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[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 1 A Love Bomb for Humanity

Just ran my first loop and so far, so good. Recon, of course, does not happen instantly so I shouldn’t really expect anything noticeable while sitting alone in my room…or should I?

Last night, I went to the store to get some cigarettes with a friend of mine, when we got to the front of the line he turned to me and whispered “I forgot my wallet; can I pay you back?” I, didn’t think much of it but had to double check my bank to make sure I had enough money to cover it, I did. I paid, and all was fine. Didn’t think anything of it for the rest of the night.

While running Love Bomb FH, the memory of last night came back and for a slight moment, there was anger. My internal dialogue started spinning this story about how he had “taken advantage of me” and that everybody takes advantage of me. Then I stopped myself and realized that, that was a really stupid conclusion to jump to. Why should I automatically assume that someone has negative intentions toward me when they haven’t done anything to suggest that they do? To put it another way, in the absence of evidence, assuming negative intentions is not rational.

The above is DEEP CHILDHOOD TRAUMA that I didn’t realize I still carried around with me, so I’m really glad I decided to begin this healing journey.

I Wonder…

I wonder how A Love Bomb for Humanity will affect my stack. I’ve been working a lot on embracing my darkness and this is something that I feel is important to my continued development.

I imagine that A Love Bomb for Humanity will accelerate my results by giving me a foundation of self-love and transcendental love for humanity around me. So far as I can tell, it’s not going to instill ethical values in me that I don’t agree with and or would cause recon, it’s just love.

From a position of love, the master might break the student’s figure to save him from losing an arm. So, I should be able to continue healing by embracing my shadow side without any issues, thoughts?

I’m Excited

For the new leg of the journey. These subliminal have been with me through several major life changes, and I’m finally starting my healing journey.

A Commitment

I am committed to running A Love Bomb for Humanity for at least 2 cycles. That should be the bare minimum for me to see if it’s useful for me or not. If I choose not to continue running the program, then I will switch to Limit Destroyer. Regardless. I’m committed to running healing subs for the rest of the year. No questions asked.

Next year is still up in the air, I’m committed to running Emperor and Wanted until this time next year, but in terms of the third subliminal, I just don’t know yet. Once I finish my 4 months of healing, then I’ll probably have a much better idea of what I want to do and where I want to go. It’s possible that I’ll spend the rest of the year on Love Bomb for Humanity, and start the new year off with a few cycles of Limit Destroyer… As @lrw (I believe) said in a post to another here on the form, planning too far in advance doesn’t make sense with subs because you don’t know how much you will change by the time you get there. You might plan to run a program, but when the time comes, you no longer need it or want it. I think of that often and will not plan too far in advance.

Sure, it sounds like I’m contradicting myself because I’m planning to run Emp and Wanted for a long time, and perhaps I am, but it all makes sense to me. Emperor and Wanted have placed me on a very specific path in life and I want to keep walking down it.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 1 A Love Bomb for Humanity Update

Well, my day has really just begun socially, and already two relative strangers have opened up to me about their emotional problems. Pretty crazy.

I didn’t ask, it just came out. So I’ll be very interested to see how this sub effects my seduction and sex life. Time will tell, all I know is that people INSTANTLY feel safe and comfortable around me.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 2 Rest

Well, Love Bomb for Humanity is something else. I really have no idea how it’s going to affect me in the long term, but things are really, really good so far.

First Loop

The second I left my house yesterday, I found a friend of mine and he opened up about a nightmare he had the night before. We had a short but deep conversation about trauma.

Hours later, in a group I noticed that a girl looked sad. She moved to leave and I walked with her. She got to talking about her troubles, nearly cried, and left. I think I made a positive impact, next time I’ll just go for a hug, that’s what she needed.

I spoke quite a lot during class and really felt as if I had made a meaningful contribution to the discussion. When I spoke, I felt comfortable in a way I’d never felt before. I really felt as if I were connecting with people in a way that I don’t ordinarily do.

