Cycle 5 Day 10 (Healing Interlude) Rest
I’ve noticed something interesting, it appears that people have been drawn to me in order to push me in the direction of my goals.
People have been giving me advice and generally helping me get closer to what I want. Part of this feels like the “protection” aspect of the subliminals, part of it just feels like healing. I’m being encouraged to face my demons and overcome them.
Cycle 5 Day 13 A Lovebomb for Humanity.
I only ran a single loop today. I don’t think double loops are the way to go with this program. When I first started, it was smooth, effortless, and wonderful. Once I started adding in double loops, things got a little more challenging. Recon is just part of growth, I understand that, but now I’m starting to see why so many of the old timers here end up slashing their listening time down to bare bones. I’m just going to relax and run single loops. I wanna keep it slow, easy, and effective.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still moving in the proper direction, but I’d rather move slower and face less recon then to rush things. There is no need to rush anymore, I’m at a good point to allow slower, more gradual growth.
Plans
I’m going to finish this solo cycle with LBfH, then I’ll add in Wanted the next cycle, then finally add in Emperor the following cycle. I’ll slowly add everything back in.
New Listening Pattern
Might try something like this
Cycle 6
Lovebomb
Rest
Wanted
Rest
Lovebomb
Rest
Wanted
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Cycle 7
Monday: Lovebomb
Tuesday: Rest
Wednesday: Wanted
Thursday: Rest
Friday: Emperor
Minimum Effective Dose
At this stage in my journey, I’m looking for the Minimum effective dose. I’ve hammered myself for so long, and it’s been so worth it, but I’m sick of the recon and much of the hardest work is already done. Now is a good time for slow growth. Will I still get recon? Probably, but I just don’t feel the need to maximize the dosage right now. Slow and steady moving forward.
Other Ideas
I’m gonna run LBfH for at least 3-4 cycles, that seems to be a good amount of time for sustainable and somewhat deep results.
Cycle 5 Day 14 (Healing Interlude) Rest
Think before you speak…I’m not certain if I will stick to the plan listed above. I’m not sure that leaving Emp and Wanted out is a good idea moving forward. I might as well finish this cycle, but maybe I’ll add Emp and Wanted back in tomorrow to get my stuff back on track. It feels like without Emp and or Wanted, this sub is taking me down a path I don’t totally want to go down.
I feel as though I’m shifting out of success in seduction to some other thing that I don’t totally want.
People are looking at me funny. I’m…I don’t know. I’m in recon or something.
Cycle 5 Day 16 (Return of the Emperor) Rest
Yesterday I ran 1 loop of LB and 1 loop of Emp, feels good to be back again.
I’m glad for taking the time off, but I now see a flaw in my thinking. I thought taking time off to heal was smart, now I see that it’s misguided. I need to heal AS THE EMPEROR not heal first and then become the Emperor. LB and Emp need to work together to ask the very important question “what does an Emperor who loves humanity look like?” This question is asked by running both subs together and allowing my subconscious to answer the question. Without running my main titles, the question is “what does it look like to love humanity?” Which is a very differentl question in application. Same goes for Wanted, “What does a seducer Emperor who loves himself and humanity look like?” The answer is certainly different from “what does a man who loves humanity and himself look like?”
It doesn’t make sense to solo this program anymore because life is happening now, I’m living it now, and all three need to work together in order for me to get what I desire. You can love yourself and humanity as many different archetypes, so the archetypes need to be present as I’m learning to love myself.
This that I’m talking about is the flaw in assuming that “monk mode” is the path. Monk mode is great for monks. If you want to live in the world, then you need to heal withinthe world. Everyday offers a million opportunities to heal within in it, so if your intention is to live, then live!
However much time it takes, is how much time it takes. Don’t wait to be the man you wish to be, don’t get sidetracked, be him now!
Results
Love, abundance, money troubles, new insights.
Cycle 5 Day 17 Wanted
God it feels good to be back. I really get it now, kinda. Healing works better when targeted.
I’ve realized that almost all of my held assumptions have been wrong. I see now why I’ve failed for so long, it’s simply because I held the wrong beliefs. It’s like this:
Say you want to go to the moon. You, as far as you can tell, see that the moon is just on the horizon. You believe that if you travel far enough by boat, you’ll reach the moon. You dedicate your life to this journey to the moon. You build the best boat, find the best navigators, fill your ship with a years worth of provisions, and set off. Will you ever reach the moon? No, because you (despite all the planning and care taken) have held the wrong beliefs about the moon, therefore your journey is doomed to fail.
This is how I feel. I’ve failed in so many areas of my life for so long, not because I’m lazy, not because I’m stupid, not because I’m incapable, but because I’ve held the wrong beliefs and therefore have made the wrong choices. My beliefs inform my choices and both were out of alignment with what I want.
Results
Money troubles resolving.
Cycle 5 Day 18 Rest
Results
I’m now winning again, but winning bigger and better and healing at the same time.
It’s so strange to listen to the intuitive guidance as a guiding force for life. It’s a very different way to live but so be it.
Cycle 5 Day 21 Wanted
I really didn’t track this cycle very well, so I’m almost certain that things went amiss somewhere and I ended up messing up the pattern. It’s alright though, I made it to the end of yet another cycle. Once again I broke the rules of think before you speak, and act first, then explain yourself by once again making a commitment and then realizing that I shouldn’t have made the commitment. Cest la vie, eventually, I’ll learn the lessons above and stick to my thoughtful and tested words.
