Husband told me I look “extra pretty and glowy today”
Dare I say I agree with him.
Need to focus more on fitness and nutrition, I’m dealing with some health issues from pregnancy and childbirth. I switched from Limitless Executive to Paragon a few days ago. I hope it will help me make good choices and keep me motivated.
I may revisit LE after I reach my fitness and health goals.
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Been having a lot of disturbing dreams, in my dreams I am extremely angry and losing my mind.
I definitely feel more motivated to complete tasks so I think limited executive did it’s job.
I am going to try to eat the same thing every day to simplify things as far as nutrition
I notice I get off track when making decisions, trying to figure out which ingredients I have ect
I have a long way to go it feels overwhelming.
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Feeling really agitated, pissed off, depressed today.
I guess this is the infamous recon?
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Definitely could be. Sometimes I get like that but it’s just legit due to someone acting like an idiot haha.
Probe the stuff you’re feeling to find if you can find a connection between it and the subs you’re on. A big part of this is playing “detective” and looking for patterns.
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Feeling motivated to go back to work. I keep checking job listings, inquiring about jobs and making calls.(side effect of LE?)
It’s trickier now with baby, finding childcare ect, but I think it would be good for me to find something.
Had a job before baby but hated it, counted down the days til I could leave.
Been following my eating plan, I threw out my scale awhile ago because it was causing so much stress. Now I just go by what I see in the mirror and hop on the scale when I see one in someones bathroom.
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Lost 3 pounds this week! Thank you seductress. I feel less prone to stress eating, more motivated to stick to plan. Nothing much else to report.
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I noticed this too especially when you use LBFH with it! Please keep it up I love your journal! One thing for sure is if I ever want to show a girl the Seductress sub you’d be an inspiration for it because I think it can truly help people who need it most 
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Thank you 
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I’m day two of washout. This next cycle I will be more careful to take rest days, I understand now the need for them.
Didn’t really see results this week but my fault for not listening to instructions.
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New cycle. LBFH and seductress, I just want to love myself like the description in LBFH.
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I ended up doing LBFH alone. I realized its more important for me to adore myself than to appear a certain kind of way to others.
I grew up youngest of a double digit family, suffered neglect and abuse. I don’t blame my parents though, they are WW2 refuges. We are jewish, both sets of grandparents survived the war, Auschwitz, Siberia, you name it.
there is a lot of generational trauma and fear and honestly self loathing I deal with.
I need to fix a very sick foundation before I can worry about all the other stuff.
Its what i suspected at that start of my journal and turned out to be right.
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Dear LBFH,
Please work 
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I am running LBFH and Dragon Reborn; I have a lot of the same history as you do, and I feel the same way, that I want a really strong foundation before trying to build on anything else. I was running Ascension, to help with my more masculine traits, but it kept bringing up difficult emotions, but I didn’t feel like they were being dealt with.
I think LBFH is a really good choice, because it sounds like you need to be bathed in self-love right now.
I can say that DR definitely brings up a lot of shit, but it also somehow helps you deal with them, and work through them.
One thing that I’m learning from studying hypnotherapy (on the side) is that gratitude is a way out of hating our life. It seems counter-intuitive, but if you can start naming things you are grateful for, your mind is automatically shifted into a state where you look for more things to be grateful for, and you begin to cease the negative thought loops.
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I’m wondering about dragon reborn, thing is I can’t afford to destabilize myself. Also it seems like it takes time, and I’m out of time.
I absolutely need to be bathed In self love, well said.
Hoping this is the best sub for that.
Love what you said about gratitude.
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This is not working, I’m going to stick with it because the sounds help me fall asleep, but I’m starting to think this is all bullshit and whatever results people are getting is a placebo effect.
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It isn’t working because you assume it isn’t working.
Trust the process and enjoy the experience.
What is your end in mind?
What do you really want?
What implies you have it?
These subs are powerful. There is a healing crisis where things are almost worse before they’re better!
There’s light at the end of the tunnel.
You need to take action while you’re listening. Expecting the subs to do all the work will just serve you disappointment.
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I think everyone has had this thought at least once, so don’t think you’re alone. Another one I sometimes wonder is, “what exactly is in these? Are they really helping me?”
All we have to gauge our subconscious content with is our experiences, so we’re trying to understand what’s in our own minds based upon the experiences we have. It’s a clumsy process, because we can make all kinds of inaccurate judgements based upon what we think is occurring, when something else entirely is actually taking place.
One of the most important things I’ve ever learned in my entire life is that everything comes down to intention. If you have the intention to get better, and solidly back that up with action (which is sort of what @7empest is talking about) then you are going to get better, sub or no sub. The sub just will help you get there quicker, because your unconscious mind will have the tools necessary to give you what you want.
The best way to use these subs is to have an intention for personal growth in the areas you’re working on, and get a sub that helps speed that growth along. Keep that intention forefront in your mind at all times, and don’t worry about the sub. It’s actually better to give no conscious thought to the sub at all, because conscious thought can actually block unconscious results (they call it the Law of Reversed Effect).
So, taking myself for an example, I am working on healing in all areas of my psyche, but especially in areas of my sexuality, from being molested as a kid and being hooked on porn as a result for most of my life. My intention is sexual healing, so that is what I keep in my mind. Having an intention doesn’t mean you try to make something happen - that’s your unconscious mind’s job; once you have an intention, you let it go, and know that your unconscious is working on that intention for you…this is why hypnosis works well with subjects who are relaxed, as their conscious mind (the critical factor) is out of the way. Too much thinking engages the conscious mind again, and results are stymied.
So, I set my intention (call it a goal); just me setting it is enough - then I trust that my unconscious is going to make that goal a reality for me. I listen to subs that help support me in that goal, again, trusting that my unconscious will take that content and put it to use in helping me achieve that goal. Every so often, I’ll check in with my results. I might keep track of how often I’ve had a desire to look at porn; I might keep track of how often I’ve had true interactions with women again, that are wholesome and not my mind playing out sex scenes in front of me. But, what I won’t do is to judge those results - I’ll just note them, like Okay, I felt a desire for porn 3 times this week, and I had 5 true interactions with women. Just the data. This gives the unconscious mind some feedback to know where to work on things next.
Basically, my point is that you should trust your unconscious mind. Come up with an intention, and trust that your unconscious is like your best friend, wanting to give to you exactly what you intend (or expect) to have. View the subs as just an extension of that relationship with yourself. Then just don’t think about any of it for a week or so, then just check back in and see how you’re progressing, just using the data, the facts, to give your unconscious mind input.
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Thank you both for your responses,
These last couple weeks have been totally chaotic and I didn’t really have headspace to set intentions and all that, you are right this is probably what has been missing.
I have a clearer vision of the person I want to be.
I want to be a person I was meant to be. Everyone tells me that as a child I couldn’t stop smiling. I believe them because my daughter is the same way, the only difference is she is showered in love, knows she is precious, and matters in the world.
I want to get that back, be confident and use my light to lift people up. I want to unlearn everything and let myself be loved and be able to love others.
I want to stop feeling like there is something wrong with me, that I am dirty and stupid and can’t do anything.
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I think we’ve all been there with that thought process.
What emotion is under that? It can be hard sometimes to think you’ve found an answer to your problems and it comes up short. It’s never a good feeling. It sounds like you’re going through a rough time.
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Yes, very rough. Thanks
Edited to add, trying to think of it as reconciliation.
I really want these subs to work
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