People have always developed technologies and methods for bringing about desired shifts in the external and internal worlds;
but the explanatory paradigms around these technologies have continuously evolved and changed.
Learn to separate the technology from the paradigm.
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Unusual day today.
Normally, my work day today would go from 11:30 to 9:20 pm. But today, the people with whom I’d have met from 11:30 to 3:30 all needed to cancel. They contacted me separately one by one. So I found myself with a bit more time.
I handled some correspondence in the early morning. And then I meditated from 11:35 am to 12:35 pm. It was extremely comfortable if somewhat (as usual) unfocused.
Now, I’m going to take a run. Then I’ll eat lunch and head up to the office.
What is usually my busiest today has, for this week, been my more relaxed day.
It’s true that, compared to the vastness of the Cosmos, our individual, human attentional capacity is tinier than the smallest electron;
But we can use this to our advantage.
When you are working towards your goals, your dreams, aim to place your attention on those factors that encourage you to keep going. The simple practical fact is that we don’t have enough space in our attention to both focus on these encouraging factors and feel discouraged at the same time.
Gave myself the gift of a mid-day workout.
Ran 3.something miles, which is still feeling very new right now.
Then I changed my shirt and did bench press.
I pushed it a little little bit. Wanted to try 205 on my last set. Just one rep.
Tonight after my evening meeting concluded about half of the people chose to stay behind and talk to me longer. Then after that, there were 4 or 5 people who were waiting to talk to me individually.
It felt very much like a subliminal result/manifestation. Of what exactly, I’m not sure.
Early morning meditation today: 5:55 am to 6:55 am
Grateful.
Love this guy:
"My premise, which I arrived at very gradually, is similar: Martial arts, theater and religion were a single subject."
Phillips, Scott Park. Possible Origins: A Cultural History of Chinese Martial Arts, Theater and Religion (p. 10). Angry Baby Books. Kindle Edition.
Lately I’ve felt an uptick–a growing surge–in the flow of results associated with my subliminals.
As I’ve said many times, I was the one who chose to play 3 20-module Terminus2 customs. A lot to process.
But processing they are.
It has now been almost 6 months since I started playing my 3 customs in an integrated stack.
It’s been almost 3 months since I upgraded them to ZPv2 and continued to play them.
A month after I upgraded to ZPv2, I was back in the gym. Started slowly. Running .2 to .3 mile intervals. Bench-pressing 145 pounds. (Just for comparison, at his best, Arnold Schwarzenegger was benching around 500 pounds. Ronnie Coleman, maybe 550? So, yeah…we’re just chilling over here.)
Now it’s about 2 months after that. I’m running for 3.3 miles. Benching 205 pounds. Still taking it gently. But the progress is inarguable.
Yesterday, I got a glimpse of the unfolding power that is building within me as I run the subs. And it gave me a little insight into one of the factors that influences my progress:
Fear.
When progress and possibilities go above a certain pace of change, it triggers a fear response.
That’s a feature of the internal landscape.
I have not been aware of a whole lot of fear throughout my years-long journey with subliminals. But it’s a fool who believes that lack of awareness proves lack of existence. And one of my aspirations in this life is to be less of a fool.
And so, I’m reflecting on the roles (constructive and desctructive) that fear might play in my unfolding developmental process.
Whatever those roles may be, it’s clear that things are continuing to shift. I think that my system may gradually be preparing an enhanced openness to change and transformation. As that openness to change increases, I think that the pacing of results will very likely increase with it.
It’s a humbling journey.
Growth is, for me, a humbling process.
I feel like maybe you’ve answered this somewhere before, but what made you want to experiment long term with terminus?
There were a number of different factors.
I’ve never been the kind of person who is very relaxed, who falls asleep easily, enters altered states rapidly and smoothly, or is easily hypnotizable. So, I was not sure, but I was prepared to wait longer with my subs. I usually do not have immediate ‘roller coaster’ kinds of reactions or experiences. But when I played Stark Terminus I had a subjective sensation of it working.
