Another old co driver called me yesterday. That makes two in as many days lol.
Inner Circle. How I have neglected you…
It just came to me that IC has been showing out. 
In the last week, I’ve had unsolicited referrals to different jobs. Between what my girl’s coworkers have been telling her to tell me to look into, and old co-workers telling me about job opportunities that work for my situation in a way I thought was improbable, IC has been working for me.
I give it to IC because it’s in my custom, along with AM and Primal. Thus, work related manifestations.
09/27
True to my new personal stack schedule, yesterday I had a rest day (complete, no boosters) and today I’m looping one play of LDU.
I’m using the Samsung Galaxy Buds+ that I got brand new off of my lead for $100.
Normally, in my new schedule, I would play my stack tomorrow. However, I’m in the mood for a nice little washout out. My last one didn’t last as long as I originally planned I believe, but even the like 4 days I completed was great, so I’ll try and make it until at least next Monday.
I haven’t updated I just kinda realized. It’s probably cuz I’m on a washout and it has been less on my mind 
Anyways. I’ve noticed more increases in work productivity since I added LDU into my stack. I think LDU is probably what I’ve been looking for. Skimming my old entries, I was reminded that I chose rebirth over LDU.
I think back now and I’m pretty sure that I liked Limit Destroyer’s description, but Rebirth reframing things seemed like a smoother choice for transition of paradigms.
For me in my personal experience, I prefer LDU. I’m pretty sure it’s not only improving my AM-core experience, but that it’s unlocking Primal’s deeper working, within me.
I can’t explain it yet mostly because I haven’t journaled and only loosely pay attention to it, but women are definitely treating me different in a good way. I can’t think of a single woman really within the last few days that wasn’t at the very least deferential to me in some way.
I was leaning in the hallway of a customer’s home, watching my lead finishing up the install of a dishwasher, when I happened to glanced up. The lady of the house was walking towards us from the dining room and as I looked up, I saw her eyes traveling from somewhere near my Ninji regions up my abdomen to my eyes.
(does anyone call the stomach area an abdomen in reference to humans? 
)
(Why do I feel like that question was framed by someone who forgot he too is human?
Back to me. To build the picture, she wasn’t walking straight towards me, as I was off to the side a bit. So she was sort of kinda maybe probably accurately best described as looking at me…sidelong?
Only seen the word in books mate, don’t judge.
But yeah, so she met my eyes and saw me seeing her seeing me for the big sessy I am and gave a half smile that went to her eyes and continued on her path to wherever in her house she went. To continue picture building, it was another door off to the right of me and my comfy hallway wall, so she passed my guy doing the DW in the kitchen and went into the mentioned room.
She came back out like five seconds later and without preamble looked me in the eyes (very nice eyes, eye contact was cool) and asked me if I had any plans on moving out there to Cedar anytime soon.
Being me, I told her that if she could manage to get them to fix the bridge that causes parking lot traffic on the Southbound way there, I would consider it then.
She laughed and said it’s not that bad. My lead heard the tone in her voice when she asked the initial question and looked at me (she was standing behind him near the fridge) and smiled me the faintest of knowing smiles (he’s an ass but one of my favorite people atm) started talking to her about the bridge project and how it would take at least two years for them to complete it and she subsided somewhat, but then brightened right back up and made some point. It was a good one cuz he was like well yeah, true true and she looked at me and puffed her bre - chest out at me and said, “Ha! We figured it out, there you go!”
I chuckled and said well once they finish the project and I’ve confirmed three to twelve times they’re not gonna tear down another one like they have a habit of doing, I might bump into her one of these days, which satisfied and pleased her.
**I value excellent service and customer satisfaction, above all else **
I honestly don’t recall too many of the other girls and women because there’s quite a few more than I thought and I have the attention span of a stoned goldfish.
I guarantee it’ll come to me as soon as I hit submit.
Oh yeah, right. The ladies who work in the warehouse on the forklift and compactor are absolutely choosin’. Two of significance are polar opposites physically and just my types pero, if I weren’t fasting (in a relationship) I’d certainly see what THEY’RE talking about. And that’s just the thing. I’m not really seeking much like that. The validation is gratifying, sure.
