I’ve been running LD for 3 cycles now and today was when I had the strongest epiphany or realization. So growing up, I was always taught that you should forgive others when they do you wrong. Which is good and all but the one thing that I realize today is just because you forgive someone, doesn’t mean you have to give them your energy, your time or anything even if they are your family. I have several family members who have done me wrong and never apologized and that’s when I realized that you should stay away from people who do you wrong and have no remorse because they will try to turn you into a bad person in order to justify their actions towards you. Often times it’s subconscious and they are not aware of it. Sometimes, when you are trying to improve, the people around you who’ve known you all you life will unconsciously sabotage your growth in order to bring “balance” or homeostasis because what they experience contradicts their beliefs of you. Which has come to light even more so while running LD. I began to realize that how my family viewed me and treated me affected me in many aspects of my life where I didn’t feel worthy enough. So I still live with my immediate family. Since I was young, I’ve always been treated as I was the help or something. I was expected to clean the house everyday, no questions asked, since middle school. No one else had the same responsibilities. I was basically sheltered and programmed by my mom to be less than and do what I can to atone for some wrong I did her when I was a toddler. These are not my words but hers. As you can see the level of narcissistic abuse and physical abuse that tore me apart but I didn’t have the self awareness as a kid to realize that. Some ask why I never moved out and it’s because I didn’t see any value in myself. I didn’t think I could be on my own and was programmed to the point where independence was discouraged on every level. It’s only during my LD and primal run that I realized and took steps to move out. First time ever in my life where I’m thinking for myself and not for others and their wellbeing at the cost of mine. I’ve made plans, seen different house and about to move out once I get a response. It’s been difficult trying to get a place within my budget but I’m still searching. I know once I finally move out, the healing will be deeper and more profound but also a lot of realization will come from it and some unpleasant emotions and repressed memories. I’m kind of eager to run dragon reborn now with mogul. Just to see how much it pushes me.
Awesome! Good job, my friend! 
I kicked my whole family out of my life.
There is one way only for them to re-enter my life.
If I can see, feel,hear, the necessary changes they had made in my absence and I speak of fundamental transformation to the core. This means they have to face they deepest pain and heal it.
If this is not the case, they have no chance to return.
In your situation, the moment you move out it’s starting to get really clear what is from you and what not. Just do it and keep up the good progress you made.
Just remember : the dragon is your friend
If you get that much from DRLD, you’d love DRR.
From my experience with DRLD, it’s just focused on breaking limits. Which is great if you want to focus there.
But DRR is a whole different beast. It’s more holistic in its approach. It is based on working with your inner power, breaking out of the BS that the society has installed in you to hold you down. It will fit your healing goal like a glove.
Based on what you wrote, I really recommend DRR after you’re done with DRLD.
If LD is working so well for you, I would stick with it and pair it up with Mogul. Another thing to consider is that DRR could throw you off balance when you’re in the process of making a big change in your life, like moving out.
Personally, I would run DRR only if my sole focus were healing and my circumstances allowed for plenty of leisure time to contemplate, meditate, exercise, relax, read, and just talk to people.
I’m happy for your results, mate. Keep it up.
This is spot on
Damn you are a badass
Wasn’t funny at all and sometimes i feel the sting hitting my heart when they try to contact me but then I remember very quick why they are out of my life and then the next second I feel powerfull and a surge of self respect and love overcomes me.
I made the right choice
And I am happy with it, I have gained freedom, time to heal, love, self respect, self care, and power.
After your through your parents the following relationships are a pice of cake
Thanks Lion
Thanks.
I 100% agree with you.
was it tough though kicking your family out though? Like where there like an initial shock or whatever?
I ran DRR on my custom, I think it was just the clearing stage 1 but my custom was more focused on wealth and only ran it once. I’m definitely thinking about running it again though. I wanted to run a custom with DRR stages 1-3 and have omni, deus, alpha modol( not sure if I spelled that correctly) basically trying to heal in an infinite amount of possible angles
Thanks, maybe I’ll wait to run DRR till I’m financially secure and can be on my own for awhile then run DRR. I feel like I got some gunk deep, deep down that’s been lying dormant for a long long time that I need to address.
They just thought it was like in the past for maybe a couple of months or 1-2 years but after 3 years they realized that this must be serious.
I asked to be heard one last time but didn’t receive a possibility to do it so I just let them in the cold and moved away.
I saw my father 5 years later and he was realy pissed of when I told him I have chosen to go seperat ways and I gave no ear for him. He was going like : you owe me…
That was the moment I put 30 years into a scream and screamed :asshole so loud he pisst in his pants an run away.
What a relief
I received from my mother a message last Christmas where she tells me : there is now enough time between our last contact and she feels that’s it’s time to meet again and she is now waiting for me to meet her when I am ready.
So this is laughable as well.
My brother I screamed so hard in the face for the first time in our relationship, I saw no motion in him (and no he is not on drugs or pills) that I was so perplex that I also left. This year he gave me a call and wanted to meet me so we made an appointment only for him to cancel 2 hours before and telling me that something trivial is more important than our meeting.
So he didn’t learn the lesson as well giving me again the feeling a fart of a fly is more important than family.
So there I am in a hostel in Granada - Spain and this hostel has such a family vibe that I for the First time have the feeling that I am at home.
Its the 3rd time I extended my stay because I need this feeling of family so much that I Wil stay longer.
Its the best thing.
So that’s for my side
I felt this in my soul. My mom does this. Every time I’m trying to go no contact and not talk to her or avoid her or stand up for myself. It’s almost like they think that you being born was a burden if you "owe " them something. That’s something I’ve had to remind myself time and time again that I don’t owe anybody anything except those who collect taxes lol.
I can only imagine all the pain that was released from that scream, all the pent up anger and frustration.
I feel like what you are doing is a big step. Most people don’t realize that on the journey to healing, you have to let go of some people holding you back because they can’t go where you are going. Some may even try to put their baggage on you since they see you have no baggage to carry.
Normaly you don’t do this lightly but in my case it was a complete lost case so I throw it away and I am good with this decision.
If you have normal parents you don’t have to go to this length.
Anyway I hope you can resolve your stuff without going in this direction.
All the best to your Journey man.