Now the fact is, that may not have been completely due to Terminus. Might have been that the script itself was easily integratable for me. Extraverted Intuition is a prominent feature for me, and I’ve always used it a lot throughout life. So…
But either way, that was my first impression of a Terminus program. I played Stark Terminus and it was like, ‘Whoa…I can actually feel this being processed!’
I played it for 21 days straight (back in Q-build). Then the Mind’s Eye Terminus2 experimental sub was released on 24 May 2020. Based on the experience with Stark Terminus, I immediately started to experiment with Mind’s Eye Terminus2 too.
Remember back then? We’d play the subs every single day. hahaha. A different time.
In June 2020, the Q-Customs store opened up, and my first ever custom was Terminus build with Stark, Ecstasy of Gold, and Power Can Corrupt as the three Major Program cores.
From 22 June 2020 to 31 December 2020. I alternated those two programs during morning meditations, everyday with Sundays off (in line with the guidelines of that time).
My purpose of recounting that old history (besides the fact that I enjoy doing it) is to make the second point:
I have not had notable discomfort/problems/symptoms that seemed to result from Terminus build programs. So I’ve always had a kind of fascination with them. I wasn’t sure what they were doing, or if my mind was working better with them, etc., but at least I knew that I was not having very negative effects from them. (With one possible qualification.)
I have always built Terminus level customs. In May 2021 (when the Qv2 build was introduced), I made the more pricey choice to buy Standard and Terminus versions of my two customs. At the time, I was thinking: ‘Hmm…maybe I’m over-emphasizing Terminus customs. Let’s give Standard a try. Plus Qv2 is said to be a charging rhinoceros, so maybe I’ll ease back a little bit to be safe.’
So from May 2021 to April 2022, I was playing standard build programs. For about 6 months out of that time, I was just playing Dragon Reborn alone and nothing else.
But in May 2022, I built a Terminus custom with Dragon Reborn St. 4, and since then it’s been back to all Terminus/Terminus2 customs again.
I’ve been listening to Subliminal Club subs for 3.5 years. Of those 3.5 years, 2 years have been spent with Terminus/Terminus2 customs.
So, I guess the point here is I’m used to them.
Back in April 2022 when I was getting close to the end of the Year of Dragon Reborn, I was planning out the next phase of my journey. As I sometimes do, I consulted the Yi Jing to get some divinatory advice. It was clearly and strongly in support of working with Terminus2 programs.
Not only that, with almost odd specificity the advice I got was to play all three of them together. I’m open to experimentation, but I also like to color within the lines. So I wasn’t planning to deviate from the guidelines and play 3 subs in one sitting. But this time I chose to go with it.
The guidance that I got from the Yijing for this arrangement was extremely specific. It was the 53rd hexagram, Gradualness, and line 5.
The gist is: It’s going to take you a long time to see the results from this, but when they come, they will be perfect and unstoppable.
The specific poetic verse is: For three years the woman has no child. In the end, nothing can hinder her. Good fortune.
[in the original: 婦三歲不孕. 終莫之勝. 吉.]
I’m more patient than the average person, but that was a challenge even for me. But I said, “I’m in.”
So after all of that other stuff that I said above, 
, this may have been the primary factor. haha. Yijing said, “Do it, fool.”
So, yeah, 3 Terminus2 customs.
I eased them in one at a time starting in August 2022. By October 1 2022, I was playing all 3 together. As always, during meditations. It’s a fun tradition.
Now, we’re just about 6 months in. And things are picking up. I’ve been noticing an upsurge in processing, in results, and in related phenomenological content.
I also noticed an upsurge when I upgraded them to ZP v2.
So, of course, I’m also looking forward to when we get that ZP v3 next year. haha.
But I won’t be surprised if, after my current plans successfully come to fruition, I switch over to Standard Programs. By then my focus may be on fun, fast results; rather than super-deep, personality-level and lifestyle-level transformation. I’d really like to try some of the more fun programs. Like Spartan and like the social titles. And especially like Ultimate Artist.
In contrast, I feel like right now, the subs are helping me with my Great Work. So, I’ll be patient and work with the deepest and most powerful versions.
