Niles: The Deep End

Journals - Major Programs
#102

Got some bad news today, was cut from the team after my final onboarding role play. Pretty frustrating as this was a month and a half process, but oh well, not meant to be. Felt a pretty heavy disconnect with the process overall, and let nerves get the best of me, even though I felt very confident in all my role plays leading up to it. I’m going to be taking a hiatus from the sales space for awhile, or at least the high ticket/coaching and consulting. I’ve completely lost my passion for it and honestly feel so unaligned with my purpose.

Coming to realize that I’ve been chasing something so hard that I care absolutely 0 about, and that is bringing me zero fulfillment. By doing that, I’ve had to try and act like somebody that I am not, which is a professional/caring/ well put together employee. Truth is, I’m a little rough around the edges. I love having a good time, live music, and my greatest assets are my charisma/humor/light heartedness, rather then my professional skillset. I am much more driven by sex/status, then wealth/security, and I’m done trying to fit into somebody else’s box. I don’t mind selling, I actually enjoy it, but I will never again follow somebody else’s bull s*** sales process that’s based on emotional manipulation rather then authentic interaction. The point is, my goal this year is to get back to being myself, and living my life on my own terms. Plan to make a boat load of money as well, but it won’t be on someone else’s terms.

Now that I no longer intend to fit into someone else’s mold of who I should be, it’s time to go after what I really want. Starting Khan today and will be doing so for the long term, along with limitless. 2 full loops, twice per week. Rest of my time is going to be spent in execution.

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#103

Khan decisiveness already coming into play. Decided to go back and finishing up my fire fighting certifications over the next year. I need a good shake up from what I’ve been doing, and remember absolutely loving it before my campus shut down for COVID. While success is the goal, I’m going to be shifting my focus off of obsessing with wealth for awhile, and work on getting my life to a point where I’m stable and secure, but also getting that enjoyment out of it, which I cannot do sitting at a desk. It’s funny I always knew that about myself when I was a kid, but let the desire for wealth completely over power my fulfillment.

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#104

Mood-

“The greatest happiness is to vanquish your enemies, to chase them before you, to rob them of their wealth, to see those dear to them bathed in tears, to clasp to your bosom their wives and daughters.”

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#105

Gotta be honest, it feels incredible to not be hyper obsessed with wealth right now. Khan is challenging my beliefs, what I desire, and what is truly important. I still have career and success goals, but it’s not the most important thing to me anymore.

Also was able to line up some interviews for companies, still in sales but offering base/salary, and will be much more stable while I’m back in school. Registered for classes this week as well.

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#106

Dang, sorry to hear that. Do you think dialing Emperor D back contributed to this, I believe you felt it helped you get the role.

That’s crazy. They would cut you without giving you time to connect with people. They shouldn’t take people on unless there going to let them do that.

That said sounds like this may be a blessing, a chance to get back to yourself. My 2 cents- your all of it man- a caring , put together employee, a badass who’se rough around the edges. Humour, light heartness and Charisma ARE a professional skillset. Agreed if your going to do sells it’s gotta be in a way where you can shine as you.

Which stage of Khan are you running?

#107

Yeah, pretty lame process, they delayed our onboarding a full month, and went through 2 weeks of training to get cut like that lol. Honesty was just nervous because your jobs on the line on the role play so didn’t perform the best.

I’m running K2 right now. Not in a place where I feel comfortable running total breakdown, so will stick with 2 for awhile to build the foundation.

I’m going to pick up another sales job, but getting out of the high ticket coaching space 100% into something more credible that offers a base as well, over the ebs and flows of commission only and not having any stability.

Main focus right now is finishing my bachelors though. I have a massive network, and family that runs large health/tech companies, but need to get a degree to get hired. Just have a couple years of school left so want to get that wrapped up.

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#108

Stability is important. I probably would not have taken a sales job without already having had other work, job.

That’s great, did you do a delay school?
I remember you were like 29 or something.
What kind of job would you do there?
Hopefully executive level with the Fam lol

#109

Yeah I did my first two years of uni and then basically got into bartending, and sales and just hadn’t completed the degree.

Executive work eventually, but I guess even the sales reps have 150-200K bases with a lot of 7 figure potential.

#110

That’s awesome

The sales rep at your family company

When you’re the boss there. I may come to ask for a job. :slight_smile:

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#111

What are you going back to school for ?

