A man of value is valuable even when he has nothing.
I had 5 days off of subs. I broke the processing period this morning to listen to Paragon and give my immune system a boost. One of my kids is sick and I need to remain healthy.
I am now weighing my options whether to start my cycle early or use the rest of the week for processing and start my new cycle on Monday.
Either way the processing days have been good. I went exploring the Universe with some magic chocolate over the weekend. I celebrated another successful orbit around the Sun. And I spent time with my minions.
All the while little awarenesses were opening up to me.
“The Drip is in the details” - An NFL commercial
“The God is in the details” - Me
“Are you doing what’s vital to the title?” - Sinful the P
"What is vital to the title of Husband, Father, Man? - Me
At one point during my trip, I stood in my backyard staring at the trees moving in the breeze, my attention was drawn to a little pool of rain water that had collected on my generator’s cover. Inside little tadpoles were swimming. I took it all in. The Universe is teeming with life, looking for the right conditions to proliferate. Look at all the organisms just on this planet. Look at all we have extracted from this planet. All the goods we have have been dug out of the Earth or harvested from it in some way shape or form.
I was overcome with immense gratitude that everything had happened the way it had.
In a world of so much, so many still have so little. And the battle rages on over who is allowed to have and who isn’t. Which brings me to my opening quote. I have had nothing before. And yet for the longest time there was a fear of starting over, starting from nothing again. That fear is gone. Not because that reality can not come true, but because who I am in the face of that reality is someone who has everything they need when they need it.