Hey guys, so I’ve changed my stack.
I am running HS + W + PS + once a week Libertine the next week lovebomb, the reason for this is since they are aura based and I’ve ran them for complete cycles, I think this might help me refresh and keep the aura. So far no negative effects I can see.
The main reason for HS is that there is this particular girl I like and would like to see how she responds to this one. I don’t want to marry her, she is not the only girl, and unfortunately things have not escalated with her, I guess it is not meant to be, but I have a good time with her so I guess worst case she is a fun friend that introduces me to other girls.
Anyway I will run
1st, 5th… day: W + HS
3rd, 7th… day: PS + L/LB (one week one next the other but only once a week)
Ok so I’m on my 4th day (rest day)
This is what I can say so far
1st day was a saturday, sunday I was too hangover. So nothing much
Monday (PS/L day): I was in a good mood, but too accelerated, this girl I like even said man you are being to intense (in the too productive kind a way) just finished emperor last cycle so that might be it, but I feel it was the good mood I was in.
Last night I had a weird dream, more like a nightmare.
Can’t remember much but the part I remember is I felt like I was chained (but wasn’t) and trying to get free, I felt all this energy and anger accumulating in me, like way too much energy and anger, and then I felt like I exploded and yelled “I am the devil, everybody run”. I was angry and energized, I did kind of woke up a bit scared after all who likes thinking “I am the devil”
I’m not very religous, I’m not “married” to anyone faith, I do believe in god in a weird sense (to me I believe more in a: “Although he probably doesn’t exist, I choose to believe because it makes my life easier and gives me hope when I need it, I hope he does exist”
So I don’t think my dream has religous, guilt, etc undertones, but I’m still trying to figure out the meaning. Please feel free to give your thoughts, although a part of me believes only the dreamer can interpret the dreams.
As I write, I’m thinking that wanted, PS are letting my “monster” “shine”. I believe we all have a monster inside, and it is, I believe, like Jordan Peterson says (paraphrasing): you should not be harmless, you should be an absolute monster and then learn to control it.
But hey who knows, let’s see how it goes today.