Plans
Still committed to Emperor and Wanted for the rest of the year, they keep giving, and I’m finally reconciling the archetypes in a big way. I’m looking for the third title to add to my stack to help with my goals. The ideas that have come to mind are HoM, DD, LD, LBfH (continuing with it) or Beyond Limitless.
Let’s Do an Analysis
I’m continuing to grow in my seductive powers.
I’m continuing to expand socially, deepen friendships, and I’m 100x more social than when I started.
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I’m ruling out DD and HoM because I’m already getting enough social results. Though either of those titles would help, I’m fine with the rate of results generation.
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That leaves LBfH, LD, and BL.
I’ve fallen behind in my studies and I’m in a high-stakes academic environment.
The healing interlude has helped exponentially with all my goals, I feel as though more healing would really help me go further.
Analysis Over
Okay, here’s the plan I’m going to run BL, EmP and Wanted for the foreseeable future. While doing that, I’m going to consciously guide this stack to help me continue healing down the LBfH path (self-love and love for others) while also practicing self-love and love for others–loving-kindness meditation, affirmations, etc.
Cross Roads
Once again I’m at a crossroads where I don’t want to sacrifice anything. Beyond Limitless is something that will help my life very much in this moment. I’m falling behind in my studies and I’m living a very fast-paced life, by maximizing my current cognitive potential, should (in theory) give me more social and romantic freedom because I will be both more efficient and less stressed (as a result of getting my work done. Having said that, LBfH has helped me enormously, so I also see serious potential for it to continue to help me.
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BUT! When I was just running LBfH without EmP and Wanted, I was going down a path that I didn’t want to go down. I wasn’t very alpha, I wasn’t seductive, I was getting very…well, not the kinda person I want to become, so I really don’t want to run LBfH without EmP at the very least (masculine core) but also don’t want to drop Wanted.
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So, I will continue my healing journey without the aid of subs for the time being. Next year, perhaps, I’ll be ready to dedicate more time to healing, but there is just too much on the line right now. I’m not going to sacrifice my social life, my romantic life, or my academic life for the sake of healing right now.
It’s a cost-benefit analysis
In the long term, healing is the way to go. I learned very quickly that just one cycle of healing was able to supercharge my results. However, in the short term, I’m unwilling (and feel it would be unwise) to make any sacrifices for the sake of healing. I’m living my life now, my homework is due now, the girls are around me now, my social life is happening now, it’s all right now, there is no time to waste, no time to wait.
Cycle 5 Washout Day 3
Only two days left before this journal closes. It’s really been a great ride, but all things must end. I considered continuing with this journal, but since things have changed, this journal just no longer seems like the right call. I’m no longer running my custom, and my stack and goals have changed in significant ways.
The Great Lesson
From day one until now, I’ve become very socially and seductively successful…to a point. I’ve become rather popular, I have a trail of women that want me, but the truth is, I’ve only slept with 3 women since starting this journey. Don’t get me wrong, that’s huge for me–in a few months I’ve essentially doubled the number of women I’ve slept with in my life, and I can count 5 people that want me, and there are many, many others that have a passing interest in me, and more still that have come and gone, but things still aren’t where I want them to be. In this regard, I want more, what can I say? It’s frustrating for me to see all these women that clearly want me yet I’m not taking them. The issue lies where? Well, I collect numbers like nobody’s business but I’m not being roused to action frequently enough. There is a part of me that wants to blame Wanted (even though it’s been my truest friend) and the thought process goes something like this:
Well…I’m wanted by women, nobody said that I would actually sleep with them. Isn’t the goal of the sub just to be wanted and be the “one that got away?” If that’s the case, then that’s what I am, I’m wanted. I can count a few hearts I’ve broken already by being the one that got away. Got what I asked for, I suppose.
I also wonder if perhaps Emperor and Wanted have created an unpredictable narrative around sex and seduction that I’m not seeing. I know that Emperor and Wanted have (by far and wide) reconciled with each other and myself because I don’t get recon anymore, but I’m not sure how they reconciled…Perhaps Wanted and Emperor have agreed that I shouldn’t sleep with every woman because it’s a distraction from my other goals and being wanted by many and touched by some is enough.
Yet another possibility is that…THINGS TAKE TIME! Things take as long as they take, so sit back, guide, and let it happen.
AnYwAy
For the new project that’s starting in a few days, I might switch over to Khan. Maybe Khan is more my style these days. Emperor’s manifestation scripting feels like it’s pushing me toward Khan, I’m just not sure about stacking with Khan yet.
Cycle 5 Washout Day 5
The End Is Nigh
I’m so close to the end of this journal. It’s a little weird because I’ve been with it for so long, but it’s time for it to close. The goals are much the same, but the titles have changed and so have I.
Tomorrow, I start my year on Khan and Beyond Limitless.
Why? I don’t understand this clearly.
should I feel as if what I desire has happened, rather than wanting it?
Can you elaborate this?
Umm, well this is actually a tough one to explain because my thinking on the matter has changed as time has gone on.
In order to get something, you MUST have a strong and real desire to have that thing. It can’t just be a low level thought. You need to actually, truly want it at your core. And you must also believe that you CAN GET IT.
Long story short, I no longer agree with what I said in the past. You need to WANT IT and BELIEVE YOU CAN GET IT.
The resistance comes from wanting something and not believing you can have it.
The longer I’ve used the subs, the more I’ve realized that everything that I want and believe I can have, I get. Everything I want but don’t believe I can get, I don’t get. Anything I don’t truly want at my core, I don’t get.
Hope that helps.