Okay, well… That was a long-ass response.
If you’ve made it this far, here you go:
Thanks for the question.
I think it’s good to have it here on my journal as an organized snapshot and record of my thinking at this time.
Haha appreciate the insight. Yeah it’s wild to think a few years back I would have the subs on repeat for close to 8 or 9 hours a day. Different times for sure.
Always fascinates me how much the minds differ when it comes to input. I’ve been tempted to try terminus just to see what the experience is like, but here I am with one custom, a standard title,and needing 3 minute loops lol. I think it’s beyond my capabilities.
Other question. Have you had an extended washout yet? I might be mistake but I thought it was mentioned qv2 terminus² was the ZP precursor. I know with these subs as they advance there’s more of a buffer period. Just wondering how that bloom would show up for you.
I’m just going to go back and check.
Q era:
1 to 10 January 2021
1 to 11 May 2021
Qv2 era:
1 to 13 June 2021
22 to 28 July 2021
ZP trial - September, October 2021
This was not a true washout. But I stopped playing all of my own programs, and only played the trial versions of Wanted. I think I saw bloom effects during that period. I got the feeling at the time that the bloom was enhanced by exposure to the ZP build. I didn’t see much Wanted expression. But I did experience bloom results related to my previous stack.
When ZP was introduced, I started doing the 5 day rests between 21 day play periods.
Finally, just before starting my most recent phase, I did a longer post-Dragon Reborn washout from 12 July to August 11.
So that was my extended washout.
I did not notice any radical bloom effects. But this was post Dragon Reborn. And that, for me, is a kind of mysterious program. It gave me consistent results, and at the same time, I never fully understood it. (Plan to do more of DR in the future once my current stack starts picking up more.)
Since August 12, my schedule is 18 days active play period, 10 day processing period.
I think that integrating this ratio of play to processing probably decreases the urgency of a longer processing period. On top of that, ZP seems to be much gentler to process in general.
Weird late night meditation tonight: 11:21 pm to 12:22 am.
Son got home pretty late and wanted to wait until he got back before I’d be unavailable for an hour. He got back at around 11, so that’s how that went.
So much potential in the practice.
Morning meditation (with subs): 8:55 am to 9:55 am
Right hip/pelvis slight inflammation. Body’s working to adapt to increased stress of runs and hikes. Will look into stretching and other strategies for assisting it.
This guy, he’s got it:
A Little Tale
At some point in time, you realize that you have much more to learn about this world. And so you seek out the great META (Master Explorer Travel Advisor). You find his offices in town and they are very impressive: filled with the most cutting-edge surveying and imaging equipment, and with hundreds of thick books detailing all manner of sights, geographical descriptions, and all-around travel lore.
Excited, you book an appointment and while waiting for the time to arrive, you enter the library to start planning your adventures.
But,
When you open up the books you find something very shocking.
‘No, this can’t be.’
You look from book to book to book. And eventually, it strikes you. Every book in this library is describing only one location, the exact same place. And you realize that every book in there is an exhaustive, precise, and expert description of the exact building that you are in right now.
Just at that moment, you hear the chime for your appointment and you enter into the chambers of the great META.
He says to you, ‘Finally, you have come to me to cast off your ignorance and to learn everything about travel. I, META, have mastered this art and science. There is nothing about travel that I cannot teach you. Forget all that you were told in the past; and prepare to be enlightened.’
If you’re lucky, at this point, you’ll excuse yourself and run the heck out of there.
If a person claims to be teaching you about mastery of spirituality and wisdom, and yet all he ever seems to talk about is himself and what he has done, then what good is his mastery?
Any mastery worth anything would be bringing you into ever-greater, ever-humbling awareness of your limitations.
Any wisdom worth its salt would be giving you ever greater foundations and inspiration to travel outside of what is known to you and to explore your limitations and what lies beyond them.
I’ll take a humble and seasoned explorer over a self-proclaimed master any day of the week.
Yes, we are traveling this path. Cult leaders need not apply.
Phenomena and Paradigm
