I will also share this post on EB thread.
So the last 2/3 days has been recon.
3 types:
- Social
- Physical
- Cognitive
The first 1/2 days there was social recon of EB, and this COMPLETELY eradicated my social anxiety, you know some people talk about the emotional healing after some time on nofap? It’s because their brain chemicals get more balanced, hence they start seeing life in another light and experience new emotion which essentially overwrite others.
For example: There is a guy whose parents were not so toxic to him, but now he is a grown, traumatized weak man, since he also “attracted” bullies to him in school, I guess we could describe him as a “cynic” Now he is a traumatized man. Which would be me 
, although I did LOTS of healing via subliminals, but my brain was STILL wired to attract negativity, and my hypothesis is that ONE of the factors which contributed to this was my lack of serotonin, which promotes wellbeing hence more self acceptance. Which after using QL, my “roguish” part has been unlocked, which makes me human. This part is still here despite the physical and cognitive recon of QL.
So now my social anxiety is gone, and besides that EB is PURGUNG all my fears. People are very respectful now, I navigate social situations with much grace…the different scripts of EB are blossoming now.
When I got calmer after the addition of QL to my stack, my vibe changed and people started challenging me, but I handled it with grace and now they are used to the more “ok” me and also know that there is dominance.
The social recon is for around 2/3days after running t
EB, I mean I ran EB and QL full loops every other day, what should one expect?
Now it’s my 4th washout day, except I listened Paragon sleep 2 nights ago. In my most intense QL and EB recon days, I did not watch porn , which is unusual.
Last night after the increased respect between some people and having dinner with them, I came to my apartment which is an 8 story empty building and people tell me how do I live here, before adding QL I would come here to the 8th floor(the other stories are dead empty) and be a LITTLE aware of demons/jinn/negative energies… After adding QL, I don’t even think of them😂.
So I came upstairs and I started listening to romance songs I like with headdphone and started singing with them LOUD AND SUCH INTENSE EMOTIONS, aftef around 15 minutes, I started crying with them tyen did it more songs and I knew sth was up…then I though this may EB spiritual thing… and I started shouting and jumping crazily and I remebered osho’s dynamic yoga. And when I was damcing with a song, I vusualized people watching me on the furniture…and some gathering around me…I wanted to get into my feminine and express it, heal it and release it.
Then I felt a presence, and I felt like I invoked sth, maybe some feminine dieties…I suddenly stopped and was a bit scared, there was a lot of emotional crying before that. I “feel” like the crying was more of devotion crying rather than sadness, so I thing it was not “releasing” emotions, but it was more of experiencing some, and may e some releasing.
After that the “slight” fear was there until 7 hours later when I slept.
I got headache which were most likely from crying and shouting. I also had QL-shifting headache before it, but it was almost completely alleviated.
And the fear was not social because I went downstairs and got sth and it wasn’t there. It was mlre about the “unseen”.
Today there is this slight black aura around my eyes, similar to WB’s dark aura, which is a more natural version of it that makes me human, and allows me to accept myself, or maybe I’m hallucinatoing. There is also some headache and a but of cognitive impairment.
In the past days and STILL, there has been physical pain in my head, especially in the back area. And the intensity differs from time to time and rest. It can start anotger shifting and tye pain starts again.
There has also been pain feeling in by back, shoulder, knees etc, and I feel they are healing, but the pain is not intense and enduring.
Then there are the vivid dreams, LOTS of them. I remember them but I don’t know what they are about…some kind of dominnace development maybe. They ain’t violent.
There has been cognitive impairments, but also some improvements. Different areas.
When I first get out and go towards social interactions, the negative/angry thoughts come to my mind, but when I socialize the anger/anxiety is not there, not everything goes smooth, but they go perfect. Since I am transitioning to a NEW(someone who does not EXPECT negativity, but can be ruthless if someone tried it on him) me after QL, before I was expecting negativity on a chemistry level, so as a result of EB’s boundary scripting it created a more “Dangerous” and heightened aura around me. Now the aura was mitigated aand people were getting too comfortable, sometimes I had to endure and sometimes I had be a “little” awkward to make the new reality more congruent.
But initially for some time (length depends on the number of the rest days taken before) social interactions during the day(especially those who I had a past with) there is this unease in the heart area… and it dissipates after some time we become congruent.
And the cognitive impairments are in the form of forgetfullness, laziness, poor planning…
I also started decided to do a 12 hour dry fast and it’s 11hours to go, and I got diarrahea. I had it lst night, but the poor planning recon did not allow me to plan better. Now that I started it, I will do it.
Also other stuf…which not only I do not find them attractive, but I feel disgusted.
keep going 