During another group activity, I was cracking jokes, making people laugh, and bonding.

Over the course of the day, two girls expressed interest in me in pretty obvious ways.

Overview of A Love Bomb for Humanity–A One Loop Review

This is a very powerful program. I’ve been programming myself with Emperor and Wanted for months and months to the point where I hardly get recon anymore. With one loop of Love Bomb for Humanity, I’ve completely shifted the social space I occupy. I’m still a seducer, (effortlessly got a number last night among other achievements of the day) but now I’m a different kind of seducer.

Or…

Perhaps…

LBfH’s healing is just what I needed to be a more successful seducer. That’s also a reasonable conclusion.

I think it would be unwise for me to jump to the conclusion that LBfH is just that powerful realistically, LBfH is playing off of all my months and months of Emp and Wanted, but it’s doing so in very interesting and positive ways.

In short, I’m happy to be testing this program, and I think it has a lot of promise for me and my goals. I wasn’t sure if it would, but now I see that a deep sense of self-love is actually the perfect solution to my woes.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 3 A Love Bomb for Humanity

Well friends, I’ve made a decision. I’m going to solo Love Bomb for Humanity this whole cycle. The results have been…hard to believe, actually. This is what I need right now, so I’m just going to focus on this single title for 1-2 cycles. I think now is a perfect time in my life to focus in this particular way–healing, self-love, love for others.

For the time being, I’m only going to run a single loop every listening day. That might change. Perhaps I will start doing morning and night listening (2 loops). Regardless, I’m going to focus my attention on this healing sub.

Results

Already too deep, too large, and too profound for me to reasonably list at this moment. This is the closest I’ve ever come to a full transformation. My hypothesis is that all the scripting for Emperor and Wanted is in me, deep in me, and Love Bomb for Humanity is unlocking it because I’m starting to love myself. Now that I love myself, I’m not standing in the way of my own progress with doubt and self-hatred.

Soon I will give a full update, but at this moment in space-time, I’m very busy and just going to allow things to happen as they will happen.

[praisetheurdtree]

A quick update. I suppose I will say this, my social and romantic life has just jumped up another 5 notches. It’s happened so quickly and effortlessly, that I just don’t have much to say about it because there is too much to say about it.

[Skadoosh]

@praisetheurdtree

A quick update. I suppose I will say this, my social and romantic life has just jumped up another 5 notches. It’s happened so quickly and effortlessly, that I just don’t have much to say about it because there is too much to say about it.

Lol, nice

@praisetheurdtree

LBfH’s healing is just what I needed to be a more successful seducer. That’s also a reasonable conclusion.

Very reasonable conclusion. Self-love will no doubt skyrocket everything for the seducer.

The best way to attract the gift of affection is to become a gift yourself. The universe merely reflects your internal reality. That’s why the shift in your social/romantic life is so quick and effortless. You don’t need to do dishonest seduction tricks, overthink stuff and use cringey pick up lines.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 5 A Love Bomb for Humanity (1 loop)

A couple of times I’ve fallen asleep to this specific video of affirmations that I found a while back on YouTube. It’s the only affirmation video I’ve ever used with any seriousness because it’s the only one I’ve ever found in which I agree with and resonate with each affirmation. Most YouTube affirmation videos always end up affirming some stuff that I either don’t agree with or don’t want.

The few times that I’ve fallen asleep to it, it’s caused nightmares that involve me being able to hear the script in my dream. Each nightmare was different, but each one involved me hearing the affirmations in my dreams. Needless to say, the fact that every time I listen to it while falling to asleep, I have a dream in which I hear the affirmations in my dream tells me that this particular set of affirmations resonates deeply with my subconscious.

Last night I had another nightmare while listing to these affirmations, but it was different from the rest.

1st nightmare: Involved me hearing the script in my head as if it were the voice of God and I was frantically trying to hide a large sum of stolen money. The dream was a reflection of my old fear of wealth. I woke up sweating.

