I think one thing that Wanted black makes you a master of is mind games, seeing cues, realizing the game. and there is game, everywhere.
To a man like me, whenever I didn’t play the game, I lost from the start, I’m highly charismatic but women never flocked to me.
On wanted black I put myself first, I allow myself to play the game, I allow myself to win it, and I know how and when to use the cards.
It is a dirty path, that is one thing I’ll say, push/pull, manipulation and everything one can do to spike a woman’s emotions to make him obsessed with her.
In the last 2 months I’ve experimented with being my true self which is on the more avoidant side of the spectrum, not the typical healthy balanced style, but I rode the wave of my nature and saw how much it fucks with women in a good way, one of my friends which pissed me off got the cold shoulder for a whole month, she has a bf and she still ended up telling me she was completely obsessed with me for that entire month.
As a former nice guy it does hurt to see the nature of women so clearly for the first time, the death of romance, but it is also empowering knowing deep down I have it in me to get them absolutely obsessed.
It is a pattern I saw my entire life, whenever validation and attention is given away it is taken for granted, once one takes control over it, everyone wants a piece, almost immediately.
The angel on my right shoulder always told me to be genuine and honest, but that never got me anywhere as the same women I crushed over always chose the “bad guys” then cried over them, while completely disregarding me as an option.
The devil on my left shoulder is now taking control and showing me that I need to integrate the dark side of myself to truly make it in this world.
There is definitely a moral conflict, and it is not small that’s for sure, but after 26 years of playing it right, I think I broke bad and am realizing the extent of the power I truly have.
It is a step I always needed to take but was always afraid of. I see it as the death of naivety and innocence, and I am ok with that.
To those who seek something lighter and in a sense maybe even healthier, tread lightly.
(running 30-60second loops)