Spearlight’s Subliminal Journey

Journals - Major Programs
#21

For the First 5 days of August here’s what happened.

For the first 5 days of August I have completely changed my listening schedule to the recommended one and it has practically enhanced my results two-three times. At this point I mostly get my results during my rest days.Which has been amazing. I didn’t know that subliminals could be this powerful.

In this is 5 days. I have had a massive recon. Mostly headaches and brain fog which is quite normal. I’ve had outburst of emotions twice. Once during a petty argument with my sister which I later regret since I was pretty much unreasonable. I did apologize tho. the other was when I was alone and looking in the mirror. I got so frustrated with myself since I have relapsed again and again when I was trying to do nofap. I can’t seem to get this addiction and my reliance on porn under control. The longest I have been on nofap is a day and then after that I get this huge urges. It’s demoralizing as hell.
I’m getting the intuition that if I want to be the person that I want and deserved to be that I have to face and overcome my porn addiction. This has given me a clear view on what to work on. Coupled with the fact that the time I spend on social media and reading just mindless and pretty much brainded webnovels has been given me a lot of shame. but y’know I will be reborn. I will rise from the ashes and I will become the person that I was meant to be. This is my resolve and I promise you guys. I will achieve it.

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#22

I want to make sure I understand what is happening.

Would you please post your exact schedule you have been doing for the past 5 or 6 days?

Also do you want to make a custom to help with your desire to stop PMO?

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#23

@Ice would you be willing to post the link(s) of yours that you think would be most relevant to your dopamine reset instructions?

@spearlight some people have posted about a program called Easy Peasy. Do you know about that?

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#24

Hello there, Here has been my listening schedule for the past 5 days
8/1/21 - Rest day
8/2/21 - 1x loop of DR ST4
8/3/21 - Rest day
8/4/21 - I’m having major headaches so I decided to make this day as a rest day.
8/5/21 - 1x loop of DR ST4

Making a custom is not really in my budget right now. But I will definitely consider it in the future. Thank you.

I haven’t really heard about that. I will research about it tho.

#25

I have an alternate suggestion as far as the PMO goes. Don’t worry about the MO part for now. That’s actually natural, and while it can become addictive and cause issues, it’s nowhere near as bad as it is in these days of easily available porn. Just quit porn but continue to handle your own business when you get the urge and don’t worry about it.
PMO is much easier to handle if you break it into pieces and deal with them one at a time.

#26

@spearlight I think @COWolfe has a good point.

In the video “Your Brain on Porn”, Gary Wilson did make a number of comments about high speed internet porn was the “game changer”. I think stopping the porn would be an excellent start.

As for your listening schedule, you could try 1 loop of DR st4 every 6 days. Also, you could always go back to st1 or st2.

What do you think @spearlight ?

Thanks @COWolfe !

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#28

Thinking about it whenever I look at porn MO always follows. So distancing myself from porn would be best. Looking at porn has always been my biggest trigger. Thank you for the advice. @RVconsultant @COWolfe

Also thank you for the link. I’ll definitely try doing dopamine fast seriously. I’ve tried that way back but I just couldn’t go through with 24 hours. I think I barely made it to hour 9. Thanks @Ice

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#29

8/6/21 - My rest day, I actually feel lethargic. I was supposed to go to the gym in the morning but ended up going in the afternoon. After that tho it kinda goes away.

8/7/21 - I have decided to extend my rest day since I was getting a lot of recon symptoms and also to slow down and let my mind cooldown. I got to the gym late in the afternoon again which I feel guilty about since I promised myself to stick to the schedule. Since I was on vacation right now until September when school starts.

Also today while I was walking our dog I noticed my neighbor and I started to talk with him. What happened is that he’s actually related to the course that I’m gonna be pursuing, He started sharing his experiences and hardships, He even gave me advice which is really cool since I needed it.

I started to notice that seems I have been listening to subclub. People who are mostly seniors in their industry have been cropping up in my life. This is apparent way back in February when I was contemplating what course I was gonna take.People who have been through the ups and downs of life. It’s really cool since I’m at the part of my life where I’m prone fucking it up. I have been getting a lot of guidance and insights from people who are good at their respective fields. It has frankly broadened my horizons. Helped me make an informed decision on where I was gonna take my future.

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#30

It’s a big challenge for sure man. I wanted to quit so bad when going through it. What pushed me through was contemplating the long term rewards of how it will benefit me. Also, I had a more immediate reward set out for myself upon completion - I think for me it was watching one of my favorite movies guilt free. So that definitely helped me get through the boredom of it all

#31

Hello guys so it’s been a while. I have been getting major recon that I decided to do a washout. I started on August 9 and plan to continue until 21. it’s been hard to not listen to DR. At the start I’ve been getting this doubts that maybe I"m just wasting my time and this thing they do not work. It’s been a hell of a ride. I tried to talk to a close friend of mine who also listens to YT Subs and man. It added to the doubts I’ve been feeling. If this is not recon then I don’t know what is.

These had gone on for like 3 days and then by thursday(Aug 12) I had gotten the urge to look at porn and MAN. I LITERALLY HAVE NO URGE. Like I’m looking at it and I’m thinking "Man, this is such a waste of time. Why do I do this? " compared to before when I do that and my brain goes autopilot. it has been really amazing. I started to notice that now whenever I get the urge, these undescribable willpower comes from inside me. It’s amazing honestly. I literally feel nothing when looking at porn. Don’t even feel the need to masturbate. It’s under me now/ and it’s amazing. LITERALLY MAN. I’M HAPPY.

For the rest of the week. It’s all minor headaches throughout the day. It’s been good I think. DR is a miracle worker.

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#32

Thank you brother. I’ll definitely keep this in mind.

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#33

Hey @spearlight

Big welcome to the forum! I just found your journal now.

This was actually the first thing I wanted to recommend to you but you already got it :wink: Dragon Reborn and Ascension will be a great combination and you will slowly work up your way to be handle to run Khan perfectly.

If the reconciliation of Dragon Reborn is too much, you can also think about dropping it and going for Regeneration first which will be much more pleasant to run and prepare you optimally for the stages of DR.