2nd nightmare: Involved me hearing the script in my head, as if the voice of God, while I snuck around my place of work and tried to listen in on people gossiping about me. The dream was a reflection of my old fear of social ostracization. I woke up sweating.

3rd nightmare (last night). Involved my hearing the script in my head, as if it were the voice of God, while feeling terrified that I was a bad man who hurt women. The script began to change from what it actually says, to a reflection of my fears. The script started saying horrible things that I don’t care to write down here (use your imagination of what a bad man who hurts women sounds like). I was hearing these awful things, and then I awoke (partially) in the dream and I realized that the horrible things that I was hearing weren’t true of me, it was simply my fears. In that instant, the script changed back to positive affirmations. I woke up calm with a text from the newest lady in my life, saying she was “sorry for last night” and asking me if I was okay. She was sorry because she sent me home due to it getting too late.

Get To the Point!

The point is that these dreams signify my healing of issues related to my desires. Last night’s dream was huge for me and marked a massive change in the way I perceive myself.

General Update

Social Life ++
Sex and Seduction ++
Status ++
Emotional stability ++++
Self-Talk ++
Way Others Treat Me +++
Social Skills ++++

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 7 (Healing Interlude) - A Lovebomb for Humanity (2 Loops back to back)

Haha, a common theme in my life is me saying that I’m going to do something with utter confidence and then not following through. Truth is, it’s because sometimes I don’t really think before I speak, then I speak–or in this case write–and realize that my commitment was actually kinda stupid. I ran 2 loops back to back today is what I’m saying and it was the right call for this particular day. For the rest of this cycle, I’m just going to feel it out. Some days I might run a single loop, others, I might run two loops. I might also experiment with morning and night loops. This is the first time I’ve run a single title, so I’m not really sure what the ideal way to listen is, yet.

Effortless Manifestation

Manifestation is far more effortless than it was before, and it was already pretty effortless thanks to Emperor’s manifestation scripting. Same-day manifestations are the rule these days, the exception is days in which I don’t manifest something the same day.

Typically, I manifest people (romantic, mentorish, friendly) on a daily basis. Oh, and do I have some stories about that. The other day I wrote some simple manifestations about some romantic interests in my journal–two people in particular. By the end of the day, I had manifested both of them in very auspicious and convenient ways.

Money also tends to be flowing back into my life more easily and effortlessly. People pay me back, give me gifts, buy me food and drinks, so I return the favor and give to others.

Romance

Better than it’s ever been. Me and this new girl have been playing games with each other, it’s certainly a frustrating situation, but it’s a ton of fun and it’s leading toward something very…beautiful I think.

Social

Abundant, easy, I’m known by many and liked by many.

Physical

In general, I feel more beautiful. I’m still not where I want to be and I’m still maintaining a lower than normal (lower than my previous baseline) level of body fat without any effort. I want to reach the next stage, get a little bit leaner, but I don’t think the effort is the path here. I think it will happen naturally and my body will just kind of shift down to be even leaner over time.

I feel like more height is coming also.

Hair and skin is looking nice. I have good days and bad days (my lifestyle isn’t healthy at the moment) but generally, I look youthful, healthy, and good.

Life

It’s a bit unbalanced. I’m not going to sacrifice my social life by burying my nose in the books and I’m not going to screw my education by blowing off my studies. Right now, the name of the game is finding a workable balance between the two areas of my life. I’ve certainly been primarily focused on the social aspects of my life, and you know what, that’s okay.

**Other **

Ehh, not much else to say. This program is exactly what the doctor ordered and I’m super glad that I’m running it at this moment in time. It’s the right move for me, right now and it’s helping me knit together some of the frayed ends that have been bothering me on my journey–fear, self-hate, doubt, lack of connection in the moment.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 7 (Healing Interlude) - A Lovebomb for Humanity (2 Loops back to back)

I’m in a constant state of awe with how utterly wrong my thoughts can be in comparison with reality. “Reality” itself, is a rather ambiguous term these days.