But fleeting. As is the desire for it. I honestly check out girls for the fun of it. Maybe even for the pleasure of it? I see women as works of art when I’m at my very best, but currently, coming out of a prolonged period of on and off PMO, I’m beginning to see that coming back.
One of the check in girls, for instance, called me by my name today. Why is this significant? Because she’s never said my name but one time, and that was right before she asked for a favor. I honestly didn’t even think the chick cared for my dopetasticness, to be honest.
So yeah, I was walking past her with an appliance and generally, I like to glance at her butt. But ironically, she was wearing great pants for her shape today and after I noticed, I felt interest rapidly drain and my focus on my work and off-loading my truck, increase.
I wonder sometimes if Wanted isn’t still present somewhere in my subconscious though I didn’t stay with it as long as I wanted
Ascended Mogul might be the reason here I’ll think on it later.
But yeah, I felt the shift in me and the pendulum went to her apparently because as I was passing her, I felt her turn her head slightly as if expecting something from me. I didn’t even glance at her or near her, even in my peripheral. I was just focused on getting that truck done.
(Very woo woo stuff incoming)
I felt within me that she noticed something was different about me and was slightly miffed. I can confirm because, I felt her turn slightly with her body, following my movements and said in an upbeat voice, “Sage! What’s going on, man?!” in a conversational, friendly way.
What’s going on like, how are you? Not, why aren’t you attentioning me. In case that wasn’t clear.
But (and I felt like an asshole for this two seconds later) I hardly twitched my head in the direction of her voice over my right shoulder and sorta lifted my head in lazy recognition.
I’m not usually like that, and as I’m typing this, I feel the aura of that moment enveloping me. It’s very Emperor-esque and I love having the gift of feeling like I did on Emperor for however long this vibe lasts.
Ahhh, but it fades now.
So yeah, I felt that vibe. No. Since this current shift started the day I made my seed post, imma call it le seed.
So ya brah, I felt le - for journaling continuity, and to give myself a laugh when I read this later, imma leave that there. But I’m not going to call it ‘le seed’ no mo. 
I felt the vibe that started when I lost interest in her modest derriere increasing and my old skills in swiftly gliding around a work place and getting shit knocked out was back in spades. It was honestly fucking awesome.
I haven’t been as confident since I fractured my ankle because, my natural swagger came back but it left my balance behind. So I get stuck in my head trying to let me body move the way it wants to, while not drifting right or left. I feel like I look like a Dum Dum who wants Gum Gum.
In the past two days though, now that I typed that, I’ve been getting back to the smoothness I used to have. It’s pretty great. I’m at risk of gushing about LDU’s unexpected awesomeness rather than finishing my original thing so…
As I was going around, I noticed people were… Hmm.
What’s the word… Not admiring. Not staring. A level below studying, and that’s it.
I feel like Malkuth will be the first to provide the one I’m looking for.
Ahhh I forgot one thing. I called her out on saying my name. I dropped off the appliance and strode right up to her side and said, “What’s the favor?”
She looked at me startled and slightly puzzled and I continued, “That’s the second time I’ve heard you say my name, and the last time you wanted a favor afterwards. What is it?” And she looked slightly confused and started stammering a little bit while I patiently waited for an answer.
The guy that was behind her heard my question and legit like 3 - 5 seconds went by and I heard him start laughing and say, “Daaaaaaaaaamn.” I glanced at him and then back at her and kept waiting. Finally, she sheepishly grinned and made a sign like she had just toked.
Ye iight 
After THAT, is when I lost interest. I should edit this and just correct the sequence of events but that doesn’t feel like a Thursday activity.
So, I finished up unloading and went to get the dolly keys from her. We have to lock up the dollies at work cuz some of these guys have sticky fingers.
I definitely feel like I’m an asshole now, but I silently walked up in front of the two girls and held out my hand without saying a word.
