I did it, Iām now full monogamy.
Me 8 days ago:
Well that escalated quickly. Hahahaha.
Literally cracking up right now.
Alrightā¦
8.5/10: Iām still learning this as itās relatively new. Weāre both romantically and sexually uninterested in other people. We canāt even think of other people. Not even sexually. I would choose her over any other woman and this is new to me. The interest is not through loyalty or anything fear related, but just based on pure attraction for one another. We are too attracted to each other to the point that everything else becomes insignificant. Sex is kind of fucking me up. My partner is empathic like me, and lusts for the heights of emotion. We both want our souls scarred forever by emotional depth. The desire to feel. The desire to be human. There is no higher ecstasy. I write poems and tell them to her. Next level shit. It gets cringey level of intimate. A lot of vulnerability. Really true unconditional love. We are basically complete naked to each other with complete acceptance for one another. There is a mutual knowing and intuition that we are each otherās āsoul matesā. Weāre both deep into it all the way, itās not a belief or theory for us.
She isnāt a Instagram model but her uniqueness is the most beautiful thing Iāve ever seen. I have a hard time trying to put it into words - Iāve tried many times. I chalk it down to her energy and liveliness. Itās intoxicating and makes you feel things that mere physical beauty could never. She is very pretty though. Itās the harmony of her features/body and her being that has taught me a different level of beauty. The full self-expression. I canāt rate her anything but an 11. Not just her body but her personality, hobbies, quirks infatuate me.
She reciprocates everything and thatās the key. Itās like we are in competition with each other. Itās a timeless dance. She will never one up me.
The only reason this is not a 10/10 is because I feel like it can go deeper. It is already getting deeper. I donāt know if it will cap out. I donāt know how, but intuitively there is something that can be developed even more. Iām scared of it. Iāve never been in deep like this before. With one person? Fuck no.
Weāre not clingy and overly attached, but there is this seamlessness when weāre together. That weāre just yin and yang. Chemistry. Flow. We just fully understand each other, not just on an identity level but a soul purpose level. We know what weāre learning from each other. I wonāt get into it, too personal.
If you want this type of relationship, you first need to accept and love yourself completely. I was recently sitting in nature. Alone. It helped me change some perceptions of mine. Became aware of some things. Had some epiphanies.