The Renaissance Khan Journal

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 37 - Khan ST1 - RICH Solace
23 Days on Khan so far

Despite RebirthU being VERY powerful for me, my mind is definitely getting better at taking the subs.
The duration of reconciliation is MUCH less and less severe. Could also be QV2 to be honest.

Whatever it is, I enjoy it.

I will, however, still refrain from running too many Ultimas in a week.

This is also my current concern. There are so many titles I’d like to run:

• Mind’s Eye
• Inner Circle
• Stark
• Alchemist
• Renaissance Man
• Quantum Limitless
• A personal custom

And more I keep forgetting.

For now I am set on Khan and EoG, throwing in Mind’s Eye every now and then doesn’t seem to be the issue, but still there are so many great things I’d like to run it’s hard to choose for the future!

Anyway.

• Rebirth is starting to make it’s impact today. Again more focused on the present. The past is not just irrelevant, I don’t even think about it. Whatever happened, fine. I am a new man.
• Yesterday I had another big sum of money manifest itself (because it was unexpected out of nowhere as written in my manifestation journal)
• Khan itself is weird right now. I feel a lack of domination currently. I guess this comes at a later stage of Khan, but it is noticeable that in my mind I sometimes question my position (especially with the wife). She is more in love with me than ever, but my mind operates a bit different right now.

Anyway as I mentioned, Stage 1 for the rest of the week, then Stage 2. Looking forward to that!

Also, KYBALION.
Crazy book. Crazy lovely book. It is a TOUGH read, especially as a non-native speaker but damn does it confirm beliefs I always had about reality. It is as I was destined to read this at some point.

[SubliminalUser]

throwing in Mind’s Eye every now and then doesn’t seem to be the issue

I wonder what made you decide to run Mind’s Eye…is it Goddard?

Also, KYBALION.
Crazy book. Crazy lovely book. It is a TOUGH read, especially as a non-native speaker but damn does it confirm beliefs I always had about reality. It is as I was destined to read this at some point.

I’ll be following you to see what personal discoveries you make from this book. I myself am motivated to continue going through it.

[AlexanderGraves]

I wonder what made you decide to run Mind’s Eye…is it Goddard?

Your Man for Himself journal Coincidentally (or was it synchronicity?) I read Goddard while I was also reading your journal. Both sent me on a path to dive deeper into visualization.

As I said before, my first transcendental experience I had while visualizing in meditation. I always had a very vivid Mind’s Eye (as far as I can know that). However, there is always room for improvement and because this was such a profound experience, I want to dive deeper into this.

I’ll be following you to see what personal discoveries you make from this book. I myself am motivated to continue going through it.

There is one thing I keep debating myself about.

How far does it really go?

I am currently on page 22, about half-way through. In the Kybalion they talk about THE ALL as it some kind of “thing” in which my consciousness exists (if I read that correctly, please share your own viewpoint).
Universe, Planets, Humans. All exist within THE ALL at all times, the past, the future, and now.

However, for some reason I cannot let go of this thought that maybe my consciousness is EVERYTHING and virtually anything that exists is made up within it.
By which I mean, literally everything I experience is my own consciousness. Even you guys answering me on here, other people interacting with me are just extensions of my mind.

This is just a thought that keeps occurring to me.

It is, however, a frightening thought, because it begs the question, am I alone then? If so, what is my existence? Why does this consciousness exist? Am I being too self-centered thinking that only I exist?

On the other hand, if it isn’t the case, and there are multiple consciousnesses in THE ALL trying to raise their vibration along The Path, to what extent can I “manipulate” reality then?
Seeing these things manifest IN REAL TIME completely blows my mind. These subs work to an extent I cannot fathom yet.

There is literally money coming into my life seemingly out of nowhere. Literal manifestation. Other things as well, but money is the most noticeable so far.
I am having shifts in my perception. Rethinking my entire existence.

And all of this on Khan? Which I thought just makes me a powerful f*cker

The journey just began, but it is already designing a new life.

The best thing truly is that time virtually stopped for me. It is moving so slow it is fantastically crazy. While before I was rushing through the years, increasingly by age, now the days go by really slow. Which is fantastic because I can put more life into the days.

Well, I need to meditate more on these things. I don’t grasp even a slight bit of it, yet.
I did, however, learn that surrendering yourself FULLY to anything that happens is the key. I completely gave up control. I have intentions towards desired outcomes, but I am FULLY outcome independent.

Also, I figure anyone reading this journal about Khan and EoG be like, “what the shit this guy talking this crazy stuff? I wanna hear about lays.”