#112

Completing fire fighting associates and then either fiancé/marketing, or there’s a professional selling degree that looks pretty interesting at my local uni. Doesn’t matter too much, just need to get my bachelors and I’ll have a ton of doors open.

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#113

Interview went well today, but going to keep on looking for something I’m more aligned with. I’ve noticed I am thinking on longer time lines, as well as bigger picture. What’s important to me impact/legacy wise? If I could accomplish anything (in ten years you almost always can), what would I do? Over the past couple years, I was really removed from those aspects of myself, as I just wanted to make as much money as possible.

More focused now on what I want my life to mean, how Id like to conduct myself, my reputation, etc.

“ Your beliefs, aspirations, emotions and very personality will be questioned over and over again, until you know exactly who you are and what you believe in.
There shall be no more riddles – you will know yourself.”

#114

Finding myself very drawn to finding a way into the entertainment/event industry. Possibly something like event coordination/sales. Really like the idea of gaining marketing experience promoting events, but would also allow me to be able to go to the events, network, and really utilize my strengths. Big social events is really where I feel the most passion right now, ideally in the music industry, but open to other routes as well.

Something I have came to learn about myself recently, I really have a craving and passion for in person interaction. Through over 5 years of working in the restaurant industry, and basically prioritizing social skills since I was in High school, I have developed a pretty unreal level of charisma. In person, I am always the life of the party, I make connections quick, and I have this aura/presence that people love to be around. My challenge, I’m finding, is that I’m struggling to communicate that same level of confidence and charisma online. I was a total savage in person sales, I carry this really strong presence, I’m a clear leader, and I feel way more quick witted/out of my head. For some reason I have this blockage when I am selling online/over zoom where I can’t seem to express these aspects of my self, and so in online settings I find myself being much more insecure in interviews, on sales calls, and just ending up run-of the mill. It’s frustrating because in person, I don’t know very many people that can keep up with me socially, I’ve just had an insane amount of social exposure/reference experiences, and so I am in complete comfort zone. I just wish I could relay that same level of complete confidence and conviction to the online business world lol.

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#115

Started a new closing position and calendar is looking absolutely packed out this next week. I’ve added in True Sell (not my custom) to the stack as I’m a bit rusty and need to sharpen up my performance.

Minds eye is staying in, I can see a ton of benefit to using this for sales purposes.

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#116

Think this is the first time I’ve went back and read my journal ever lol, for some reason never thought to do it but what a great way to go back and see what’s working for you and your goals specifically.

This entry still holds true to this day. I feel like I’ve made 0 progress financially basically since this Summer. Crazy how far off track in life I’ve gotten…. When I look back at my journals, I haven’t been consistent with a stack for more then a month, maybe two since close to August.

Oh well, nothing I can do to change it now, and had a bad run with my past job experience that cost me a month and a half virtually for no reason. Just know that I need to lock in for a while, whether that’s school/work/ or both, I’ll be laying low and grinding until next Summer. The main goals are to start school, even if it’s just a couple classes, as well as being better about saving and investing, and creating some sort of passive income so I’m not feeling like I am starting over every time Summer roles around.

Looking back, this year has been some what of a retaliation, frustrated with work/sales, I completely went the other direction and partied way too much. It’s something I’ve come to accept, and something I actually enjoy, I just need to remember that I am in sales to work my way towards financially freedom, and I need to put an emphasis on working towards those steps. Step 1, is building up the capitol; and from there I want to create a 4K/month stream of income to cover my living expenses. Have a pretty clear path on how to do that now.

The other pattern I’ve noticed from my past journals, is that LE is almost always the difference maker, but maybe not for the reason I suspected. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking on this, and my suspicion is that it’s really the only title I run that focuses on short term/fast results.

With the NSE, it seems things are going the path of longer term, gradual build ups; that snowball over time. My challenge is that, because I’m not seeing those fast results, it’s harder to stick to something long term.

There is also an element of the short term/fast action subs perhaps having a greater effect on maximizing performance. Especially in sales, I don’t need to be sharp/intelligent 6 months from now; I need to feel that way while I’m on a call, unless I won’t have a job for very long lol.

With Limitless, I feel it does improve my intelligence, communication, learning ability, etc, but in sales, you need to be quick on your feet, whitty, sharp, professional. This is where LE shines.

While long term development is equally as important; my point is that I’ve left out those short term performance enhancers from my stack completely, and in my experience I believe those play just as big of a part. My results in virtually all areas have taken a massive dip since this change. Even with larger customs which I think can be beneficial, they take longer to see results, so having something that gets you fast results and positive feedback loops could be a good idea.

