Phoenix: Needing help focusing

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#1

I’m writing here since I’m wanting to stay focused on my healing and growth journey. I’m considering 2 changes.

My main focus has been Phoenix. No major issues with it, and it’s been healing me. After stacking it with Ascension Chamber yesterday, I’m considering making a Phoenix/AC custom with it. I felt like AC helped Phoenix dig deeper yesterday, like it opened up memories and awarenesses I’d barely touched. This actually excites me since my biggest preoccupation has been being truthful to myself. Phoenix is healing me of a reluctance to trust myself, and that’s why I’m sticking with it.

Secondly, I’ve been on and off LBFH with Phoenix, partly due to me feeling powerless, an issue Phoenix has been touching. I’ve listened to Primal (once) and TWTP (twice). I was on New Emperor 2 cycles back, before starting Phoenix.

But the core issues keep resurfacing, and relational subs don’t help me do what’s most important for me right now.

I’m considering stacking Phoenix (or a Phoenix custom) with Sanguine the Elixir. When I ran SE a few cycles back, I felt relaxed and secure, plus I felt that self-love. I really felt it.

I really need some personal security and self-love. I need to focus on the right things at this time.

Are these good ideas?

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#2

SE is great at helping remove blockages stopping you from fully hitting the goals of the sub too - you mentioned AC helped Phoenix hit harder… SE prob will too

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#3

I did SE this morning. I had some healthy thoughts like “I can do this” come up.

I also had a flashback of using DR. DR has that strong inner voice in it, and it made me feel secure. It made me realize why I’ve returned to it so often.

Because even if shit hits the fan, having that inner security makes you hang on tighter. Anything is possible with that mentality.

I’m not jumping to DR though. I’m sticking with Phoenix and SE.