For some reason, they didn’t take any offense. The one I have been talking about (who is not really that attractive to me besides her eyes and figure) apologized like she fucked up and had me waiting there and scrambled to find the keys to give them to me. The other girl just smiled and tilted her head at me (no attraction from either of us but she’s cool, great personality on her 
) and I smiled back and nodded at her.
Now that I type that, I must have looked like I was dismissing the other chick cuz I let her drop the keys into my hand and walked off without acknowledging her after.
Damn.
Now. I drop off the dollies and here’s where it’s interesting to me because as I’m typing, realizations are popping up. I locked up the dollies and went to return the key to her. On the way there, I felt something I haven’t felt for awhile. It’s actually why I wanted Primal the moment I saw the title art and read the description the first time.
I felt the beast within me arise, bro. Like, as soon as I finished the task I had set, boom. It was fine to play again.
When I say the beast, I mean… When I’ve successfully stayed off porn for awhile on a NoFap streak in past times, there comes a certain moment when I become primal. There’s no other way for me to put it.
Energetically speaking, of course. But I get intense. And interesting things happen.
But back to now. Then. I was walking and felt the (insert guttural something) rise to the forefront. It wasn’t necessarily sexual, though that indeed is part of it I think.
I came around the corner with about thirty feet of distance between me and the check in girls and the one I’ve been talking about IMMEDIATELY felt my eye contact. And I didn’t break it. At. All.
The entire time I was striding towards her, her eyes were glued to mine like she was stunned. I can’t make this up, but she literally glanced to both sides of her slowly very quickly as if checking if I was looking at someone else and then right back to mine, on stuck.
It must have been about forty feet cuz though I’m not totally back to Ninjistic balance, I definitely move faster then your average person when I walk. I got to about fifteen feet from her and her eyes darted down to my Ninji and then back up to my eyes. I honestly felt that it was involuntary and she gave in to a fight not to look, like I do when a beautiful girl with a nice figure walks by me and I give in to the itch.
I gave her a Smeyes (eye smile. I was wearing a mask) and handed her the keys. She said okay, thank you soo much but in a distracted way, while her eyes lingered on my arms as I pulled away.
Yeah, iight
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I am considering using LDU every few days as a ‘booster’ for multiple potential benefits while I’m on my washout.
A few thoughts.
Do you want your journal title to be changed to “Sage’s Rise: the Wanted Son of Lightning”?
Now the following is simply my thoughts and giving you some information to think about:
Back in the 1980s there was an electronic device rumored to help people who were overcoming addictions, including celebrities.
https://www.bobbeck.com/brain-tuner.html
https://altered-states.net/barry/newsletter428/omni.htm
https://altered-states.net/barry/newsletter333/
One such device evolved into:
This is the device I would use 
because the owners of the company worked closely with Bob Beck, who invented one of these Brain Tuner devices.
I’ve been buying from this company (SOTA) for years.
TIP: If you decide to buy one, ask for a “previously used device”. They seem to have a few in stock and you save a bit of $$$
Now why do I mention all this?
I’ve wondered if such a device might help people overcome PMO because in my opinion, PMO might be similar to an addiction.
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Yeah. I forgot to mention it before and felt dumb later so I didn’t bother. Please
Always welcome on my thread
I skimmed the first one, looks interesting and dense so I bookmarked all three for better absorption later. Thank you for taking the time.
Do you or someone you know own a Bio Tuner? Based off the link I skimmed, Mr. Beck is a big deal.
This helps with the skeptical side of me (that also happens to speak up during recon times, heh) so I appreciate that tidbit lol.
I’ll run it by my pockets to make sure I don’t get into trouble, but I’m down to try it out imma try this bookmarking-time feature to see if I can remind myself to check this post I’m replying to later.
I do. I’ve been using one for over 10 years.
He’s one of the most famous people you’ve never heard of.
You know that flash on your phone?
Many years ago, it was that you had to buy disposable flashes for a camera. The bulb flashed. You chucked the bulb. Then you put in another one. Using xenon gas, he developed a reusable flash. That light/flash on your phone is one of his technological grandchildren.
