Raphael's "Start from Scratch" & "Stick to the Stack" Journal

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#61

Sunday

Renaissance Man x 0 (Day 7)
WANTED x 0 (Day 7)
Raphael Ultima x 0 (Day 12)

  • Have decided to focus only on physical healing subs at the moment. The deterioration in my eyes continues and I want to give my energy to its healing. So will have to drop Renaissance Man and WANTED until I heal enough to even be in a state of mind to use them.

  • Will be running Raphael Ultima alone for a while. If it doesn’t change things, I will add Emperor Fitness ST1 and Dragon Reborn ST2 to it. If even that doesn’t work out, I will have to search for solutions elsewhere until Subclub releases the highly anticipated Hero title.

  • Will be taking a temporary break from the forum. Am in the pits and I don’t feel inspired to contribute either to the journal or to the community.

  • If things turn around for me, I will update you guys. Until then, take care.

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#62

Hope things get better soon man

Always here to talk if you need to vent or need words of encouragement

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#63

So after a week of being off the subs, I came to some somber realizations:

  • As much as I wanted to be a Renaissance Man and have the body and sex life of someone who is WANTED, I needed to get some basic foundations straight.

  • This came from the following thought: “what sort of man will I be if my father passed away today?” As some people rightly say “live as if your father is dead”. As in, live a life financially, emotionally, mentally and physically free of your father.

  • Coming from a culture that stresses on unquestioning obedience to the head of the household and family, I have a lot to work on.

  • Controlling parents are an issue. At the same time, I must be careful that I don’t end up self-victimizing myself and blaming others for my own predicament because this is a sure-fire way to rob myself of my own power.

  • For this reason, I will have to choose titles that help me with getting a handle on the urgent issues like being financially independent, leaving home, being my own man, etc and not on mastering many disciplines and looking like a greek god (which I can always do later down the line when I will be in a situation to study various subjects and go to the gym which require money and a mind free from the basic problems am currently facing).

  • Have yet to decide what titles I will choose but it will be something like Ascension or Emperor or even Ecstasy of Gold (for financial objectives). Will combine this with Ultimate Artist for creative gains. And Raphael Ultima for physical healing. And maybe Power Can Corrupt to help me handle relationships.

  • Still have a day to decide and then I will continue my journey on this thread.

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#64

Hey man when ever yo get a chance check your messages lol

I ended up starting back at building a foundation too starting 2 new customs i ordered wednesday

I feel like Emperor+PCC and RM+UA is a good set to go for
You could also add HoM after a bit to help with the family dynamic

Emperor also has some workout related modules in it from what i understand or did at some point

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#65

Yo! Did you message me, bro? Didn’t get a notification for that. Will do.

These are very good ideas.

Maybe a very tight custom will help me too, similar to the one you are doing. Let me think on it though. Been rushing into things a lot lately and I want to avoid that lol

Thanks for your message of encouragement last time, my friend. I didn’t even have the heart and mindset to reply. My emotional turmoil was so bad. Must have been recon.

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#66

I have been doing more rest days this week too and willl start that a lot more to help process.
They certainly help a lot more then i would have thought originally lol

Probably a bit of recon but in general we all go through period of that sometimes… that is life

The important thing to remember all that pain and emotion is temporary but at the sametime only you can change your outcome

Ya im just a bit crazy with my customs but its okay lol i accept that. But i am making a deal with myself for sticking to these 2 for atleast 3 months till after my bday then i can possibly remake them with different modules if i see fit

But for sure go start with a foundation of something maybe emperor or AM.

I went with Emperor+PCC+HoM since i’ve had quick results from other decently sized subs lol plus if i stick long term the results will be pretty crazy with lifestyle changes and more.

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#67

Very true

Good luck!

This is very tempting. I have HoM with me (impulsively purchased it when it was on a special sale when I was buying something else).

Had ran HoM once or twice and I did feel a lot of “familial love” from me towards my family.

Have you tried HoM? Wonder if it will make me attached to my family when I want to break free.

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#68

I did last year for a month but i don’t remember the results lol

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#69

Isn’t this journal called “Stick to the Stack?” :wink:

I mean, not that reconciliation is trying to get you off your subs! Just a hint!

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#70

Haha yeah am aware of it but there is something to be said about priorities too. Lets see.

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#71

It is all about priorities lol

Sometimes you need to put certain things above others … tho you could meld Emperor with RM or UA to make you an awesome writer and business mogul maybe start a publishing company eventually

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#72

Now that’s an excellent idea.

Yes! And you want to stick to the correct stack for the circumstances.

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#73

The day I finally found my purpose. It was right under my nose (as such things normally are)!!!

Okay! I got my stack. I got it because I finally found my purpose.

My purpose is to write poetry (for starters i.e. because if I am led to write anything else after that, I will do so).

This is not a new revelation. For several years I have written a lot of poems which both my friends and family loved. But I always used to consider it a third-rate-writing-skill compared to writing stories and non-fiction. Instead of forcing myself to be an author of fantasy or self-help books, I should have just stuck to being a poet.

For the past few days, I was reading the sales pages of several titles like Renaissance Man, Emperor, Emperor House of Medici, WANTED, Ultimate Artist (UA)…and today when I reached UA, I immediately remembered having this “realization of purpose” of being a poet when running StarkQ. But even then I thought, I should focus mainly on writing things other than poetry while doing poems as a supplement to my other works.

How thick-headed I have been! Instead of relishing in the joy of poetry (which I love to write and share), I was practically dragging myself to genres which I had no passion or talent or skill for.

So it’s decided! In addition to editing my older poems and compiling them into books, am off to write me some poems. Am off to share my passion with the world.

Oh goodness, I feel so good saying that! As if a huge weight have been lifted off my shoulders! And a path has suddenly manifested for me. MY PATH! MY PURPOSE! AND MY PASSION! YESS!!! I DON’T CARE IF OTHERS LAUGH AT IT! I WILL RELISH IN MY TALENT AND JOY!

So the stack is going to be Renaissance Man + Ultimate Artist of course (along with my custom Raphael Ultima). I will make a Poet custom if I feel inspired to do so.

(breathes a huge sigh of relief)

EDIT: The last time I ran any subliminal was a week ago. The stack was Renaissance Man + WANTED + Raphael Ultima. Intuition tells me that RM (and possibly a bit of understanding my own human nature in WANTED) helped me make a breakthrough. And highly likely the Joe Dispenza meditations helped too.

EDIT 2: I will probably do copywriting, content writing or something similar to produce some income. Am sure my stack will guide me along with some action on my part (trying several things out)

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#74

That also has been my experience. Sometimes I even get massive itching in my ears. Stress and resistance can effect us in some bizarre ways.

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