I’m noticing with HS that as I’m listening to it, my ‘woman seeking’ tendencies are greatly diminished.
I played my stack of:
R.I.C.H
SoL
Heartsong
Sex Mastery X
It was a bit difficult at times as I felt movement in my temples and head as I was playing SoL. Heartsong, after a bit of pressure the first two minutes or so, felt like clear skies. R.I.C.H felt pretty good too.
I’m gonna start tracking metrics that I can keep account of, such as tips I receive and pay checks.
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@RVconsultant in reference to the previous post. Does my stack seem particularly dense to you?
SM is rather light if I remember correctly. I haven’t read up on HS and it’s density, but I know my custom could be considered dense with the cores of AM and Primal?
What say ya? I don’t know if density is affected by name embedding.
To me, it looks fine. What I would say is “how is it effecting you”?
Do you need more rest days?
Are you tired?
Are you seeing results that would logically follow listening to this play list?
Your question about density is understandable, as well as if name embedding would effect it. However I’m encouraging you to focus on how it’s effecting you.
I’ll keep an eye on… Myself… For the rest of this week and see how I feel, come Monday.
To me though, I feel fine - though I feel a bit spacey during the stack, I’m generally clear again by the end. I play everything back to back and I’m sure that has an effect on me, not giving space between titles.
I think the latest kinda sorta “recommendation” is 15 to 30 minutes between titles.
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I missed that part, somehow. Thanks RV.
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08/20/21
Today, in keeping with recommendations, I’m running R.I.C.H one single loop. I’m probably going to end up not playing anything over the weekend to have a two day rest.
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09/02/21
It’s so easy to fall off of journaling if I fall off of it.
Things have been up and down for me. My relationship with my gf has been strained, due to the ongoing proceedings with the other potential baby mom. I’m beginning to get to the point that I’m wondering whether I want to stay with her or not.
Work has likewise been up and down. I had to call off sick a couple of days and upon coming back, we’ve been given some of the less desirable routes. I haven’t seen a tip in a few days come to think of it.
Starting my stack today (RICH, SoL, HS, SMQv2), I’m noticing that thoughts of thinking subliminals don’t work for me are popping up pretty early.
I’m not sure what else to add here but I’ll keep doing so once again, just to keep up the habit.
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As risk of sounding like a concerned older brother, how much of this might be reconciliation?
Whatever is going on with your baby mama I hope it gets resolved soon.
Do you have Sanguine? Perhaps running it as a standalone and running the other titles less might help.
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Much of it might be 
recon occurs both internally and externally and I have been working with a bit of a stack. Things have improved a bit since my last post.
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09/08/21
Wikipedia:
Zero-point energy is the lowest possible energy that a quantum mechanical system may have. Unlike in classical mechanics, quantum systems constantly fluctuate in their lowest energy state as described by the Heisenberg uncertainty principle.
What that means, I haven’t a clue. But like I said in the experimental ZP thread, Zero Point pops into my head quite often in relation to manifestation so perhaps something will come up soon helping me to understand the message.
Things came to a head recently with my girl and after a tremendous fight that went further than I like, she’s staying at her grandma’s for a bit. We’re working things out and I have definitely come to terms with things I’d been ignoring in my relationship. I do love and care about her and want to marry her, but there are things on her end as well that I’m not okay with and I’ve communicated that better than I ever have so that’s helpful.
I bought a bus ticket Monday to go to court in San Diego. The bus was supposed to show at midnight and never did. I got a notification that the bus had been cancelled. After a quick stress session, I noticed I felt rather clear about not making it.
I got an email in the morning informing me that my court session was actually a phone conference (“DOE!” - Homer), and then I got another email saying that it had been rescheduled for September 13th.
Crazy. Thanks, Higher Guy.
I FINALLY got my hair properly did on Monday. The female doing my hair changed my perspective. I now know I’m attracted to tall women. This girl was a treat lol. The ‘nice guy’ in me that refuses to see women as sexual creatures that ACTUALLY enjoy and seek sex was silenced that day. In respect to the new guidelines laid by the big bois recently, I won’t detail the conversation too much as I normally might be drawn to do, but man.
