Hey guys, it’s been a while! Forgive me if this is the wrong channel to post on, but I have been running a stack of new Sanguine and Paragon ZPv2. I heavily regret not keeping a daily journal to keep track of progress, but will try harder especially after this event that has just happened. I started running this stack mainly due to my medical problems I have had for years. What they boil down to is severe muscle tightness ( which I have been told by medical professionals that is most likely caused by severe stress levels) that causes postural issues and loads of muscle pain and spams. There are also some other problems like brain fog that is a issue caused by this. Anyway, today was my rest day and as I was walking to work, I started to get my usual stress and trauma symptoms I usually suffer with. What started with just usual negative thoughts, has turned into full on mental hallucinations. It felt like daydreaming. I was reliving my trauma in the level of realness of the actual events on my walk. For some reason, I had this major urge to try and move past these events as if they have no meaning. I kept mentally reaffirming to myself that the past meant nothing and that the only thing that mattered was the present and the actions I make now. After what I assume was 20 minutes ( my body has been walking on autopilot the whole time) I come back to reality and feel this physical sensation that felt like literal weight has been lifted from my body. It feels as though 25 percent of what has been holding my body down has been lifted. The medical problems I deal with have gone down a considerable amount since then and hasn’t ket up since. Is this level of experience a good thing? Please give me some advice and I’m sorry for ranting on so long. This was just incredibly surreal!
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Congratulations on starting your first journal. It’s imo the best tool to keep track of your progress and thereby adds to the effectiveness of subs because you create a upwards spiral of possible Affirmation that change is possible, strengthening your believe in yourself and subs as the tool of your choice.
If you want to keep a regular journal for your journey, than this is the absolute correct channel.
I encourage you to start reading others journals. Some go through hell with some subs and all the trauma that gets released.
So welcome