My 1 year + with sub club

Journals - Major Programs
#22

15 min loops of KB1 and BDLM. Last listening day now on washout.

Standing cranes nest pose 3:45. Magnetic bar of iron 5 seconds. Not bad considering only 3 hours sleep, first day off after N/S. which brings up my next question to contemplate. Does lack of sleep effect strength performance as much as I assumed that it does? Doesn’t seem like it at times.

Reading Advanced Sexual Practices last night pg. 43 the section on energetically healing a broken heart. It mentions that heartbreak can linger in the heart chakra area for years after. Tonight I watched Suits season 7 ep. 10 and at the end it triggered a few tears. Did the heartbreak meditation, heart area felt hot and throat area felt tight. Focused on dissipating the energy around the heart. 15 min later I started nodding off to sleep. Will practice another round of it tomorrow.

#23

First day of new sub cycle. KB2 and WB, 15 min each. Played a 7 min loop of WB on first day of washout. Day after seen my girl for first time in 10 days and she said whatever I’m doing is working as we had sex 4 times that day plus a bonus BJ in the shower. Was a bit depleted afterwards as I released twice.

Standing crane’s nest pose 4:15. Golfed 9 holes and shot very good. Had a practice round today before tomorrow’s competitive round with the boys.

Got my son started on Genesis, 7 min loop to start. His round of golf started out very good but kinda fell apart halfway through. He will most likely do a 15 min loop next listening day unless there’s some heavy recon between now and then.

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#24

July 20: KB2 and WB 15 min each. LB squat 325x5. Been months since I could get past 315x5.

July 22: KB2 and WB 15 min loops. On vacation with my parents and siblings. New gal not with me on this trip.

July 24: KB2 and WB 7.5 min each. Early golf game, was pressed for time.

#25

Last week I applied for a position at a differ Branch that I worked at before. It’s a straight day position and my aversion to night shift was a big reason for applying. Got a call today for an interview on the 31st. Sent a message to both my bosses letting them know. Felt nervous about it, probably due to the couple puffs of weed I had earlier today before going to the beach.

I’ve discovered today that weed counteracts the objectives that I want from WB like social fluidity and nonchalance, was paranoid and anxious instead. For years I was addicted to weed for various reasons, one of them being better quality erections and seemingly better sex. I always had to puff before sex. Went 3 months without it this spring and recently have added it again but don’t want to use it every day anymore. It should enhance your life not rule your life. With new titles like Diamond, KB, WB and BDLM it makes the weed unnecessarily for sexual prowess. Seems better without it lately. One thing is I always have to release if I’ve puffed weed first.

One of my bosses replied back to my message regarding the interview at the other branch with “unacceptable”. Shortly after I played a 3 min loop of ROS and took the dog for a walk. Awhile later she says thanks for the heads up and wants to have a chat tomorrow and wants to understand more. Im thinking they might try to persuade me to stay. Now if they would give me straight day shift I would seriously consider it. It’s closer to home and it’s for the most part stress free but it often leaves me wanting more. The other branch is definitely more challenging even if too challenging at times and also much more adventurous. Im also better at handling stress than I was a few years ago when I last worked there. Still plan on following through with the interview no matter what they have to offer though. Tomorrow is KB and WB again and will probably add 3 min of Stark as well.

#26

KB2 and WB 15 min each. 3 min of Stark. Standing cranes nest pose 4:45.

Had a chat with my current bosses today. Discussed how one of the main reasons for my transfer request is aversion to night shifts. I average 4 hours sleep when on them so not worth doing if I can help it. They offered to have another tech work my nights for me and offer me straight days. I do appreciate the gesture but I’m looking for a more permanent solution to straight days. If that other tech quits then I’m back on nights. Will still follow through with the interview on Monday and go from there.

The other job is a bit more hectic but more room for growth. If I run cognitive enhancement subs like Stark and QL there’s actually an outlet to apply the enhanced brain power at the other branch. It also scares me a bit to be honest and with my growth mindset that means I should actually go for it. The money is the same.

#27

Rest day today. Standing cranes nest 5:00.
There’s a job posting that came up that I find intriguing at a different company. It’s for a technical support rep for shovels and drills that I have worked on in the past. This job scares me or the possibility of failure that scares me. Will probably apply for it anyway why not. Probably some self doubt creeping in but have to learn to just push through that stuff. It’s the same schedule with some travel. Not sure about the money but would imagine it’s a bit more than I currently get.

#28

July 28. 15 min KB2, 15 min WB, 5 min BDLM. Went in a ski boat and tried surfing. Couldn’t quite stand up on the board. 6 tries in total, on the 6th try I tweaked my left knee as the board shot out and pulled my lower leg out to the side. Started hurting a couple hours later.

July 29: Rest day. Travel back from lake, 7 hour drive. Knew was very sore. I looked like an old man limping around. When I got home and unloaded everything it started to feel better. My lady came over later, first time seeing her in 9 days, had mind blowing sex for a couple hours with multiple positions, even got a bj out of it.

#29

July 30: KB2 15 min, LOS 10 min, WB 5 min. Cranes nest pose 5:15. With 48 microcosmic breaths.

July 31: Rest day. Had a physio appointment, sprained MCL is the culprit. At least I didn’t tear anything.

