I too am a Christian, and I’ll add that since using subs that directly challenged my deeply held truths, I’ve let go of a lot of denial. Over 2 years ago, while on a strong emotional healing sub (from another vendor), I pulled out of nearly all my long-time social hangouts, church included. My reason was I realized I put on a false front automatically. I’m seeking truth daily, but what touches me deeply is that I see my God seeking me. He seeks interaction with me, daily.
I came to SC both with anticipation and cautiousness, wanting freedom but fearing I’d have to abandon my morals and standards. I never challenged people or authorities much at all, so that was why I was afraid.
I first bought Emperor, ran it for 4 hours, while posting my questions here. I got thoroughly pissed on Emperor alone, and Alexander added his suggestion of using Ascension to prime my thinking, since Emperor is a very fast mover of change. I did Ascension for 3 months, moving on to Ascension Mogul. I began Emperor last week, and the transition was pretty smooth. No emotional explosions at all. (I’d done some on Ascension to a manipulative coworker). Emperor is changing me, and I’d not be here if I’d stayed with Emperor from the beginning. The pace of change on Emperor is sudden and steady, so if you choose to change, no shame. Yeah, in my first 4 hours on it, I felt like even telling Alexander “F*** OFF!” It showed clearly how much I was not in control of my own life and thinking, and it infuriated me. His counsel saved me.
It took courage to admit this too Smythsonian. Great job!
