@aaa it’s true she loves drama. I told her last year, she told me “no”, and I showed her text of all her drama. And she told me “fuck, I’m really too addicted to drama”. Only thing I didn’t pushed further, I should of ingrained it within her. I’ll work on it to keep peace, but I won’t burn myself.
@Liquidfire @Yazooneh @Leandros @RVconsultant
Thank you all guys for your input and sharing your wisdom! If you guys ever come to montreal next summer come say hi to me 
Read your advice, I thought about it and reframed it to : let’s upgrade my Sexual adventures
Thanks buddy
Heheheh sure why not
I like Guardian with a big G.
I also like @Azriel’s analogy of me being the bumpers on the bowling alley, because with those bumpers the ball is guaranteed to hit a few pins over.
I’m like the Guardian of the bowling alley!
When you’re ready for another custom, please post what your modules are.
And keep posting in general, I like your posts.
Thanks for the invite to Montreal mate!
Right on man!
@RVconsultant @Sub.Zero @Azriel @Brandon @Malkuth and anyone else who might have any input on this.
I’m getting more and more annoyed with this non-sensitive to subs issue.
I’m now running the subs when I sleep, I just get the vivid dreams. But nothing even close that other people here on the forum are reporting.
I want to tackle this issue… Any idea how to do that?
I was thinking about getting Alchemist to see if St1 healing would get rid of whatever mental block is causing this.
Any ideas?
I’m guessing this might be related to your ability to listen to 8+ loops a day?
Would you please be as specific as possible what you mean by “non-sensitive to subs issue”?
Yeah. Except now I see it as having to listen to 8+ loops a day 
I don’t feel the subs at all.
I’m not very sensitive to subs either, @Hoppa. At least not compared to the average user here on the forum.
A bit ironic, because I’m a highly introverted person with a highly sensitive nervous system. Maybe it’s not ironic and there’s actually some connection?
You’ve mentioned several times that you didn’t feel much reaction to Ultimas. It took me a long time to get into Ultimas for the same reason. Particularly with the Gen 1’s I felt nothing.
With RiCH, I did feel something. And had some interesting manifestations. Dunno.
What are you thinking?
I don’t know if “feeling” the sub or having feelings when running the subs indicates anything.
I think what I would ask is “are you getting real world results”?
If you’re not “sensitive” to them, then maybe you’re not. I seem to be very sensitive, and it’s nothing to aim for.
What is your concern about not being sensitive to them?
And am I understanding what you are asking about?
I think I might have built stronger walls because of the environment I was in when I was a kid.
Working class neighbourhood in Finland isn’t a good place for someone who is thinking independently. The social pressure from everyone keeps you down. Heaven forbid you think about running a real business 
I never felt like I belonged there.
I was highly individualistic back then too. I kept to myself, reading. But then again I wasn’t your typical nerd either. I was into martial arts and american football. This was back when reading and playing computer games was the bad kind of nerdy.
It’s not just an issue with the subs. I’m also interested in self hypnosis and other modalities for changing myself, but nothing seems to work for me.
Edit: Except the SubClub subs, of course.
Hahaha! This is my lifelong experience as well!
Starting at 13 or earlier, I tried meditation and self-hypnosis and whatever else I could find. It didn’t ‘work’.
I used to have major angst about this. ‘What the f**k is wrong with me?’
I knew that I was very tense. In my case, also an independent thinker, I was often in a state of overwhelm in response to the people and social environments around me.
To this day, I’m still very easily insomniac. I can simply choose to not go to sleep.
I did mention somewhere a while back that I am stubborn… If someone tells me to do something, even if I know it would be good for me, I wont do it just to keep myself from having to obey others.
I’m externally accommodating and internally extremely stubborn.
That’s why I’m here. SC has consistently gotten me results.
I understand.
@Hoppa is this exchange helping?
Are we answering your inquiries?
Is there something we are missing?
Possibly as a result of all of these experiences, though; I have developed a particular perspective on these phenomena (e.g., trance, meditation, subliminals, altered states of consciousness, and so on).
It helped me to learn patience. And it helped me to see the literal magic that exists in the so-called mundane.
Eventually, I returned to meditation practice.
Hmm… I’m not describing this perfectly.
I have experienced reveries throughout life. And I was kind of a dreamy, other-worldly kind of kid. It was just that I wanted more. More intense, more obvious. PURE ENLIGHTENMENT. 
What about you?
Don’t know yet
I did have a good imagination (still do, ofc). Reading allowed me to experience all kinds of different worlds. Now that I’m older I want to see what is possible with our brains…
I just feel like there is something more that I can’t quite grasp. Just beyond my reach. And this mental block is keeping me away from it.
To be honest @Hoppa I tend to have the whole ‘Are the subs working for me?’ ‘am I changing?’ ‘am I wasting my time listening?’ conversations too because so many people on the forum always post about how they feel the subs and I don’t really feel it. I never feel masculine from Khan or Godlike Masculinity in my subs, I don’t feel popular or anything from Stark or whatever.
I never feel it really. Only things I really get are headaches and bad moods to know I’m experiencing processing.
It isn’t until I look back at things that I associate them with the subs. I see results and stuff but everyone else feels stuff and I don’t.
Edit: I’m also very stubborn. Maybe it’s that?
Also I was speaking to a user on here and he was listening to 6 loops of terminus and has found better results listening to 2 loops of each sub (I believe?).
Unless you own it.
I had to do the same 