#118

Just did a 30s loop of LE as I have a big call coming up in a few. Instantly feel like I’m back. Just need to admit to myself that LE pretty much needs to be a staple. It allows me to have the brain power, energy, and productivity to get results from the rest of my stack. I could see some awesome synergy between this and minds eye.

Had pretty bad recon today however, headache/anger/overthinking, so I may take a week and just stick to micro-loops of LE while I decide on the next stack.

Update**

Man I forgot how great this sub is. Mock call was night/day difference compared to the past couple days, sharper, speaking more articulately, and most importantly having awareness over the sales process on call allows me to not think about what I need to say next, improving my presence, listening skills, and connection. Maybe I have naturally low executive functioning, because I literally either sell at a high level, or can be absolute garbage depending on what this ones in the stack. Anyways, feeling much more excited and confident going into a massive day tomorrow.

Need to put some thought into what the rest of the stack is going to look like, but while I’m still learning the offer LE is going to be a lock. Should be very beneficial with school as well, as intelligence is not an issue, productivity is a massive one lol. Knowing my obsessive personality, I’m probably going to bring back TSB as well.

Strongly considering Chosen after reading this from the copy;

"Courage is not all – on CHOSEN, you will develop other virtues in such a way that it is impossible for others not to be in awe of you.

Temperance, justice, prudence, dignity, magnificence, truth, magnanimity…"

Had no idea what temperance was until looking it up. Temperance is the practice of controlling one’s thoughts, feelings, or actions, especially to avoid overindulging in food or drink, becoming too angry, or engaging in other excesses.

This is probably my biggest road block in life, not controlling my emotions, not controlling my drinking/partying, and last time I ran Chosen long term it totally snapped me out of that life style. Other option would be my SB/LoS custom as right now I’m selling fitness so that could make sense.

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#119

50% close rate to start the new offer this week. Problem is my stacks been all over the place so I have no idea what’s helping lol.

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#120

I am curious about this , do you thing NSE makes things take longer and have less immediate results orientation. Support group says it helps MORE with material outcomes.

I have noticed while there can be bumps in immediate performance, my best results come on rest days.

I think LE has no direction; it’s pure productivity for whatever your choice is now. It was also an Ultima in the past, right? So, it’s designed for state shifting and performance now.

Are you off Khan already?

#121

Yeah, didn’t want to test out Khan

Idk, has not been my experience. While I notice subtle shifts, it takes more then a cycle for me to start really getting the feel for the NSE. Also, sometimes when I come back to subs I notice them quite a bit more prominently.

Yep, off of Khan as I started taking calls on a new offer this week and I was starting to get some pretty heavy recon a couple weeks in. Not really sure what I want my stack to look like now, and I’m long over due for a washout so just going to be micro-looping LE for the next couple days and try and do a 4-5 washout.

I think I way overexposed this past cycle, started doing mainly full loops as I didn’t have much going on work wise, and this past couple weeks the recon absolutely smacked lol.

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#122

I feel that. Take a break and then see. I think LE is always your jam. On limitless, you did well as well, if I remember.

It sounds like Khan supports your own direction and path your crave, while not khan and focus/wealth subs get you back on track towards building. If only there were a way to marry the two :thinking:

I love Khan so much, I actually found smaller amounts of it contributed to my sales, Way more grounded and less trying.

Last week, I ran Khan Stage 2, Primal Romance, ASBR, Minds Eye, and True Sell Black V3, and I crushed the whole week sales-wise and dating-wise. I can’t maintain that, but it was pretty awesome. (recon already hitting this week)

This new girl I saw texted me the next day after seeing her-I ran Khan stage 2 /Primal Romance combo and said her pussy simultaneously hurt and wanted more of me inside her, and she couldn’t stop thinking about it. Such a Khan/PR response -pain, intimacy, and craving

(I also really didn’t think I was that good in bed with her lol)

I’m taking it out to test Minds Eye with my usual stack ASBR and TSB V3. I did run 1 minute of my ASBR custom to test, and it was too much to introduce.

Khan can contribute to making me super resistant to what I don’t want to do.

It sounds like it got you level set again, though. So curious to see what’s next.

Congrats on the new role and high close rate, and glad you have a full schedule at least

If you added True Sell in, that’s probably helping

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