This is your reminder: check your book marks. 
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10/01/21
I am being reminded of my empathic nature recently. I sense the mood of others around me and feel the atmosphere of the room right before I enter it.
Unfortunately, I haven’t worked on shielding as much as I should have. My defense stat points are minimal. So yeah. Imma have to do a little more than surrounding myself in golden light but fuck, I hate rituals.
I was setting up a dishwasher when my lead noticed a tiny dent. He went inside to inform the customer and he was gone for like ten seconds when I felt my mood immediately go “blah”.
Sure enough, the guy comes out and looks at the dishwasher and, though he was nice about it, I could feel he was pissed and that put me in a subdued, introspective mood that’s lasted even until now.
Of course, Polarity, Rhythm and a few others are tools I have at my immediate disposal and I could get out of this mood (and am now) as easily as a man walking out of an unlocked jail cell. But…I let it simmer lol.
The next house was depressing as I let my energy get depleted, but my lead, noticing my mood, called me into the house and told me to go find the customer to get them to show me the breaker box while giving me that look I’ve come to associate with this guy.
I thought that was odd of him but I dutifully did so and lo!
For the ‘them’ was a she! And the she was wearing some see-through tight leggings over a suspiciously line-less bottom.
Forsooth, my mood rose, as did I. Verily, I followed her all around the house as we attempted to find the breaker box.
I say we, but I was trying to find her panty line.
Twas not to be found here, there or indeed, anywhere! Joy was in my heart as I also found out how fond she seemed to be of pulling up these leggings that were already firmly affixed to her waist line whenever she felt me right behind her.
She and I went different directions in her back yard to check the different sides of the house. I took my time on my side as I chided my member to curb his enthusiasm and just as my guy and I got on the same page, she called from the other side that she found out.
Nothing in the universe is constant so alas, for this moment, as with all things, passed.
But not before I came to her side of the house to discover that she waited there for some reason and once she saw me hit the corner, turned slightly away from me as if she was focusing on the person on the phone. Which is a possibility.
Or.
She wanted the sunlight to hit her angle like a social media girl.
I ask myself. “Do you care?”
And I do not 
She went back into the house and I lost interest in her from that point forward, even when I went in later and found her bent over the washing machine with my lead. I’m curious where this quick and sudden loss of interest comes from.
Perhaps de-pedestalizing? LDU? Primal?
…AM?
Hm.
Another interesting thing I forgot about that happened before my moment of empathic weakness.
My lead was the one who told me this. We delivered to a pretty blonde lady, just dropping off a freezer. She was in a hurry to go cuz she had to pick up her son at 11:20, but we told her on the phone that it would be very fast and she could make it even waiting for us.
So, we pulled up and she was waiting in her car on the side of the road. When I got out, I saw her beam and get out and she yelled from like 50 ft away in a very chipper voice a greeting to me. I smiled and waved at her and her neighbor who was also giving me a huge smile and staring from like three houses down.
I did my normal thing. Dropped the gate, got my dolly, got the freezer, put it on the gate.
By the time I did the last part, my lead was out and in her garage talking to her. So I opened up the freezer, and Dolly’d it up the steep driveway.
Here’s the pertinent part. I dropped off the freezer and unstrapped my dolly.
She was watching me silently the whole time and as I pulled out (my dolly) and turned to leave, she smiled at me saying I’ve obviously done this before. I smiled back and said “I’m glad somebody thinks so.” And walked away to close up my truck door and clean up.
So, my lead jumps in the driver seat after a couple minutes and says thoughtfully, “That was weird.”
I asked what he meant and he explained that she was friendly the entire time we were there, up until I left the garage. He said as soon as I left, she became a word RV would tut tut at me for. He said that as I was walking away, he apologized again to her for us delaying her going to get her son.
The first time was when we got there, and he said she blew it off and said he can wait.
This second he says she had a short bitter voice and said it’s fine and snatched the receipt from his hand and stormed into her house 
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I’ve been reading the forum a lot lately and I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s time to improve my custom.
