Unreal is great, but unity imo if you like coding, this will always be top.
I deleted all social media (other than this forum 
) a few months ago and have never felt better. It feels really liberating to free yourself from social media’s grip.
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I’ve been fast heading that way, myself. I rarely go on the social media I have as it is, deleting it would just be space for my phone.
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I see it slightly differently.
Hollywood (and similar cultural production monoliths, social media, etc.) keep those people nice and occupied.
This then creates space for really creative people to work in peace (usually somewhere else).
May be a little harder to find those people, but then, that’s kind of the point. The easier it gets to find them, the more likely they’ll be absorbed into Hollywood (or whatever other name we want to use for the various machines).
I avoided pop culture and Hollywood for about 6 or 7 years in my twenties. But then I experienced a shift. I started to look at it anthropologically; as a kind of bizarre form of genuine creation in its own right.
There’s a strange intriguing aesthetic fascination to the machine itself. With its weirdly algebraic mass production of Spectacle.
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Alright, time for an extended washout. Productivity and performance is starting to falter. Getting behind on like, everything, due to deep introspective healing from CFW. Will catch up on everything – including support and PMs – by the weekend.
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That may have been the most brutal recon I’ve ever experienced. A week of just non-stop emotional turmoil and pain. This tells me that I’m addressing things that I should’ve already explored a LOOOOONNNNG time ago.
On another note, a SubClub first. One of the members here made it into a clearing dream of mine, where I was discussing my childhood with this individual, particularly some troubling things related to intelligence and cognition (something I seem to have a hang up on, as you’ve heard me mention before).
Remember, when you dream of a particular individual, you’re actually dreaming of a symbol, of what that person represents. Given the fact that I was talking about something deep to someone who seems “sage-like,” it’ll be no surprise when I announce that this person is…
:: drum roll ::
The weird thing is, I don’t know what he looks like, so he literally looked like his avatar in the dream, hahahaha. I was literally talking to a being of blue energy that I intuitively knew was him.
Anyway, the recon FINALLY broke a few hours ago, and I’m dedicated to getting everything back on track next week.
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Then let me be the first to say
“Welcome Back!”
I’m sure I’m not the only one who was wondering how the recon was going. Glad you’ve gotten some much needed respite and renewal. The past year has been one of genuine intensity for you.
And now you’re back just in time for the Year of the Tiger to begin.
Much respect @SaintSovereign
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So @Malkuth now that you know SaintSovereign on such a deep personal level, tell us how was he like? 
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While reading that post I KNEW it was going to be Malkuth!
Glad you worked through all this! I LOVE the feeling of recon fading!
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I’m curious to know, because I’m having a similar reaction lately, why you feel these things weren’t explored a long time ago? Were they hidden or did you feel that it wasn’t that big of a deal? I know for me I have a long-standing practice of emotional invalidation with myself, so it hides things from me.
I have hired some detectives, and we found out who @Malkuth really is. Here is his photo - please do not spread it further, this picture will be visible for a limited time only.
Also, this post is visible to a few selected users only, so if you are able to read this, know then, you are in the Inner Circle.
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Hahaha, I literally thought it’ll be no surprise to me if it’s @Malkuth.
Good on you, Saint, flow through.
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Because I’ve been actively ignoring this side of my inner life. By active, I mean ACTIVE. I constantly disconnect from my emotions and I haven’t really allowed them to express freely within my life. I told myself it wasn’t that big of a deal, but the truth of the matter is that I didn’t want to face these things. You just gotta be honest with yourself. Since I’m running a business, I can’t keep engaging with this right now, but I’m building a number of “leave of absences” this year into my schedule so that I can address these internal issues over time.
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I’m interested in how you prioritize healing even while running a business… what other tactics or strategies do you use to get some healing in? Would Chosen be a decent “healing” sub for someone who still needs to be 100% in the business. Or maybe combining rebirth with whatever wealth subliminal you’re running? Any non-sub techniques that have really stood out to you?
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So far, no strategy, lol. I’ve just avoided them for the entire time we’ve been in business, hence why I decided to address it now. That was a bad idea in regards to running a business – especially one with a lot of moving parts, like ours. My productivity TANKED in January.
Yes, but you need to prep and prepare for it. For example, I shouldn’t have run CFW during the Zero Point Preview. We have SO much going on behind the scenes that requires my utmost attention. I was unable to do that this month due to the harsh recon I experienced with CFW. Now, my experience isn’t exactly common. I have never really paid attention to my emotional life, hence why this recon was so bad.
I smoked A LOT of CBD, lol.
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Now resuming work on Ascension Chamber, as well as putting out another number of ZP titles. Will also test our first ZP Custom (we haven’t decided whose we’re going to use yet) very soon.
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I’ll be ordering my custom sometime this week. The really big one haha. Feel free to grab that one if you think it might work. It may be too big though.
SaintSovereign, i have a doubt regarding making customs that are more aligned with one goal vs a custom that tackles a couple of goals.
I mean, wouldn’t most people make a custom that is more similar to Emperor (which deals with money, alpha mindset, physical shifting, sex, etc) rather than Mogul (which only deals with money and money related goals)?
I understand that having multiple goals in a custom would increase the time to get to the goals but is there anything else we need to know which we are missing when we make a custom with regard to covering a specific goal vs a custom with 3 or 4 goals?
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It’s not that your custom needs to be aligned with “one goal,” it just needs to be cohesive and fit into your overall stack. For example, an Emperor-style sub (or one designed to enhance Emperor ZP) would be fine, because that’s cohesive. It’s the “kitchensink” ones that contain cores that don’t really go together that concerns us. For example, a custom containing: Stark ZP, Paragon, Muay Thai Mastery X and Heartsong. These will not generate the results you want within a reasonable timeframe.
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