I find it somewhat difficult to believe that this is possible…but it’s my life. Where is all the hard work, the fighting, the grinding. Every change I made in the past took so much work, but now? The less I try, the more I get. Things just happen automatically.

How is this possible? I listen to, what? I have no idea what it’s saying, but it speaks to me deeply and then what? Then I change and my world changes around me. It’s nonsense, it’s insane, it’s not supposed to work like this. I listen to running water and the next day people treat me completely different. Truly, this defies everything I thought I knew about reality.

After one loop, my status shifted. In the same day, my status shifted.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 10 (Healing Interlude) Rest

I’ve noticed something interesting, it appears that people have been drawn to me in order to push me in the direction of my goals.

People have been giving me advice and generally helping me get closer to what I want. Part of this feels like the “protection” aspect of the subliminals, part of it just feels like healing. I’m being encouraged to face my demons and overcome them.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 13 A Lovebomb for Humanity.

I only ran a single loop today. I don’t think double loops are the way to go with this program. When I first started, it was smooth, effortless, and wonderful. Once I started adding in double loops, things got a little more challenging. Recon is just part of growth, I understand that, but now I’m starting to see why so many of the old timers here end up slashing their listening time down to bare bones. I’m just going to relax and run single loops. I wanna keep it slow, easy, and effective.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still moving in the proper direction, but I’d rather move slower and face less recon then to rush things. There is no need to rush anymore, I’m at a good point to allow slower, more gradual growth.

Plans

I’m going to finish this solo cycle with LBfH, then I’ll add in Wanted the next cycle, then finally add in Emperor the following cycle. I’ll slowly add everything back in.

New Listening Pattern

Might try something like this

Cycle 6
Lovebomb
Rest
Wanted
Rest
Lovebomb
Rest
Wanted
…

Cycle 7

Monday: Lovebomb
Tuesday: Rest
Wednesday: Wanted
Thursday: Rest
Friday: Emperor

Minimum Effective Dose

At this stage in my journey, I’m looking for the Minimum effective dose. I’ve hammered myself for so long, and it’s been so worth it, but I’m sick of the recon and much of the hardest work is already done. Now is a good time for slow growth. Will I still get recon? Probably, but I just don’t feel the need to maximize the dosage right now. Slow and steady moving forward.

Other Ideas

I’m gonna run LBfH for at least 3-4 cycles, that seems to be a good amount of time for sustainable and somewhat deep results.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 14 (Healing Interlude) Rest

Think before you speak…I’m not certain if I will stick to the plan listed above. I’m not sure that leaving Emp and Wanted out is a good idea moving forward. I might as well finish this cycle, but maybe I’ll add Emp and Wanted back in tomorrow to get my stuff back on track. It feels like without Emp and or Wanted, this sub is taking me down a path I don’t totally want to go down.

I feel as though I’m shifting out of success in seduction to some other thing that I don’t totally want.

People are looking at me funny. I’m…I don’t know. I’m in recon or something.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 16 (Return of the Emperor) Rest

Yesterday I ran 1 loop of LB and 1 loop of Emp, feels good to be back again.

I’m glad for taking the time off, but I now see a flaw in my thinking. I thought taking time off to heal was smart, now I see that it’s misguided. I need to heal AS THE EMPEROR not heal first and then become the Emperor. LB and Emp need to work together to ask the very important question “what does an Emperor who loves humanity look like?” This question is asked by running both subs together and allowing my subconscious to answer the question. Without running my main titles, the question is “what does it look like to love humanity?” Which is a very differentl question in application. Same goes for Wanted, “What does a seducer Emperor who loves himself and humanity look like?” The answer is certainly different from “what does a man who loves humanity and himself look like?”