Aug 1: KB2 and WB 15 min. Played a golf game, knee somewhat sore but not too bad at this point.
Went out with the girlfriend and a few other friends, came back and had a couple puffs of weed then proceeded to have mind blowing sex for over 2 hours up till 1:00. I was super hard the whole time and absolutely pounded her through the bed the whole time. Was one of my best if not the absolute best performance of my life.

#30

Aug 2: Afternoon listen of my cocktail. WB, BDLM, and Diamond. 5 min of each. Was still a bit wore out from the night before but managed to pound the girlfriend for a 15 min afternoon session and the released.

2/3 of the way through KB2 cycle and I am now better able to control if and when I release. This past week I released twice out of 7 sex sessions.

#31

I tore my PCL last month too. Wish you a speedy recovery. Run that paragon

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#32

First day of washout today. Yesterday I experimented with overexposure, did 3 loops of KB2, 3 loops of WB, and 1 loop of Stark, all 15 min loops. Felt good actually and no recon today either. Most of those loops were at work with lesser quality ear buds and lots of background noise though.

Started doing the 5 tibetans as explained in the book advanced sexual practices by Sebastian Heller. Basically they are yoga poses that help build sexual energy. Got up to 5:30 on the standing cranes nest pose, was shaking towards the end of it so that is about my current max

The knee is feeling a lot better forgot all about it for a couple hours the other day and it’s been getting better ever since.

#33

3 loops, you wild bro

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#34

I thought I go hard
Someone always takes it to the next LEVEL

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#35

Will try to actually do a full washout this time. The last 2 cycles it’s just been a break from 15 min loops haha.

#36

Aug 15: 15 min of KB3, 10 min Stark, 5 min WB. Played a golf game with my dad. Ball striking was superb, chipping not so much.

Aug 17: 15 min KB3, 15 min Stark, 5 min E:HOM, 5 min WB. Still haven’t heard back whether I got the job at the other branch that I interviewed for, was over 2 weeks ago so thinking probably didn’t get it. Applied for another one as a technical support specialist with my current company. Thats why I would like to prioritize Stark over WB this cycle but still want to keep WB in the background like I do E:HOM.

Added 5 pounds to my standing overhead press 5 rep max. Flexed my glutes during the initial press and felt more connected through my body as a whole. The knee is 95% healed now. Dropped back to 315 x 5 last workout a couple days ago but hadn’t done squats for a few weeks as the knee was recovering. Starting a week of night shift tonight.

#37

Aug 19: 15 min loops of KB3 and Stark. Also ran Ascension Chamber for the first time for the 7 min. Working N/S this week, after the loops I went back to bed for 3hrs, best sleep I’ve had during N/S week in a long time.

At work ran 5 min of LOS during a quick workout at the company gym. 2 20 min power naps tonight as well during shift.

KB3 and Stark seem to mesh really well for me for great confidence.

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#38

Reading the book Stolen Focus by Johann Hari. Realized im spending too much time on my phone including this forum. Got so bored of my phone the past 2 nights at work so I brought a book tonight. The first Jack Reacher book killing floor. Read mainly non fiction so a fiction book will be a nice change. I do like a good kick ass character that always wins as opposed to one that gets his ass kicked all through the story up until the very end.

Im in the process of reframing my perception of working night shifts. I struggle to sleep during the day so the only way its sustainable is to have a power nap or 2 during the shift. We didn’t always do nights here and they implemented them a year ago or so. Its every 3rd rotation so 7 out of 42 days. Up until now I’ve been bitter about it and would nap 2-3 times as a way of sticking it to management. Now I would prefer to nap as needed and have a quick workout every second shift as a way to embrace the nights while I’m stuck doing them. To take advantage of the perks that I can only get when working nights. Same activity but different intention behind it. I have applied for a couple other positions to get out of doing them but for now will try to maintain a more positive attitude about it.

#39

Been listening to Aubrey Marcus on a couple of podcasts and came to this realization. With E:HOM there is scripting for building a legacy and generational wealth. Lets say you want to build generational wealth for the next 3-5 generations and have it be self sustainable. You can do that with your future lives as well as your spirit takes all that you learn with you to the afterlife and beyond into the next incarnations. I would love to become evolved enough to the point where I can remember my past lives and have instant access to everything I’ve ever learned across all lives if needed.

#40

Ended up not getting that job at the other branch. The other company got back to me the other day wanting to take the next step which is filling in their word document paperwork with references etc.

Got 3 listening days left of KB3 cycle and I am seriously considering adding PCC for the rest of this cycle to hopefully open my eyes in more detail to the power games that management at my current workplace use. Would also help with navigating a new workplace if it comes to that.

I also have a burning desire to run OG Khan along with KB. Really looking forward to KB4 next cycle and should hold off running Khan for the first cycle of KB4. My initial plan is to run As follows.
KB4/Khan st1
KB4/Khan st2
KB4/Khan st 3
KB4/Khan st 4.

#41

Been running KB4 and PCC this cycle 2 listening days in. I feel off just fatigued and have had a cold for a few days. Perhaps this PCC doesn’t jive well with me. I’m re watching the series Billions and have noticed the power dynamics much more so then when I watched the series the first time. Will give it a few more listens to see how it goes. I feel stuck with work, career stagnation although I’m less upset about the power games played at my workplace.

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