[AlexanderGraves]

Also I am feeling a bit like Neo in the Matrix currently.

Especially after reading this part from the Kybalion:
To take familiar illustrations, we all recognize the fact that Matter “exists” to our senses– we will fare badly if we do not. And yet, even our finite minds understand the scientific dictum that there is no such thing as Matter from a scientific point of view–that which we call Matter is held to be merely an aggregation of atoms, which atoms themselves are merely a grouping of units of force, called electrons or “ions,” vibrating and in constant circular motion.
We kick a stone and we feel the impact–it seems to be real, notwithstanding that we know it
to be merely what we have stated above. But remember that our foot, which feels the impact
by means of our brains, is likewise Matter, so constituted of electrons, and for that matter so
are our brains. And, at the best, if it were not by reason of our Mind, we would not know the
foot or stone at all.

If you think about it, everything you see before you is just a collection of energy. A construct to display a reality for your senses.

Or with an image:

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 39 - Khan ST1
25 Days on Khan so far

(Yes, missed a day)

One thing I noticed now is that the volume is VERY important for me. Saint mentioned it in a thread that some people’s subconscious doesn’t like to be “yelled at” and therefore a lower volume is better. For some, the POWER of a high volume has better effects.

Always be testing!

Anyway, I listen to the subs no at a very low volume and it works much better.

I am still hesitant to adding more subs (I am so eager to add Mind’s Eye fully, but I am not there yet to run 3 subs a day) because I notice how it fatigues me quickly. Could also be the power of Khan ST1.

Speaking of which, I still have vivid dreams and every day they cover another person from my childhood which is interesting. They are whacky as shit.

I might be adding a washout period after Khan or maybe already after ST1. Either way. Apart from the dreams, ST1 is losing its power on me I can notice that. I am sure there is more to work through, but it doesn’t feel “as severe” anymore.

I will keep running it every now and then or I run the Dragon at some point.

For now, it is time to fill my blank canvas with paint. With personality. After the coming rest days I will start ST2! Total Reprogramming! Looking very much forward to this one.

Everything will be affected – voice, posture, thinking, beliefs, emotions, energy, relationships, sleep, inner voice, and others.

Yes, please!

No more doubts, it is time to grab your sword.

Is this a phallic pun?

On the Kybalion

It is a mentally tough read. I’ll have to read it multiple times and I HATE the eBook version. I like analog books but apparently there is no good version of it available?

Anyway, interesting passage was this:
It has taken the race millions of years to reach this stage, and it will take many more years for the race to move on to the sixth and seventh subdivisions, and beyond. But, remember, that there have been races before us which have passed through these degrees, and then on to higher planes. Our own race is the fifth (with stragglers from the fourth) which has set foot upon The Path.

Either the Wachowski brothers (creators of the Matrix) read the Kybalion or this was synchronicity of our consciousness understanding itself. Either way, these are the things my conscious mind still denies.

I read a lot of great things in the Kybalion, but this seems BS to my mind. I am trying to accept it, but how could we know how many races already travelled the path in this universe? Shouldn’t there be evidence of past civilizations?

This also brought me back to another thought I had once (and actually wrote a blog post about it) called “Are we living in a simulation?”

The Matrix visually describes many great things about people’s lives in reality. And if you think of videogames in space, you can never reach the edge, right? Intentionally because of computing power.
We cannot reach the edge of space either, because it apparently keeps expanding faster than light.

Is this just a trick for us to never see outside our universe?

And IN what does the universe exist?
The Kybalion tackles this question a little bit, but the concept of THE ALL is still tough for me to grasp.

The same with history. Is our human history created on Demand? Like, whenever a discovery is made, is it at that point when the simulation decides what our history looks like or does it already exist?
To save memory and computing power, planets for example, are not rendered until you go there in games.
Is real-life the same?

I might sound stupid writing this, but my mind is truly going crazy recently (in a good way, relax). I wonder where a spiritual custom and/or the Alchemist will take me at some point.

Either way I am TRULY LOVING my new direction of spirituality and questioning existence, the material realm, etc.
In recent years, I intentionally put myself on the more “realistic” side of things. It feels great to be back at wondering about the wonders of reality. I am coming back to my root-source. I sort of felt a disconnection in recent years. Back then I was one with myself, fine and accepted of who I am (although there were issues). I lost that and now I am finding it again. A feeling I cannot put in words. Not even slightly.

I am currently the happiest I ever was.

