Day 39 - Khan ST1
25 Days on Khan so far
(Yes, missed a day)
One thing I noticed now is that the volume is VERY important for me. Saint mentioned it in a thread that some people’s subconscious doesn’t like to be “yelled at” and therefore a lower volume is better. For some, the POWER of a high volume has better effects.
Always be testing!
Anyway, I listen to the subs no at a very low volume and it works much better.
I am still hesitant to adding more subs (I am so eager to add Mind’s Eye fully, but I am not there yet to run 3 subs a day) because I notice how it fatigues me quickly. Could also be the power of Khan ST1.
Speaking of which, I still have vivid dreams and every day they cover another person from my childhood which is interesting. They are whacky as shit.
I might be adding a washout period after Khan or maybe already after ST1. Either way. Apart from the dreams, ST1 is losing its power on me I can notice that. I am sure there is more to work through, but it doesn’t feel “as severe” anymore.
I will keep running it every now and then or I run the Dragon at some point.
For now, it is time to fill my blank canvas with paint. With personality. After the coming rest days I will start ST2! Total Reprogramming! Looking very much forward to this one.
Everything will be affected – voice, posture, thinking, beliefs, emotions, energy, relationships, sleep, inner voice, and others.
Yes, please!
No more doubts, it is time to grab your sword.
Is this a phallic pun?
On the Kybalion
It is a mentally tough read. I’ll have to read it multiple times and I HATE the eBook version. I like analog books but apparently there is no good version of it available?
Anyway, interesting passage was this:
It has taken the race millions of years to reach this stage, and it will take many more years for the race to move on to the sixth and seventh subdivisions, and beyond. But, remember, that there have been races before us which have passed through these degrees, and then on to higher planes. Our own race is the fifth (with stragglers from the fourth) which has set foot upon The Path.
Either the Wachowski brothers (creators of the Matrix) read the Kybalion or this was synchronicity of our consciousness understanding itself. Either way, these are the things my conscious mind still denies.
I read a lot of great things in the Kybalion, but this seems BS to my mind. I am trying to accept it, but how could we know how many races already travelled the path in this universe? Shouldn’t there be evidence of past civilizations?
This also brought me back to another thought I had once (and actually wrote a blog post about it) called “Are we living in a simulation?”
The Matrix visually describes many great things about people’s lives in reality. And if you think of videogames in space, you can never reach the edge, right? Intentionally because of computing power.
We cannot reach the edge of space either, because it apparently keeps expanding faster than light.
Is this just a trick for us to never see outside our universe?
And IN what does the universe exist?
The Kybalion tackles this question a little bit, but the concept of THE ALL is still tough for me to grasp.
The same with history. Is our human history created on Demand? Like, whenever a discovery is made, is it at that point when the simulation decides what our history looks like or does it already exist?
To save memory and computing power, planets for example, are not rendered until you go there in games.
Is real-life the same?
I might sound stupid writing this, but my mind is truly going crazy recently (in a good way, relax). I wonder where a spiritual custom and/or the Alchemist will take me at some point.
Either way I am TRULY LOVING my new direction of spirituality and questioning existence, the material realm, etc.
In recent years, I intentionally put myself on the more “realistic” side of things. It feels great to be back at wondering about the wonders of reality. I am coming back to my root-source. I sort of felt a disconnection in recent years. Back then I was one with myself, fine and accepted of who I am (although there were issues). I lost that and now I am finding it again. A feeling I cannot put in words. Not even slightly.
I am currently the happiest I ever was.