It doesn’t make sense to solo this program anymore because life is happening now, I’m living it now, and all three need to work together in order for me to get what I desire. You can love yourself and humanity as many different archetypes, so the archetypes need to be present as I’m learning to love myself.

This that I’m talking about is the flaw in assuming that “monk mode” is the path. Monk mode is great for monks. If you want to live in the world, then you need to heal withinthe world. Everyday offers a million opportunities to heal within in it, so if your intention is to live, then live!

However much time it takes, is how much time it takes. Don’t wait to be the man you wish to be, don’t get sidetracked, be him now!

Results

Love, abundance, money troubles, new insights.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 17 Wanted

God it feels good to be back. I really get it now, kinda. Healing works better when targeted.

I’ve realized that almost all of my held assumptions have been wrong. I see now why I’ve failed for so long, it’s simply because I held the wrong beliefs. It’s like this:

Say you want to go to the moon. You, as far as you can tell, see that the moon is just on the horizon. You believe that if you travel far enough by boat, you’ll reach the moon. You dedicate your life to this journey to the moon. You build the best boat, find the best navigators, fill your ship with a years worth of provisions, and set off. Will you ever reach the moon? No, because you (despite all the planning and care taken) have held the wrong beliefs about the moon, therefore your journey is doomed to fail.

This is how I feel. I’ve failed in so many areas of my life for so long, not because I’m lazy, not because I’m stupid, not because I’m incapable, but because I’ve held the wrong beliefs and therefore have made the wrong choices. My beliefs inform my choices and both were out of alignment with what I want.

Results

Money troubles resolving.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 18 Rest

Results

I’m now winning again, but winning bigger and better and healing at the same time.

It’s so strange to listen to the intuitive guidance as a guiding force for life. It’s a very different way to live but so be it.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Day 21 Wanted

I really didn’t track this cycle very well, so I’m almost certain that things went amiss somewhere and I ended up messing up the pattern. It’s alright though, I made it to the end of yet another cycle. Once again I broke the rules of think before you speak, and act first, then explain yourself by once again making a commitment and then realizing that I shouldn’t have made the commitment. Cest la vie, eventually, I’ll learn the lessons above and stick to my thoughtful and tested words.

Plans

Still committed to Emperor and Wanted for the rest of the year, they keep giving, and I’m finally reconciling the archetypes in a big way. I’m looking for the third title to add to my stack to help with my goals. The ideas that have come to mind are HoM, DD, LD, LBfH (continuing with it) or Beyond Limitless.

Let’s Do an Analysis
I’m continuing to grow in my seductive powers.
I’m continuing to expand socially, deepen friendships, and I’m 100x more social than when I started.
…
I’m ruling out DD and HoM because I’m already getting enough social results. Though either of those titles would help, I’m fine with the rate of results generation.
…
That leaves LBfH, LD, and BL.
I’ve fallen behind in my studies and I’m in a high-stakes academic environment.
The healing interlude has helped exponentially with all my goals, I feel as though more healing would really help me go further.
Analysis Over
Okay, here’s the plan I’m going to run BL, EmP and Wanted for the foreseeable future. While doing that, I’m going to consciously guide this stack to help me continue healing down the LBfH path (self-love and love for others) while also practicing self-love and love for others–loving-kindness meditation, affirmations, etc.

Cross Roads

Once again I’m at a crossroads where I don’t want to sacrifice anything. Beyond Limitless is something that will help my life very much in this moment. I’m falling behind in my studies and I’m living a very fast-paced life, by maximizing my current cognitive potential, should (in theory) give me more social and romantic freedom because I will be both more efficient and less stressed (as a result of getting my work done. Having said that, LBfH has helped me enormously, so I also see serious potential for it to continue to help me.
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BUT! When I was just running LBfH without EmP and Wanted, I was going down a path that I didn’t want to go down. I wasn’t very alpha, I wasn’t seductive, I was getting very…well, not the kinda person I want to become, so I really don’t want to run LBfH without EmP at the very least (masculine core) but also don’t want to drop Wanted.
…
So, I will continue my healing journey without the aid of subs for the time being. Next year, perhaps, I’ll be ready to dedicate more time to healing, but there is just too much on the line right now. I’m not going to sacrifice my social life, my romantic life, or my academic life for the sake of healing right now.

