a negative reality and a super positive one in waves, Go from having girls begging to see me to 0 girls, Go from making tons of money to getting scammed.
But what will come out of this will be worth way more than some girls and money.
I feel like im stepping into parallel universes one very negative and empty one and one super positive one, And itās giving me so many insights on how we create our reality.
Yea itās tough emotionally going through waves as hard like this but I just tank it I guess.
Manifest Siddhi here I come
So yesterday I listened 7 time to my custom sub, Today I feel called to listen 7 times to my manifest sub. Also feel called to listen to the power book again
Not really listening instructions but guess that is waht Iām doing, Well take break for the rest of the week after.
It feels like stepping into a completely new reality while burning off some past bad karma. And it needs a bit of a push.
Also the book the power is so cool how itās made with all sounds and music, Itās like an experience
Have dived deeper into a more advanced form of shadow work which is really cool, Since I got so advanced at spirituality it was so easy for me to just go into massive bliss without really allowing a split conciousness of me grow up.
So today Iām chilling in the hell realms to understand this part of me who has been screaming for my attention, Without giving it love or trying to make it go away. But just allowing it to be to understand it.
It was extremely hard first, But this hell realm is actually kinda calming now.
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Weirdest thing has happened like Iām actually flabberghasted So earlier this week I was watching netflix and started 3 body problem looked at 5 minutes and then left,
I remember the scene clearly it was ancient china and modern scientists talking, Now I started it up again, And the scene I remembered is not even there,
And in my history its not there either, I am so confused right now XD
So I had the deepest experiencial realization about manifesting probably in my entire life.
You can need girls to like you, You can want girls to like you, You can expect girls to like you, But all of it is still based in patterns and structures you want her to like you,
But what if you just knew girls love you, And there was absoultely nothing you could do to change it, You be mega relaxed automaticaly.
The frequency of a sunset, You know everyday the sun will rise and fall itās 100% divinine certainity that something will happen. Thatās what Iām going to apply to all areas of life.
My new listning schedule has been super effective I listen 2 days a row then just take a break for a week, To allow all information to unfold.
Like I can feel subconcious clearing up knots and going into deeper realizations.
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So I have not written in a while but today this just flowed out of me, They words I use ultimate writer is defnitely in action here.
Sometimes life can feel like you are stuck between a rock and a hard place,
A constant battle of who you want to be and wounds that stop you from being you. It can be exhausting, terrifying and even drain all your zest for life up.
And there is no escape, You can try using netflix drinking, overworking, having tons of sex. All of it will only ease the pain you feel for a moment. Your mind has become your worst nightmare and there is no escape.
But the thing is my friend, While there is no escape there is a a way out of your personal hell.
Your mind donāt want to ruin your life it fact it just wants to keep you comfortable and safe,
I know what you are thinking comfortable? This is hell, Yes my friend it is hell, Itās a clash between your soul and your ego.
You know you are meant for more in this life you know you are meant to thrive yet every day just feel dull, boring and bland.
You can try using healthier escapes like meditation and sit in bliss states but the moment you lose itā¦
Guess what you are back to your personal hell,
If you truly want to know what potential you have and what level of enjoyment and ecstasy that is possible in lifeā¦ There is only one way Itās time to face the demons (They are not really demons though)
In fact they are more like your misunderstood guardian angels. Your worst nightmare is just a illusion of the mind.
Heaven is not a place to search for itās already within, Just that your sky is clouded with murky scary clouds.
Total fullfillment divine fullfillment comes from a complete rewiring of your mind, acceptance of your shadows, and opening yourself up to a new level of perception.
A new improved magical colourful filter that make all the light and magic of everyone and everything shine forth.
To explain this is more simpler terms Imagine you only seen black and white your entire life and suddenly you can see colours.
Because there is so much magic in the world, From the smell of a perfectly made tea, To the little twinkle in a persons eyes.
The symphony of the universe is avaliable to you, It always has been.
And your inner demons want this for you as well, In fact they want nothing else more than this.
Its all a freaking lie every condition you put on your happiness is made up, Every condition you put on that you donāt deserve a loving partner is just made up.
Itās all a fvcking lie.
See through the illusion and bloom into your complete radiance.
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Wow, I just had a massive realization, probably one of my deepest shadows.
So, I thought abandonment was my core shadow. I already knew it came from being born too early and lying in an incubator. The event was correct, but the feeling was not.
Itās not about abandonment; itās about helplessness. Mind blown.
If I got abandoned, that triggered it. But not only that, my financial situation right now is just this shadow wanting to be seen. And itās most likely been my biggest inner conflict. Because not only is helplessness hard, but since itās a shadow from me being super small, and we are actually helpless when babies.
It just reaffirmed that being helpless gets me attention and love. This continued up into my teens. Whenever I felt bad, I got way more love and attention from my parents than when I felt good.
Like, if I had unlimited money, was feeling super good, would anyone even give me attention? Thatās a fun little interjection.
Oh, the magical fullness from realizing this, my energetic conflict. My procrastinating endlessly, even outreach, might be connected to this. I donāt want to bother anyone if Iām super happy. (This one Iām not sure about yet, though.)
WOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW though. How did I miss this? Helplessness is not even that hard to sit in. But the external reaction of helplessness is horrible for āSuccess.ā
Even my dating, I learned game to get control to not feel helpless. If I broke up with a girl, I was not helpless, and nothing got triggered. But if she broke up with me, boom, helplessness triggered.
I did not expect to find the mother of all shadows so fast. It feels like once this core wound is healed, itās more cleaning up leftovers of other shadows.
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So lately, so much has been happening for me. It has been kind of overwhelming. I started nicotine to document myself quitting it. Now on week 3, I get why I started it. The energies are crazy, like absolutely wild.
When there is so much energy in your head and you are not grounded, you just forget everything. But slowly, more and more of this energy is getting embodied. My posture is just nuts, my relaxation is beyond anything it has been. I feel like Iām on a different plane of existence, with a completely new perception. I noticed myself looking at girls with a bit of nervousness only for it to vaporize when I realized itās just that the energy is very intense and I need to be more grounded.
In that moment a strut in the step overtook my body and my walking style changed to that of a floating head from a embodiment of perfection with a bit extra energy in the head. And in that moment heads started turning, How come my life feels like a mushroom trip. XD.
I was at the dentist yesterday for a long treatment of one and a half hours of pain, yet all I felt was love. Even the extremely clinical lights looked like beautiful light.
But itās not all unicorns and rainbows. My time of waking up becomes earlier and earlier, and Iām not a fan. It started with an energy spike at 7, then 6, then 5, and now 4 a.m.
I AM NOT ACTUALLY AWAKE at 4 a.m.
I have also figured out a new way of listening to subs, which is the absolutely coolest thing ever. Complete immersion while listening, and only once to twice a week. Same sub for 2 weeks, then to the next one and alternate.
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