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 40 - Khan ST1 - RebirthQ - Mind’s Eye QV2
26 Days on Khan so far

The END of Khan ST1, lessons learned

This will be the last day on Stage 1.
I don’t think those 4 days up to 30 make a big difference, especially with QV2 which is so powerful.

@Hermit had a great post in the other thread about differences in Q and QV2:

Running Titles in Order

@Azriel, in general, I’m very passionate about growth and transformation, I’d anything to help others to achieve the life they want to live. I was having major headaches (something I never have), panic, and anxiety attacks – which I have had often but I was actually able to sustain it due to meditation practices, and in fact, I did know the cause and whatnot. However, I was generally just interested in studying subliminal’s and the effects it has on consciousness. No for no reason, which boils…

This also had me trying RebirthQ for the first time, because the Ultima I ran on Monday ruined me all week. As in, heavy recon. For some reason, I cannot bear Rebirth Ultima V2.

And I do realize now after reading his post that QV2 is not just stronger, it works differently. With less healing and more focus on manifesting. At some point he said with QV2 you become the script immediately, where with Q you work through it.

This might be why KhanQ ST1 was so hard on me. My subc was denying it, now it just accepts the new being and working through past traumas without too much recon. Because I kept having dreams about past situations, but I didn’t feel bad about it.

I was almost elevated. Sort of detached, working through these things from a third person perspective, being totally fine with whatever happens. Which is great. I am feeling less and less from Stage1, so I think it is time to proceed.

I also mentioned it in the other thread.
When I first came here I was focused on sex and wealth. I.e. the Khan. I still follow this goal because I want my business to be successful. However, a completely new (or old?) realm opened itself up to me where I am VERY curious about other realms in this universe. Other planes.

The Kybalion really enforced this.

I am less interested in the materialistic realm although being aware it is important. I care more about what else is out there and how to connect to higher dimensions. I.e. the Alchemist, Mind’s Eye and at some point, building a fully spirituality custom.

Did Total Breakdown show me who I really am underneath?

As a kid I was daydreaming all day (Mind’s Eye, Visualization). I was mad curious about space, the universe, etc. Over the years, I lost that interest due to more Earthly responsibilities and influences that showed me that being rich is the key to everything.

There is nothing wrong with having a ton of money, but back in the days, I NEVER truly cared about that. I wanted to focus on other things. Higher things. I am now back at this stage in my self where I TRULY don’t give a damn about money. Or rather, not more than I have to.

This is very liberating.

Khan Stage 1 brought me back to my core. My true being. My source.

What a magical, powerful sub that is!

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 41 - Rest Day
26 Days on Khan ST1
4 Days on EoG ST1

While Khan was working great, I had a blockage this whole week which surfaced in a lot of Recon.
Pretty sure it was Rebirth Ultima and EoG ST1.

Because I was short-tempered, libido was OFF, and I had bad negative beliefs about money coming back. Which also immediately surfaced in less income. (Crazy how quick this works with QV2) This is DEFINITELY EoG.

However, RebirthQ is the GOAT for me!
A few hours after listening to one loop, my mood went WAY up, libido came back, and general enjoyment of life. Truly works SO MUCH better for me then Rebirth Ultima. Idk why.

It also showed me @Hermit s idea to be correct.

If you have recon for any sort of sub, you can still run others and they work. Khan did its job although I was in recon for EoG.

Maybe this also isn’t true for anybody. But it’s definitely the case for me.

Running other subs alongside the major seems to be a legit way to get many things going. I don’t feel like it slows down progress as long as they are completely different directions.

For example I keep running Mind’s Eye every now and then, this works just fine (and already brought me results!)

Also thinking of adding Ultimate Artist to the stack, because I create a lot for my brand. Might be helpful.

Then again, TOO MANY subs will probably still ruin progression, even if they are different topics.

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 43 - KhanQV2 ST2

26 Days on Khan ST1
1 Day on Khan ST2
4 Days on EoG ST1

Rest days are a beauty.
The lockage was relieved and I immediately felt the Khan core script coming back. I was thinking of adding another rest day, but it seemed unnecessary. Now on Stage 2!

I noticed, however, while I was on the rest days the Aura of Khan kicking back in again.
My wife was touching me all the time, everywhere. She was clearly horny af.

Some Earthly musings because people are surely interested in that:
Sex is on a different level already.
It is effortless. Relaxed. Powerful. Dominant. Strong.

I also feel much more grounded. I don’t care AT ALL about people’s opinion. Throughout ST1 this was an up and down tbh. Sometimes I did, sometimes I didn’t. That seems to be concluded.

