Pacman Ascended Mogul to Khan

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#642

Wow, now I’m even more intrigued with Khan. Right on brother.

I was planning to play Khan in January but I’m testing out Stark right now. So far Stark feels lighter, I feel more jovial, and emphatic.

Have you ran EQ extensively before? I was actually toying with the idea of running Ascended or AM with Stark but I am not sure yet if it’s a good idea, I’m already running PS and honestly I’d really like to clean up my routine and make it more compact. Just playing Khan and DR would have been perfect.

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#643

I have never used it.
I only used AM Ascension regeneration and now Khan.
Khan makes me go and rise up in social gatherings. It pushes me hard to greet ladies and speak my mind. It feels natural.

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#644

@Apollo

Khan feels like this to me…
I be walking around chatting ladies. Moving from one group to the next…smiling taking pics with them asking for numbers etc. As soon as i see another male trying to follow my foot steps…then the aggression kicks in. As soon as i am alone i dont like it so much i must be out and basically hunting them ladies. If i reach a gathering and see another alpha there…then i feel the aggression fill my body up and im ready to go for him.
Hope that gives u a better idea of Khan

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#645

I can relate to that before depression and anxiety clobbered me. I used to enjoy life. There are some things missing but it feels so good to live life that way. How I wish I had subs back then.

I like what you said. That’s exactly what I’m looking for, the self assurance and being truly comfortable with myself. Just speaking in public gives me anxiety, and that angers me because it doesn’t make any sense to feel that way.

My anxiety was through the roof specially this past few years, I am actually surprised I’m still alive with the crap I went through. I really don’t wish to dominate anyone, just myself.

I’m my own boss, I dance to the beat of my own drum, stuff like that.

Okay you’re making me want to shift to Khan right now… :rofl:

January I shall join the Khanate, I’m bringing DR with me.

You know, I’m not even sure if I should recommend DR to you, you’re already having such wonderful healing with Khan.

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#646

Lots of people recommended it to me …
I will ride the dragon some time next year. The only reason i didnt go on it now is that i dont want to jump subs or hinder khans prgress or slow it down.
I use rebirth now and then just to reframe the past here and there.

You will love khan.

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#647

Yeah, just enjoy the ride. Good lookin out buddy, I appreciate it. Journals like this makes this forum a treasure.

I’d love to know your thoughts when you do ride the dragon, and by that time I’ll share my thoughts with Khan.

Edit: Btw, with your experience would you suggest to try AM, or go straight to Khan? Getting my finances sorted is also one of my goals.

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#648

AM goes straight to work with finances and does have a lot of alphaness also.
Start with AM for 3 months then transition to khan…thats whats i did.
The level of confidence khan gives is sometimes scary for people who are not used to that level of confidence and status.
What ever choice you do make stick to one sub for a long time for more than 3 months. Remember the journey has ups and downs.

Feel free to ask any more questions. Willing to assit were i can and whenever i can.

Goodluck

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#649

3rd Rest day today.
Had a dream last night. I was at University and my ex was around and she seemed very irritated. I didnt talk to her but she was always around me.

I can still feel the brain processing information. I feel extremely tired during the day.

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#650

After reading the discussion about Q by @SaintSovereign @RVconsultant @Malkuth @James @Azriel @Simon
I think i am going to adjust my playlist so that execution is on weekdays instead of weekends. So my rest days will be week days which will be execution days and i can act more on those days. I am also thinking of running Q at least 3 times a week and just one loop of ultima.

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#651

3rd rest day and i got a constant headache.
Had a fight with my parents now. They want to control my life. They bringing up stupid stuff and trying to create a problem for me.

Also had a small fight with a driver on the road. He wasnt moving from the fast lane. When he was driving absolutely slow.

Can still feel processing going on.

Yeah thats my day so far …

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#652

You have Sanguine my friend? Try it if you do. I was agitated early this morning as well, tried SanguineU and a camomille tea and that set me straight.

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#653

Nope dont have it.
I think its just backed up processing that needs to clear. My body is using so much energy its unreal.

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#654

Yeah, as long as you catch yourself and you’re aware of what’s going on inside you, you’re going to be okay. You won’t be caught off guard or won’t be doing or saying things you might wish you didn’t later on. As long as you keep that presence of mind, your golden, regardless of the turmoil inside. That’s our advantage.

Cheer up buddy

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#655

If I’m honest from what you’ve told me I don’t believe Khan is for you. I thought it was for me, and I’ve achieved great things with it but it isn’t what I truly wanted. Stark fits your build more and so does The Commander. I’m sure @Azriel suggested this for you too.

I made money on Stark so you know too. I made a monthly wage of 2k-2.6/8k per month whilst in lockdown. I haven’t really done that with Khan either. I never made that much money before that by the way. I also mixed Khan and Stark together because I wanted to be Alpha and confident which I am but Khan is not the major part I needed in my goals.

I’d suggest you really look over the majors like Stark/Khan and The Commander/GLM and see which fits more for your goals.

After the post you’ve just made in RV’s thread I really think Stark and The Commander will help.

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#656

I really think this is a smart idea. I was super hesitant on dropping my loops and having rest days. I didn’t even want to drop below 3 loops daily BUT that’s what was stopping me from getting more results and ‘feeling’ the subs more.

Keep us updated on how this works for you.
I can’t remember and haven’t seen it from what I’ve read, are you still on Stage 1 or Stage 2 now?

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#657

Intriguing experiment. Please keep us up to date on your results.

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#658

Im on stage 1 and 2 at the moment

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#659

Took a drive now and saw my ex gf from school…
She hooted for me …i hooted back.

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#660

Now @pacman please really keep in mind, if this “weekend for subs, week days for execution/rest” works, this could prove to be very helpful and insightful.

Could you please post, as of right now, what are you running for this weekend only schedule?

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#661

How are you feeling doing both? I need to catch up on your journal but what’s the summary.

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