She all but informed me she wanted to perform an act on me that is frowned upon by more conservative people that includes, but is not limited to, oral application of something on her body onto multiple, non traditional parts of my body that I was not prepared for.
She called herself something that has to do with the interior of her neck thats function includes breathing and swallowing, with the title God attached to it and when I asked if she comes certified she replied “Double Platinum”
I’m eager to see if I lawyered my way past an RV edit
I feel a shift within me. It isn’t complete. It’s more…
A seed has been planted within earth, and I AM both the seed and the earth, as well as everything else. I feel the seed gently gaining life and it is causing everything else to change its existence, based on my focus on the seed. I, as All, feel distressed as I feel what Is changing while likewise feeling hope growing in parallel with the seed’s burgeoning existence.
More later.
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Which book and who is it by?
Mind sharing where you found these people?
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“Magickal Servitors: Create Your Own Magical Pleasure” I think, by Damon Brand.
Where did I find these people? Due to a comment by @Simon many months ago on the magickal thread in the Emperor Lounge. He mentioned the 'Gallery of Magick".
Ze rest vas history.
Edit: it was either him or @Malkuth
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This cracked me up completely, well done with the language
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Sees the recent news in America
Drums fingers and eyes Aegis: Survival Instinct thoughtfully
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I played my stack last night before I went to sleep on ultrasonic.
At least, I remember playing it. When I checked this morning, it was displaying like I hadn’t started the first title yet (00:00). But I distinctly recall starting Sexual Mastery X, noting the seconds begin to tick and going to bed. So tomorrow, I’m going to have to dummy play it again to see if it loops through from SMX to HS to SoL, and see if the thing then returns to the beginning of the playlist.
All of that to say, I feel great today. Keep in mind, I’ve been indulging in porn a LOT lately. Today and yesterday I didn’t feel like looking it up, but honestly I did it out of boredom yesterday and wasted hours smh.
Not today.
When I woke up this morning, I was a bit tired, but I had energy (oh, my ultrasonic playlist. Sexual Mastery X, Heartsong and the Son of Lightning), which I was totally not expecting as I had edged an unfortunate amount of time up until midnight.
Regardless, somehow, I’ve been operating pretty damn smoothly today. I feel friendly, open. People are responding to me with open friendliness, even here at work. And that’s not something I expect from here lol.
I also started to feel an optimism begin to swell within me. Those that follow this travesty of a journal may remember my post about the seed the other day.
I’m pretty sure this is that shift.
More later.
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I just noticed I skipped this part. No I don’t own it yet, but just a ten second skim makes me wonder why I don’t.
It would make a fine addition to my collecti- erm, stack.
In all seriousness, thank you for the suggestion. Your insight is just about always welcome. 'specially since it happens to be useful just about always.
I missed a virtual court conference call that I remembered AND set an alarm for because I was busy in a customer’s home.
Seeing as I set the petition to be served in order to have this happen in the first place (paternity case), I’m a bit irritated.
I’ll edit this with more later but I needed to get that off me.
Edit: so yeah. Today was pretty decent besides the previous entry which is totally on me. I could have had my phone on me instead of in the truck, but I’m so used to leaving it there while I work, it slipped my mind that it wasn’t in my pocket.
I was with a different driver today. Real cool cat, older and respectful. I like his energy. Today was a pretty smooth work day.
I had a minor scare when an elderly guy wanted to verify for himself that what my driver was saying was true, and got down on the tile and under his sink to check his water valve.
He got down pretty well, honestly. He saw my driver was right and tried to get back up, but, alas.
For he could not.
So, after much consternation on the part of his wife and my driver and much calculation by myself after he made a funny sound on our first attempt…
We hooked our arms under his arms and hauled him up in two seconds, chastised him for not acting his age, accepted a Gatorade and left.