I did definitely notice the effect that has been mentioned many times. The longer I listened to the sub, the easier it was to run. Now that I am on ST2, it is definitely taxing on my mind and I need to meditate more and be mindful of my food intake.

But imo this is a good sign, because it means it goes against my programming (currently), which means the longer I run it, the better results I will see.

I, for one, welcome reconciliation because it is a display of the Sub doing its job.

Although I wouldn’t say I am in recon already, just a bit “taxed.”

[AlexanderGraves]

I forgot to mention.

I recently started doing a manifestation journal just like @SubliminalUser did in his journal on here.

Mentioned that above.

And RICH just keeps doing it.
Almost on a daily basis now the “big sums of money” I write down to manifest. Sometimes immediately.

The other things not so much, which is why I say it is RICH doing the work. But it is still interesting, if I were to run a custom with Yggdrasil and other manifestation customs, crazy thing could be happening.

I just post this to tell people that RICH DOES work.

I am currently at about $6-7,000 from it after about 20-ish loops.
(Disclaimer, I run a business, so the pathways to manifestation are already open).

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 44 - KhanQV2 ST2 - RICH Solace

26 Days on Khan ST1
2 Days on Khan ST2
4 Days on EoG ST1

So after the recent lengthy discussion about rest days or “brute forcing more loops” and Saint going ballistic on that one guy, I decided to add more rest days, if not a washout period.

I’m feeling pain in my neck again, which so far has been the sign that there is some sort of overload. Or recon approaching. Tomorrow I’ll run the last loop of Khan QV2 ST2 (only 3 days in I know) and EoG.

I really only do this because I want one more day of exposure to EoG ST1.

Then on fathers day (how fitting) I stop with the subs for at least 4 days and then I re-assess.

I did notice results and benefits coming on the weekend, but GREED took ahold of me and I jumped right into ST2 of Khan.

On Khan, I can tell I am “getting results” when I am horny af all day. It’s this sexual power, or the secular chakra that is flowing freely that tells me that the subconscious has worked through the script (at least on the surface level).

Today I am already noticing this leaving me again. So the rest days will be key I think. Or maybe it’s because of the new script in Stage2 that’s being heavy on me.

Either way, the rest days will help!

ANYONE should read THIS answer from Saint if you still question adding rest days: Is it harmful to listen to too much subliminals?

[SubliminalUser]

Definitely take rest days. I have noticed a significant improvement in doing them, and I also know that the subs are still processing. They also massively help with reconciliation. Why I remember having to take a whole week off after going too hard on Dragon Blood (DR ST2).

Rest day advice:

A SubliminalUser is Reborn

A few days into my rest:

A SubliminalUser is Reborn

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 45 - Rest Day

26 Days on Khan ST1
2 Days on Khan ST2
4 Days on EoG ST1

I decided to NOT add another day on subs because yesterday it felt like this:

I had a huge pain in my neck area and my head felt BLOATED like massive.

Reconciliation, right?

Stage 2 apparently questioned A TON right out the gate and this send me into recon quicker than I thought.

However, considering the other thread about listening to too much, I am thinking of taking a full week off. Just to make sure Stage 1 was actually fully processed and I can go clean into the next state.

Will report back what happens.

[Azriel]

I had a huge pain in my neck area and my head felt BLOATED like massive.

Reconciliation, right?

yes! (I get tense neck during my initial runs of new subs or anything with a lot of execution drive)
and/or possibly seasonal allergies might have contributed to the bloated head-if your effected by them.

I took my first full week off last week in a year and so glad I did. The first few days were really difficult but by the end I felt rebirthed.

[Hermit]

Hi @AlexanderGraves, whenever you listen to a Title for quite a time it tends to linger for a few days. Total Breakdown does not line up well with any of the other Stages of Khan, it has caused me a lot of strain in the past.

I’d strongly encourage to let Total Breakdown fully process before divulging into Total Reprogramming – combining both has resulted in complete and utter agony.

[AlexanderGraves]

Thanks, gentlemen for the help here.

Yes, I already listened to two loops of ST2, but regardless I will now take at least a week off!

I virtually feel it physically today. It’s hard to describe but I just know it’s the extension of an overloaded mind!

it has caused me a lot of strain in the past.

Care to share how it unfolded for you?

[AlexanderGraves]

Also on another note I made the mistake of reading the Renaissance Man copy and am now fully aware that I HAVE to have this sub.

Will most likely stack it with UA or Alchemist, depending on which direction I desire at that point.

