So I’ve realized one of the biggest issues I have is emotional suppression. Before I can even get to healing the emotion, about 90% of the time I have a block before that’s preventing me from doing so. Guilt, shame, fear, I don’t know whatever it is it prevents me from integrating what the subliminals are doing. It’s like a very multi layered disposition towards my own emotional landscape.
I was running the limit destroyer Ultima, but I’m not sure that’s going to cover this issue. I have elixir which would probably help. But I was wondering if anyone had any thoughts on this.
A quick note I’ve tried meditation for this. I just have to say this is a lifelong chronic very subtle problem for me. Suppression doesn’t always mean actively holding it in, sometimes it’s dissociating. Meditation doesn’t work for this problem, it can actually make it worse. Less internal focus has actually been helping me more. So I’m going to guess the best approach for this is just working on it slowly and ironically giving it as little conscious focus as possible. It seems when I dive into it more consciously, the more issues and defense mechanisms arise.