Nova Elite: Kether to Malkuth

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#342

Over my past year of subliminal use, I have noticed a gradual (very gradual) increase in my tendency to take effective, decisive action.

And I’m noticing it increasing more now. It’s not “there” yet. or I guess I should say, it’s not quite “here” yet.

But I can say this:

More so than at any recent time, I’m finding myself not strategizing about a long-term point in the future, but increasingly strategizing about right now.

That, for me, is an amazing development.

I’ll stay with things and look for it to keep on developing.

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#343

I’ve found, in my life, that it’s better to approach Truth as an orientation than as a destination.

This has been a very important learning for me.

Every plant expresses its full potential by stretching towards the sun, not by actually reaching it (which, if you think about it, would—for the plant—actually be something of a disaster).

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#344

wow, absolutely love this, this is what has been missing for me.

It’s so funny because people constantly are complimenting me, saying how much potential I have, or that I’m the most talented person they know, and could do anything. Like friends and even newly met people, from different walks of life, not just my mom lol.

And it feels completely hollow to me. Whether recon, Emperor challenge, new beginnings in QV2, or just lack of practicing the skill of self acknowledgement, this has been the biggest thing I’ve been grappling with lately. I dismiss myself, and I’m just like ‘did the job get done or not’ if it didn’t there is nothing to celebrate or feel good about it.

Thanks for sharing the possibility of the alternative

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#345

Opted to take a 2nd rest day today.

I’ll run my stack again tomorrow.

#346

Another Hiking Thought from a couple of weeks ago.

Keep getting these little snapshots about the internal antecedents to desirable external conditions.

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#347

I’ve noticed that a typical thought in the first few weeks of Dragon Reborn stage 1: Dragon Fire is:

‘I have to face the fact that [X unpleasant situation] is a reality in my life. I can’t (I’m not going to) take it anymore.’

I’m trying to take care to be wary of the ultimatum-like nature of these thoughts.

I also notice that I’m getting very valuable, individually tailored observations and insights about who I am and what I need.

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#348

I tend to default to three months per stage on a multi-stage subliminal.

Guess it’s basically a season; as in ‘One season per stage’.

So that’s my current plan for Dragon Reborn.

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#349

Think I’m ready for another play-through tomorrow.

#350

What Wisdom does not teach you through enticements, Survival will teach you through punishment.

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#351

Hah! Love it cause it’s true.

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#352

It was another astrology-inspired insight.

The chart clearly lays the lessons and challenges of your life before you. As if it is saying:

These are what is required of you. You can do it the easy way or the hard way…

The more wisdom (and luck) you have, the greater the chances that you may recognize (some of) the tasks and do more work on the front-end, thereby avoiding (some of) the heartache later on

If you have less of that wisdom, you’ll have to learn the exact same lessons later anyway, but now under the threat of survival. More stressful that way.

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#353

I was planning to play a second loop of my customs today but “it didn’t work out”, which usually means that my deep mind is helping me out.

I also realized that I’m experiencing subtle recon. Not too unpleasant subjectively, but there’s this stubborn urge to put my attention on light or empty distracting things. And to avoid anything important.

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#354

Maybe there’s no dignified and easy way to get through a blockage.

If it were about dignity and ease, it wouldn’t be a blockage.

So just do your best and stumble through the damn thing.

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#355

You can be an asshole and still hit a home run.

Fact is, probably most home runs are hit by assholes, since they have an easier time getting into the league.

:joy:

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#356

Question:

Who’s richer?

A poor man who gets $100,000

or

a rich man who gets $100,000 more dollars?

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#357

Be prepared that upon entering into any human or social situation, what you’re going to find is a very finely pureed mixture of reality and bullshit.

The reality will not be neatly labeled and neither will the bullshit.

Instead, they’re going to seem to be one thing, all mixed up together.

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#358

The former.

As Naval Ravikant said, “A lot of money does not make you happy. But the lack of money can make you very unhappy.”

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#359

If you learn nothing else, learn this:

You do not become more confident by rejecting yourself.

You become more confident by learning and experiencing new perspectives that enable you to appreciate, enjoy, and develop yourself.

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#360

Today was originally to be a listening day.

But I decided to rest one more day and listen again tomorrow.

And today I felt very unfocused, uncertain, and unmoored.

Maybe this is part of the overall change process. I don’t know.

#361

Started today with an early morning loop of NAISSANCE custom, paired with meditation.

Now I’m 3/4 through one loop of Dragon Fire.

Feeling what seem to be internal shifts going on lately. Doing my best to work with them. And to freaking regulate them. Need to remain somewhat engaged and at least marginally effective.