12/7. About a week in now I’ve switched up my stack multiple times trying to pin down exactly what I need right now to progress on. Wanted and Rich have been a staple but I’ve always experimented with a loop of diamond and Spartan. I’ve posted about my experiences with each of these in their respective threads, but this journal is going to be more about my results, inner expieriences, and paradigm shifts.
The one thing I’ve noticed with zero point is that it really drastically changes my paradigms and view of the world. I am much more centered and grounded in my own reality, and I’m beginning to see how much my thoughts have the power to shape the world around me. Getting my finances and becoming fully self employed has been a huge goal of mine for the last few years, but there has been something preventing me from taking the leap. I feel however that thoughts limits are finally starting to crumble, I feel a sense of urgency and immediacy to take action, and not out of desperation, but a fundamental change in my identity that I already am a boss, someone who executed and takes action fast. Im also attracting role models and people into my life that are at a level that I am going to be at, and I see my self behaving and thinking more like how I believe that they would, and what they did to become successful.
On top of this I had an immensely powerful dream the other night on one of my “off days”. I don’t remember the exact context of my dream, but I was up in my bed with an intense feeling of resistance. It felt like I had an enormous amount of energy inside of me just pent up and my body was just like frozen up. It felt almost like a bad lsd trip, just in the sense where I was fighting so hard to stay in control. Finally the thought came into my head “let go, just let the fuck go”. And I kept thinking that thought on repeat and all of a sudden I had a huge rush of energy rise up through my whole body, I’ve never had any “spiritual awakenings/kundalini experiences, but this is the closest thing from what I understand about them to compare it too. From there I was in a half waking/dream state just laying in a complete space of weightlessness and emptiness, and slowly drifting into sleep. Not sure what it means but the sensation was so incredibly vivid and powerful.