I’m fine. There is still margin for improvement obviously.
As far as I understand they are shadows from the past, when I was a kid. My father didn’t give me compliments, confirmations, reassurances. Always asking to do better, that I wasn’t trying hard enough. Then when I was 10 I divorced my mother and left home. my father didn’t give me compliments, confirmations, reassurances. Always asking to do better, that I wasn’t trying hard enough. Then when I was 10 I divorced my mother and left home. He passed away 6 years ago.
Now I see these kind of thoughs, expecially in relationships. Even with people who compliment me etc… it’s really difficult to be accepted, and then to trust them.
This is why I started metta based meditations again