This, however, is music of the future, for now we’re building the root (hint) with Khan and EoG!

[DarkPrince]

yes! (I get tense neck during my initial runs of new subs or anything with a lot of execution drive)

Same Azriel. IT:U is making my neck or upper back tense.

Has to be the execution drive.

[AlexanderGraves]

Day 48 - Rest Day

26 Days on Khan ST1
2 Days on Khan ST2
4 Days on EoG ST1

3 days on rest days now. Those were VERY important.
The first two days, I felt nothing but pain. After that, I am now in recon I can tell. Short-tempered, easily triggered, etc.

Which naturally resulted in a fight, but also a lot learned!

But before that, interestingly almost 2 weeks after last listening to Mind’s Eye, all of a sudden my visualization skyrockets. Like NOTICEABLE different.

Did I have so much to work through before ME could be processed almost 2 weeks later?

Crazy. Maybe I’ll extend the rest days before we get back on Stage 2 of Khan.

Speaking of which:

MY WILL BE DONE.

(and a little excourse in women)

Feminine energy can be very intense. Which is good in “physical activity” but also has its drawbacks. Naturally, when you’re short-tempered, things escalate quickly.

So I had a fight with the wife, but things I noticed while observing my self:

• Absolute calmness. Everything she threw at me repelled on my shields easily and effortlessly.
• I sat in a position of power. I had to hide a smug grin every now and then because I knew she was just expressing her emotions and it generally meant nothing. Aloof mastery.
• I FEEL like a true Khan. And I mean that. MY WILL BE DONE. A questioning of my methods and actions is unacceptable. As they say, comply or goodbye.
• This arrogance is an interesting development. But then again, if I want to build a TRUE empire like a Khan, then I need to be VERY SURE of myself. Khan has done this FOR SURE. There is no second-guessing of what I say or do. It is correct.
• Also, usually at some point in a fight I tell her to leave me alone because she’s annoying. This ends in her being even more pissed. This time, she actually did it (although being more pissed). Khan’s Aura of Power definitely works. People do as you say.

Hold on...

If you follow my journal here, you might have noticed that Stage1 brought me on a spiritual path. Back to my source. Now, I sound different, right?

Yes, I am indeed questioning if this fits my personality.

Because on the spiritual path I indulged in letting go of the ego and being at peace with everything. Khan now (logically) sends me on a conquest again. Fight. War.
This was my initial goal with Khan (which is why I chose it, so it works). Just weird how ST1 revealed a new reality to me.

Currently I feel very torn. While the power of Khan feels certainly nice I realize it is my bloated Ego enjoying this, while I also enjoyed the peace of the spiritual path.

Where to go then?

I don’t know. I am not making any judgments or decisions yet. I wait how the coming rest days unfold. There is definitely more on “backlog” in my mind to be processed than I thought.

Also:

Musings from the Kybalion

After reading the chapter about Mental Gender, my perception shifted again.

The conscious mind, the rational mind is the masculine mind. The emotional mind, the subconscious, is the feminine.

This makes sense on many levels and unveils itself up the physical plane with men and women.

This is also why we need to learn to “feel” our subconscious better because this is how the feminine operates. On feelings.

And since everything is mind, could it then mean that however my wife, for example, operates that this is just an extension of my current state of subconscious.

That would also fall into place with these fights popping up whenever I am in recon.

Further, I have discovered over the years (and said many times) that your woman is a mirror of your mindset. I just wasn’t aware of how deeply true that is.
The more masculine you are, the more feminine she will become.

I think any woman is moldable to a certain degree, because they are what you are in opposite. The more I fixed myself over the years, became more a leader and powerful, the more feminine traits she developed.

Is that really just a back and forth of energies? Or is she LITERALLY the extension of my subconscious mind? And now that I set this up properly as well with subs, it gets even stronger?

Either way, fantastic book.

[AlexanderGraves]

Also, jumping right into Khan as my first sub was TOUGH.

And I wouldn’t recommend it to everyone.

While I had a bunch of things to work through, my general mindset was already set up properly (the conscious mind) for this. So it definitely was easier for me.

I can only imagine what Khan does to someone who has ALL the limiting beliefs.

It went so far, that I am actually wondering if I should run AM in the stack as well, to build a stronger foundation for Khan. Even at this stage.

It is definitely a healthy recommendation to newcomers to start with AM!

[pacman]

Any recommended stacking Khan with AM to me as well.
But then again Khan is meant to be hard. It’s meant to fuck you up.