Honestly, while I get what @Trader is getting at, I’m not sure. CWON has a very strong sense stoicism that was unintended. It’s not like we tried to write that in there, but it seems that in the script’s pursuit to instill love and respect for nature, this strong confidence that comes along with it does feel like stoicism.
As for myself, I do feel less worried about things, particularly the future. I do feel an intense connection with the world and the people inhabiting it, but there’s a bit of detachment there that I didn’t anticipate. It’s like, I understand on some deep level the intrinsic connection between all things, and that’s where the “detachment” comes from. However, on an individual level, I do feel more connected.
For example, I’m pretty financially blessed at this point. I can withstand some inflation and the such, primarily because I’m very low maintenance at this point. I have no desire for a bunch of nice flashy things, and I actually go out of my way to avoid buying anything new unless necessary. But last night, I was headed over to @Fire’s place to grab some stuff and I stopped to get gas. While the increasing price was an annoyance for me, I looked over at a young mother in a beat up car, who was crying while pumping. The price was over $5/gallon. For people working at minimum wage in the United States, going to work and back will cost them roughly two HOURS of pay. It broke my heart to see this, and unsettled me for the whole night. I tried to offer to help her, but she declined, and looked at me suspiciously as if I were going to ask for something in return.
That whole situation just hit me emotionally. What has happened to our world, where not only are the prices so high that people can’t afford to live, but people are even afraid to take help from another person, expecting that they’ll want something in return. That if I offer “free” help, there’s something wrong?
I began to convict myself again, as in my pre-SubClub past, I was very ruthless in regards to achieving my financial goals. I can’t sit back and pretend like I didn’t play a part, as I was very much a strong player of “the game,” and upholding the system. How was I so blind that I didn’t see this outcome coming?
But, on the flipside, there’s a deep sense of self-forgiveness coming from CWON. It’s different than the self-forgiveness in CFW, which feels more like the traditional “healing” you’d expect from a sub. This… feels more stoic-y. Almost like, “well, you know better than to act a certain way now, so get over that past.”
Not sure if that makes sense, but CWON does indeed have that detached “what will happen will happen, so what will you do,” feel to it.