One week into Wanted Black solo, the recon is real, lots of new choices to make, the changes are as deep as the underworld’s oceanic water volcanos and as smooth as a good thrust of the hips celebrating every event as a potentially sensual adventure of shared values in universal creation.
Or said more simply, fucking good life.
It’s kicking my ass with intense self-esteem, unconditional empowerment of self and total detachment with awareness in a state of grounded calm, relaxed, confident and comfortable and creative/motivated, to name just a few.
I feel it pushing new boundaries within me, a lot of inner power is getting released through the sheer intensity of transformation this sub is encouraging me towards. It’s demanding a massive amount of energy for processing because of the amount of transformation it brings, I can feel so many of my limitations coming up to the surface as either negative feelings, mostly anger for me so far or just feeling a big ball in my belly, or negative thoughts, that I recognize because they are in exact opposition with how I am actually wanting to feel or think, which the sub is helping guide me in a positive empowering direction.
A lot of power dynamics being brought to the surface because of the very heightened self esteem and sense of power and perfection, lots of other parts of me are trying to keep up to redefine myself anew and it’s not an easy process, it’s like rebuilding, lots of cleaning to do and such things…