Yep same here… I’m being shit tested actually for some days now. The ultima is right on time.
Take it easy man, listen to some music, listen to some calming subs sang/elix.
I had anxiety the other day, still have it now to some degree, maybe the ultima will help there as well.
I’ll log it in later before my day ends.
There’s a part of me that wants to drop DR because I can only add 3 major subs. Is that right? Anyway EoG and Quantum, perhaps even Khan in the future before I can make a custom.
I know sticking with dragon will pay off dividends in the future. It’s recon for sure.
This ultima…
I was feeling a little jaded since I streamlined my stack. Yes, I feel good and centered but it’s not the same feeling with Stark. I felt happy and celebratory for some reason when I’m running Stark for a few days.
EQ = 
Stark = 
I am somehow feeling that right now… I don’t even have a lot of motivation to post a lot the past few days and here I am already posting my 5th entry for the day. I have to know exactly what this prototype is all about, it’s certainly fascinating.
Oh and the heavy shit test stopped abruptly… hahaha wooo. Leave me alone
(Btw, I just got awarded Crazy in love as I type this… …I don’t even…)
Right back at ya hermano 
My observations of the Lovebomb ultima prototype: (1st time, 1 loop)
-Before playing, I was starting to have the early signs of recon, I’m 2nd guessing if I should go on with my stack, or should change things up a bit. 2-3 hours after I listened once, and I don’t feel the recon.
-My mood changed gradually for the better, I’m on EQ which tends to make me feel centered and grounded. With this ultima, I was reminded of Stark. Felt happier, more social and upbeat.
-Sometimes when I’m on EQ I noticed I have either this blank stare or an ice cold look if something truly got my attention and I’m analyzing in the background. It’s not meant to be rude but I noticed this in myself when I’m focusing on what someone is saying. With the ultima, I guess my eyes were kinder, and friendlier. I can’t explain it exactly, but it feels like I am smiling through my eyes. I can see it through the demeanor of who I am talking to, cause they tend to change their look as well.
-I joke around more, and it doesn’t take much to make me laugh out loud today.
-Noticed more hugs and clinginess. Deer in the headlights too.
-Been complimented about my body and looks.
-I didn’t feel sexual. Not today.
-Something in it made me appreciate my look in the mirror for some reason. Maybe it has some beautifying effect? Is that what that’s called? Anyway I haven’t shaved for about 5 days now, and right around this time I’m usually shaking my head when I see myself, I don’t let my beard grow this much, cause one 1. I don’t think it looks good on me. 2. It’s damned itchy.
Well, when I saw myself in the mirror, I was like huh… this isn’t so bad. I dig it. I’m shaving it off though, the ultima did not help with the itch, sadly.
-Had a discussion over lunch, the topic was pretty serious but no negativity felt. The conversation was actually pleasant. Saw plenty of nods in agreement.
-Minimal negative thoughts. Actually I think my love for myself heightened with this Ultima.
-I was still productive.
-Music was more enjoyable. I love music, but I think it heightened my level of enjoyment.
-I automatically skipped over bad news or negative stuff. I’m just not interested in it.
Tomorrow is my rest day, but I’ll note here in case something remarkable happens that I can be sure to attribute to the prototype and not my other subs.
This ultima is fantastic, I wonder how it could work during interviews or instances when you need to be convincing like in sales etc.
your communication is almost like a different person lately, the succinctness and clarity. I think whatever you’ve been doing is working.
My rambling thoughts is a source of embarassment, and improving upon this is one of my goals. This means a lot. Thanks brother.
most welcome!–here’s a cool tip if you are embarrassed by it (unsolicited advice 
)-look to catch when you are going to ramble and set a context for it.
You can do this by saying consciously ramble: (insert ramble here) lol
It sounds funny but it’s one step to getting space around it and communicating more powerfully/responsibly.
@Azriel Ah… haha gotcha. Advice away my friend. I’ve lost a lot, but one thing I didn’t is to always keep an open mind and be open for advice. I appreciate that
Small note: It’s my rest day but an old friend suddenly contacted me out of the blue today. We didn’t have any communication for maybe a year. I’m pretty certain I could attribute this to the Lovebomb prototype I played once yesterday. If so, it has an effect over very long distances.
I’ve also gotten a note with 3 hearts yesterday from another friend. It’s very minor but just synchronicities and observations I’d like to add in my journal.
Still my rest day today. I can’t say I am not tempted to run a loop of the prototype but it’s going to change my routine. I’m thinking of running it again tomorrow just to see if something new pops up.
As for my subs, I feel good and centered. I didn’t have much negative thoughts since yesterday, I just feel light.
Alright, I wasn’t going to test it today but I had a sudden shift in mood and I’m feeling pretty down. I figured now is the perfect time for me to observe myself and to test for self-effects. I’m only playing the prototype once today, and only that.
I’m not expecting anything but if my mood changes noticeably, I will attribute it to the Ultima, including anything out of the ordinary today.
That made me smile 
Thanks bud
Anytime. Always here for you
Obvious improvements in my mood. Been singing along to some music and had a pretty vibrant discussion.
Interesting indeed. Back to the stack tomorrow
Edit. Now I feel I have multiple personalities. That’s just great. 
Last entry for the Lovebomb Ultima prototype for now: Good feels plateaued around 2-3 hours. I don’t feel as social as yesterday, not even in the mood to have a romantic banter. I just want to do my own thing and listen to some music.
I noticed I joked around a bit, which is interesting, because I felt the pangs of depression showing itself earlier today. The ultima is powerful, it abated even that, and to think I only played it once.
It’s a great tool to have in the toolbox, but I have yet to complete my emotional healing which ElixirU might expedite alongside DR.
As for outside reactions, there is attraction and I felt more likeable on this one, if not the sudden impulse to show some type of bravado, or playfulness which surprised me, I thought I was too old for that or no longer have it in me.
That impulse almost got me into trouble, but I felt like I got a free pass, again due to the Ultima, and I was able to smooth it out quickly.
That’s it. Cheers
Feeling meh right now. Recon from the Ultima maybe.
Day 9
Dragon Reborn ST 1
EQ
PS