I built it with two objectives and I have no complaints. I’ll probably run the original for awhile yet, to get all I am able to out of my investment.
However, it’s come up a lot recently in suggestions from Saint for us to focus our customs on one singular objective and that’s what I’ll do.
All Primal related modules (except maybe Gorgeous Manifestor I mean, c’mon) will be removed and replaced with success, status and productivity modules.
Now that I look at my modules again, I didn’t actually do too bad. Primal is the only one to be replaced from my initial scan.
My Custom:
Ascended Mogul
Primal
Inner Circle
Mastermind:
Careful planning, organization and management in a profoundly calculating manner was in ancient history considered one of the most effective ways of achieving success… seen in such individuals history remembers even now – like the great military genius Cao Cao who was honoured on the levels of emperors without being one officially. Mastermind will help you plan grand plans that will help you achieve your goals with utmost creativity and rapid efficiency.
Dynasty:
A module focused on your family, building up your relationships with each family member, creating family unity and helping other family members find themselves in life. Your connection to your family and them to you will become deeper and deeper, and each person will become more and more successful as well as happier. For the family man or woman, this is a must have.
Faith Unyielding:
Faith in one’s ideals, abilities, or a greater power has moved men to great feats that echo throughout history. Faith Unyielding will help you develop such profound faith and use it in many areas of your life – to help your connection to the deity of your religion, to help in your spiritual endeavors, to bring greater faith in your own abilities, to even inspire others with the power of your unyielding faith.
Jupiter:We manifest every moment, every second of our lives. Every moment we breathe, every moment that we are – we manifest. If we develop our ability to manifest more powerfully and more consciously, we will unlock heights we couldn’t even dream of. This is what control over your reality is truly about, and that is what the Jupiter module delivers.
Yggdrasil:Yggdrasil is a module designed to speed and open up the pathways to manifestation. Similar to the roots of a mighty tree, the pathways will become numerous and wide. You will notice the most unlikely positive circumstances and opportunities manifesting to help you with your goals.
Potentiator: The Potentiator is about stopping you from repressing your power and potential, and instead allowing yourself to express and enjoy the endless possibilities that lie before you. You will not only become aware of all these possibilities you have, but also have ideas on how to best make use of them.
Gorgeous Manifestation: A manifestation module focusing specifically on beautiful women who would be interested in you. Will highly increase the ratio of beautiful and approachable women around you. It is up to you to pull the trigger.
Lifeblood Fable: Your reputation is the lifeblood of your success in many aspects of life such as business, romance and politics. Without nurturing it, you leave an incredibly important factor to potentially random elements and accidents. Lifeblood Fable will help you shape your reputation in any way you desire – a reputation of a profound spiritual teacher, of a powerful business magnate, of a seducer who makes all weak in the knees – with Lifeblood Fable, you have the choice. Not only that, but you will also effortlessly improve your reputation generally in the most beneficial way to you and find ways to evolve it even further.
Dragon Tongue: Improving your speech and wit is an inescapable part of becoming a powerful individual, and while all our majors contain modules for mastering wit, it is an excellent idea to focus further on your Dragon Tongue. You will become better and better at reframing situations into being advantageous for you, as well as improve more and more in debates and public speaking. Being witty and funny in your very own way will easily become natural.
Direct Influencing Aura: Directly influences any person, guided by conscious intent and subconscious desires, in order to fulfill any goals ranging from wealth, love, art, simple persuasion etc.
Carpe Diem Ascended:Extreme motivation and ambition is paramount to fulfilling your life’s goals and becoming the man you want to be. This module is created for the sole purpose of manifesting and developing incredible amounts of motivation, drive and ambition, that will cause you to go after your ambitions relentlessly. Some other powerful effects include immense satisfaction whenever you achieve something (even something as simple as cleaning or eating well) and the amazing love for life you will develop. Waking up happy, motivated and driven to conquer everyday is now reality.