It’s a cost-benefit analysis

In the long term, healing is the way to go. I learned very quickly that just one cycle of healing was able to supercharge my results. However, in the short term, I’m unwilling (and feel it would be unwise) to make any sacrifices for the sake of healing. I’m living my life now, my homework is due now, the girls are around me now, my social life is happening now, it’s all right now, there is no time to waste, no time to wait.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Washout Day 3

Only two days left before this journal closes. It’s really been a great ride, but all things must end. I considered continuing with this journal, but since things have changed, this journal just no longer seems like the right call. I’m no longer running my custom, and my stack and goals have changed in significant ways.

The Great Lesson

From day one until now, I’ve become very socially and seductively successful…to a point. I’ve become rather popular, I have a trail of women that want me, but the truth is, I’ve only slept with 3 women since starting this journey. Don’t get me wrong, that’s huge for me–in a few months I’ve essentially doubled the number of women I’ve slept with in my life, and I can count 5 people that want me, and there are many, many others that have a passing interest in me, and more still that have come and gone, but things still aren’t where I want them to be. In this regard, I want more, what can I say? It’s frustrating for me to see all these women that clearly want me yet I’m not taking them. The issue lies where? Well, I collect numbers like nobody’s business but I’m not being roused to action frequently enough. There is a part of me that wants to blame Wanted (even though it’s been my truest friend) and the thought process goes something like this:

Well…I’m wanted by women, nobody said that I would actually sleep with them. Isn’t the goal of the sub just to be wanted and be the “one that got away?” If that’s the case, then that’s what I am, I’m wanted. I can count a few hearts I’ve broken already by being the one that got away. Got what I asked for, I suppose.

I also wonder if perhaps Emperor and Wanted have created an unpredictable narrative around sex and seduction that I’m not seeing. I know that Emperor and Wanted have (by far and wide) reconciled with each other and myself because I don’t get recon anymore, but I’m not sure how they reconciled…Perhaps Wanted and Emperor have agreed that I shouldn’t sleep with every woman because it’s a distraction from my other goals and being wanted by many and touched by some is enough.

Yet another possibility is that…THINGS TAKE TIME! Things take as long as they take, so sit back, guide, and let it happen.

AnYwAy

For the new project that’s starting in a few days, I might switch over to Khan. Maybe Khan is more my style these days. Emperor’s manifestation scripting feels like it’s pushing me toward Khan, I’m just not sure about stacking with Khan yet.

[praisetheurdtree]

Cycle 5 Washout Day 5

The End Is Nigh

I’m so close to the end of this journal. It’s a little weird because I’ve been with it for so long, but it’s time for it to close. The goals are much the same, but the titles have changed and so have I.

Tomorrow, I start my year on Khan and Beyond Limitless.

[Furkan]

@praisetheurdtree

The more you want, the more resistance

Why? I don’t understand this clearly.
should I feel as if what I desire has happened, rather than wanting it?
Can you elaborate this?

[praisetheurdtree]

Umm, well this is actually a tough one to explain because my thinking on the matter has changed as time has gone on.

In order to get something, you MUST have a strong and real desire to have that thing. It can’t just be a low level thought. You need to actually, truly want it at your core. And you must also believe that you CAN GET IT.

Long story short, I no longer agree with what I said in the past. You need to WANT IT and BELIEVE YOU CAN GET IT.

The resistance comes from wanting something and not believing you can have it.

The longer I’ve used the subs, the more I’ve realized that everything that I want and believe I can have, I get. Everything I want but don’t believe I can get, I don’t get. Anything I don’t truly want at my core, I don’t get.

Hope that helps.