I like this work and being able to encounter different people every day. I was going somewhere else with this and I weep for the sentence I know I’ll lose because of this, but I just had the funny thought that I might or might have already encountered a SubClub person in their home 
Ahhh, but it is there still, hell yeah. So yeah, I like meeting people in their homes. I sold Kirby vacuums for about two months (2/10, wouldn’t recommend) and anybody that knows about Kirby’s know that they’re sold strictly door to door. They’re not advertised on television, and no wonder.
Most sell for 3k. And that’s just here. In California, I sold four on a weekend road trip at 4k, I think it was.
Issa scam, though. That same weekend’s paycheck for me, top seller over even the vets who had been there for ten years, was $180.93
So yeah, seeing as I’m not typing this from a cell, I think I made the right choice to close the door on that particular venture that was costing me my relationship at the time for literally no gain…
(besides learning that my fear of sales was actually I’ll founded and that not only did I love selling those, I excelled and that I’m amazing with people and can turn strangers into friends inviting me to dinner and plenty of other great things, and I refused so many tips from people that could have easily paid my check instead of my boss…)
… And move on to other, greater things. Now, I’m not in sales, and no, I don’t have to sell myself and impress anyone seeing as they’ve already bought the piece(s), I’m just installing 'em.
My point is I like interesting people, and people are most interesting to me in the comfort and safety of their own home. That’s when the masks we don are most slipped, and I can see the real individual without them attempting to posture. If that makes sense?
I like to see what people have in their homes, too. I’ve met motorcycle enthusiasts, truck drivers, witches (looked at me weird when I asked her to sweep up a mess. Kidding), gun lovers (that invited me to go shooting with them when things clear up), military folk, and so many more. And they all have their story. Some people are stoic and silent, some awkward, some hilarious and some ya just wanna lovingly shove from under your armpit and work space. It’s not that bad, really… But only cuz we don’t let them be.
I like travelling, too. That’s my thing and I will always seek work with some form of travel. Whether it’s because I’m a Sagittarius or I’m just a wanderer, I love new places and faces.
I’m not sure what possessed me to journal like this but I feel talkative. In other news, it sorta struck me like a lightning bolt to add Primal Seduction to my stack this morning. It’s dense, it takes awhile to see results, yada yada… That’s what my immediate thought was. But the enormity of the feeling of rightness was weird and, risking recon, I added it.
And honestly, I think I made the right choice. I’ve used it before but that was at the very beginning of my journey and this journal, so I do believe whatever bloom I experienced today was due to delay of use as well as the new tech. But man, it ain’t even about women, though the results there was nigh immediate. It felt like every (insert past posts I’ve made about female anxiety of any kind) had received the antidote I had been needing. Antidote is just the word that came to mind earlier.
I know the title is about seduction, but woman seeking desire faded during and after the loop.
I’m planning to play that particular title merely once every other play cycle. Por ejemplo:
Monday: HS, PS, SoL, R.I.C.H
Tuesday: Off
Wednesday: HS, SoL, R.I.C.H
Thursday: R.I.C.H
Friday: HS, PS, SoL, R.I.C.H
Why? That’s the idea that popped into my head when I finished it and I’m curious how it’ll play it. I think what led me to add it is the healing parts of it. Whatever it is, it had me vibrant and alive with everyone today. I had people laughing and smiling, no, beaming just the way I shined. And again, it wasn’t anything sensual, at least for me. I definitely had female interest but in an adoring way.
I haven’t researched here to see how density plays a part with this new technology (we’re still in Qv2, future, proud of me, me:pray:t3:
) but seeing as it is a very casual, almost experimental addition, I’m inclined to have fun and test some things.
My girl and I are still apart, but that hasn’t stopped her parts from calling to mine, so she’s come over more than she cares to admit and man. Sex Mastery is the bizness. I really only added it to see if I could get some benefit from it for my porn use, but while failing to help with that, it really did solve the issue I was really having, which was insecurity about having sex because of my porn use.
Funny how thoughts work, in retrospect.
This post has got to be the longest I’ve done in awhile and I feel no sign of stopping so I’m going to force myself to put a period here without saying more later.
Again.