I’ve been there. Yeah, many times in life. Comparing myself to other’s success has been a increasingly demotivating experience for me. I wanted their (histories, childhoods, parents, wealth, mates, houses, anything), and at the very same time, I saw NO way it’d happen for me.
TB is one of the best subs that exists for demolishing shit thinking. I was on it 1.5 months myself. I’m on EOG ST1 now, and it’s still demolishing old thinking patterns.
I’ll take a guess, and coupled with @SubliminalUser’s points in his edit, I’d say if you do more hours of listening, you’ll quickly see some results. They might not be comfortable results, but that means ST1 is definitely working on your mind. I’m making such strides myself because I’m listening during the day on my phone (ultrasonic), even in loud environments, plus listening at home when I get home. 12-14 hours/day. I listened the last 2 nights while sleeping, hoping to break through some inner turmoils surfacing. And I did some releasing today (I cried a bit. Been holding on to some shit a very long time)
Also, I’ll pull on something @Simon pointed me to do. Do you have specific goals? I was instructed to write them down on paper. I typed mine, but my sheet sits in front of me here. It’s a tangible reminder that I’m actually doing this for a reason. And my EOG results have been much more prominent then when I did Kahn ST1. I was scared as hell in my first couple of weeks doing TB. Like you, I thought "when am I going to get there? (“there” being not so afraid of personal power…and girls ) I’m realizing now I’ve held to some pretty unrealistic “truths” about women, stemming from an emotionally absent mom.
But for where you’re at presently, let’s keep directions simple: find ways to listen more. 2-6 hours would definitely have given me room for early derailment. Most definitely. It sounds like you’re wrestling presently, so…what do you want?