Almost two weeks running these subs.
Something happened, which could be a blooming from Wanted, which i won’t tell in order to not be tagged as self-delusional.
Many things happened but my english is not graceful and that would ruin the special thing about those moments.
Besides, i’m taking a lot of action towards my goals, and amazing good side-effects are rapidly forgotten. Enjoyed but forgotten.
This happened on the weekend, my wife and i were travelling in the subway.
Three peddlers who seemed to be drunken, stoned or high, you know…intoxicated, started messing up with passengers.
They started getting noisy, trying to get attention, to appear threatening:
“We are gonna buy drugs, yeah, i want all the wagon to know it”…“Today i feel like fighting”.
One was sitting beside me, two in front of me.
They adressed a young boy: “Hey, you are laughing about me…what’s so funny”…( they talked in slang)…the boy got really nervous and about to cry.
Some passengers got up and headed to another wagon.
My wife who was sitting in the corner was making me gestures meaning that i had to get away from there.
I was calm, feeling a burning indignation inside, thinking about society decadence, lack of codes of certain people.
I was staring at them intermittently but no one of them made eye contact with me.
I wasn’t afraid, i was curious, i guess Ascension or Rebirth gave me a grounded stance about circumstances: “will i end up beaten up, bruised by 3 bullies?”, “if i knock the ringleader down first do i have a chance to get away unhurt?”…
There was a solid tension in the air.
The guy sitting next to me says: “Hey, someone stole my phone”…one of his friends replies: “i know who stole it…it was him”, pointed out at me.
“Hey man, you really did it? blahblahblah…” i wasn’t hearing no more. They started asking questions…I didn’t utter a single word; i just kept a long stare directly in the eye of one of them, the one that accused me, who seemed to be the ringleader…there was a silence…one of them says something again…i look at them…no response…just a long stare…the message behind my stare was “if you want trouble you will have it”…
Then abruptly, the leader shouts ( half seriously, half jokingly): Calm down, man…calm down…just a joke. Look at this guy, i won’t mess with him…he will beat our asses up"…another “bad guy” says: yeah, take it easy, it doesn’t have to be that way"…they try to befriend me, they make a salute fist with me ( Corona virus style) which i slowly and reluctantly accept.
Immediately afterwards, one of them tries to steal the phone of a young guy who was filming near the exit door. They struggle and because some shouting of his girlfriend they left him alone. Then they exit the wagon insulting some passengers, throwing candies at the people (this is what they were selling).
It left me with a sweet-bitter feeling. A feeling of irreality.
What if i had not reacted the “right” way? Today i would be in coma, and maybe i’d be the protagonist of some Youtube video where a random guy is beaten to the ground by some ruffians.
The cool thing is that while furious inside i kept myself collected, with an unusual clarity of mind amidst a chaotic situation.
That event has more details, but this simplified version is what i can offer for the time being.