Mystery:We are all filled with limitless potential, countless talents and unknown abilities. The Mystery helps bring out these hidden talents you never knew you had. You will experience new opportunities to learn things and you will see unexpected talent emerging whenever you try something new. You will see yourself with abilities you didn’t know you had. You might want to ask – what abilities or talents will I see? You’re going to have to find out. That is… the Mystery.
Eye of the Storm: Losing yourself in a negative habit (or several!) can feel like drifting into a storm. With Eye of the Storm, you will regain your control over your negative habits and become able to build positive habits with greater and greater ease. Whenever you feel yourself drifting, you will be able to safely end up in the Eye of the Storm and take back control over your life. You can also use Eye of the Storm whenever you want to build new positive habits.
New Beginnings
Financial Success: Reality Shifter: Shifting reality… A concept that sounds far fetched. At Subliminal Club… it isn’t. With FSRS, we will be shifting your reality and your perception of it into a reality where financial success is the only true reality. This will result in unbelievable coincidences, luck, chance meetings etc. Wealth is within your grasp.
Secret Source: You never know the opportunities that are waiting untapped just for you. Now you have the possibility to find out all the sources of money that you can create and that will bring you continuous, rising wealth. Look out for opportunities that seem unorthodox and do not be afraid to explore with an open mind – your Secret Sources will appear.
Virtue Series: Temperance: Scarcity mindset and the desire for instant gratification are powerfully ingrained beliefs that put a screeching halt to any dreams of long term success. Develop your virtue of Temperance – turn your scarcity mindset into a mindset of wise abundance, and develop true understanding of delayed gratification.
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With WANTED, I find women are more likely to act weird around me. The other day, I had one woman come out from the back area of a shop because she heard her co-workers talking with me. She was wondering what all the fun was about. She said hi to me. Then just stood there staring at me, and she was acting like this was normal.
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Yeah, recent experiences are causing me to wonder if some aspect of Wanted is still within my active subconscious
Another thing about it that maybe you can relate to. As women’s interest in me increases, my need for it decreases. Which metaphysically makes perfect sense to me
On a practical level, it’s perplexing.
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I’m confident it’s still in your subconscious. Just think of all the awkward and weird things you might have done around hot women… and then realize women might be doing those things around you.
Some things I’ve seen:
intense blushing within 30 seconds of conversation… as in their whole face turns red as a beet
staring
getting really close in my personal space
stammering
responding to my questions with words, but the words don’t have anything to do with my question; they’re not dodging the question, it’s as though the processing got lost somewhere in their brain
over 5 seconds of silence before answering a simple question
spastic breathy exhales
eagerly trying to please me or help me
excitedly showing me pictures about something they are happy about
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Yes, okay here is what I did.
I know what you are talking about.
So think of it this way, how many movies have you seen where the hero (a man) had to chase a disinterested woman.
This fucked up pattern has been so deeply drilled into our brains, it belongs in a 3 Stooges episode.
I started to consciously telling myself, I need to focus on and feel grateful for the women who are INTERESTED in me. As in genuinely interested. As in they stand close to me. Or act awkward around me. Or blush full on red. Etc.
I consciously told myself I need to treat them like blessings. I need to think of these women as precious jewels. Now it’s more of a reflex to feel happy they show up.
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If I can speak in terms more comfortable to me…
Once you consciously changed your in-look towards your personal relation to women in this way, what changes did you see in your personal paradigm in terms of novel women’s reaction to you?
What shift did you see in women already in your life?
Did it have an immediate affect on your love life, as well as your social exchanges with women in general?
I like this. I used to willfully think in a similar way and it’s powerful. Perhaps I’ll revisit that mental state…
They became more expected. Then they became so normal I think it’s odd when women do not act that way around me.
I’ve seen the same responses, but they now seem to respond that way more frequently, more intensely, and more quickly.
I think I would summarize it as: It’s changed how I view myself. It’s also changed that I tend to see women more as benevolent, and as a result I feel less nervous around them, and more confident I will enjoy my interactions with them, and they will enjoy interacting with me.
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I’m doing good. Very minimal report, but a report nonetheless, it is.
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