It takes a minute sometimes.
Desperation is actually kind of a mood. And well, one thing about moods is they like to hold on. It’s kind of what they do, you know?
Emotions and moods try to keep themselves going. And ending a mood before it feels ready to go tends to have this confusing, ‘off’ feel to it. Stopping when you’re in the middle of something. Leaving the movie before the credits, kind of deal.
Another honest response is that I don’t always turn down desperation.
Sometimes it keeps winning for a while. Or it takes a while before I can kind of get it off stage and get the microphone away from it.
Letting myself really enjoy something can help. It’s hard to feel enjoyment and desperation at the same time. haha.
Beauty. Inspiration. Gratitude.
They all really help a lot.
Anyway, let me get back to what you said.
Yeah, I agree with @ksub in part.
Action can help. As he says, action can help to clear away confusion.
It can also help to break up the feelings of powerlessness.
Desperation is not the state of having little money. It’s the intense belief that it will very difficult or impossible for you to get any more.
Desperation is the feeling that ‘there is nothing that can help me’. Nothing that can make a positive difference.
Confusion is part of that. Tiredness and weariness are parts of it. Discouragement, loss of hope.
And it’s a habit. So even if you’re doing good work, the discouragement and desperation can creep in.
Here’s another one: Recognize and remind yourself of the value of the steps you are taking. You started taking coding classes. That was not a paralyzed, desperate act. It doesn’t even matter if you definitely code as your main moneymaking avenue. The point is that you stood up and did something for what you wanted. The more such steps you take, the more you will get on top of this.
Okay. I’m not so focused right now. I’ll stop here.