Tomorrow starting ascension, imma update every day.
The plan is to do 3-4 cycles of ascension then move to khan, and when I’m at stage 4 adding stark and commander.
God bless.
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Perfect plan! Can’t wait to see it unfold.
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Just a little background on me:
My whole childhood my dad abused me mentally and emotionally which made me grow up and become a man with no balls and zero respect and backbone, i couldn’t stand up for my self I had severe anxiety (especially social anxiety, but it was general anxiety) and I had a severe fear of judgment.
My parents divorced recently which is a good thing, since I’m not living with my dad I feel a lot better, I’m 22 now and I made a lot of progress.
I was in the military for 3 years which ultimately made be a stronger man, not because of the military training itself but thanks to the hard people I needed to deal with, people from all around the country which I just didn’t know how to deal with, they bullied me (like I was bullied at school and by my dad), but because there was no one to protect me I had to grow a pair of balls and stand up for my self, so o definitely grew a lot during the military service.
Last month I went to my dad’s house to confront him about him being a shit dad (I really didn’t want to do this but I felt like I must if I want to grow as a man), and he denied it all so I’m not speaking to him currently might change in the future.
I used a lot of subs from yt, but 2 month a go I got a panic/anxiety attack (which I mistook for a heart attack I thought Im gonna die lmao) and then it started happing every day even twice a day which was horrible, I took 2 weeks of work because of the anxiety and paranoia and was kinda depressed being home for so long not doing nothing.
After running khan stage 1 for 1 cycle my fear of judgment seems to have disappeared I can now express myself more freely and without shame or guilt, my social anxiety which made my heart go fast and make me freeze when around people also seemed to disappear which is great.
I also do therapy once a week, it’s not really therapy more like a mental couching, she really helps me understand myself and where my issues stems from by asking the right questions.
Every time I have doubts about the future, I just look back and compere myself to past self, I see how much I have grown which makes me know that I can still grow.
My journey will be great.
God bless.
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I forgot to mention, after my pushover stage I went thru an ass hole stage, I tried to prove myself and make everyone know no one should mess with me, picking and starting fights for no reason but deep down I still had no confidence.
Fortunately I’m passed that phase and I’m trying to be kind to others but still stand up for myself and family when needed, I feel more masculine than ever.
Hail Odin.
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Also if someone here really into self improvement and want to become more masculine, I suggest looking into the following channels.
Hamza:
1stman:
Both helped me tremendously in my journey to becoming a better version of myself.
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Day 1 of ascension:
I listened one hour ago, nothing to update, watching Netflix.
I fapped, very disappointed.
Day 2 (rest):
I woke up feeling kinda tired in my body but I was more productive today than usual, I was more efficient at work and jumped from task to task without thinking or idleing around, finished all my tasks faster than usual.
Usually after work I come home and if It’s not a workout day I would just watch Netflix and order food, but instead I prepared food for the whole week (I hope it will be enough lmao) so I have food ready and won’t have to order and waste money.
I went into my mental couching session and she helped me discover that creativity is really important to me, so I might change plans and do something with Renaissance man, maybe after I finish ascension I will do stark + ascension or Renaissance + ascension, and after that probably khan + stark + Renaissance to be an extra creative artist khan (I’m opened for suggestions).
To sum up it was a very nice day.
God bless, see you at the top. 
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Day 3:
I was more energized and talkative at work, more straight forward to my boss (we talked about him paying for my food), more extroverted more confidence.
At the gym I was an absolute animal, felt testosterone rushing thru my body I was strong af and my pump was insane, don’t know if ascension increase testosterone but it definitely feels like it, might be indirect increase.
I decided to make some goals to a year from now, 31/5/2023:
- get a girlfriend (or at least lose my virginity)
- make 30k a month
- reach 80kg (I’m 69kg rn)
May Odin be with me on my journey and feel my spirit.
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Day 5:
I don’t have anything special to write, I jus know it’s working, I’m more confident more masculine more assertive and overall more alpha, I feel very comfortable in my own skin.
God bless.
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Does your nickname have any meaning? Because in my language it is an eagle.
My nick name is my actual name, it means “the light of god” in Hebrew.
What language do you speak?
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The Slovak language, one of the Slavic ones.
I think my name is the best name I could’ve been given.
Because I will bring light, what does you nick name mean?
My nickname has no meaning :).
Nice, like my life lmao
A lot of things have changed, right? 
You could keep journaling here since you’ll be embarking on your Ascension journey soon, mate.
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Lmao yeah, I think I will do that.
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No, I did one cycle of khan breakdown then I did one cycle of ascension, after that I did another cycle of khan breakdown then I did half a cycle with dragon reborn stage 1 + paragon and the rest of the month was khan stage 4 with pcc.
Basically a lot of inconsistency and hopping, but now I’m dedicated and I think thanks to dragon reborn breakdown I get better results from ascension (I’m on day 7 of ascension first cycle).
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Ascension cycle 1 day 8:
I’m starting to realize that all of the outer confidence I was looking for all those years stars from the inside, ascension is really improving my inner game, I either feels very confident and good about myself or (sometimes) I feel like the king of the world and I be walking around thinking if someone gonna shoot me how imma take the bullet and nothing gonna happen, I just feel so powerful and confidence on the inside.
I wouldn’t say I’m more extroverted but it’s very easy to talk now (now always), I talk with strangers some times and with friends I’m way more dominant and just in the moment saying what I want to say without seeking validation.
So far very good, I decided to add true sell earlier, instead of waiting to the next cycle I will add it tomorrow.
Also I have a question:
Sometimes i feel the results of ascension and sometimes I feel like they disappeared, is it normal?
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