@Prioritas you know better deep down. As a man, blowing up as you mentioned for any reason is not the person you want to be. Make it a rule that you will never, under any circumstance lose your shit or ever raise your voice ( not implying that you did ) but you get the point. There is literally zero benefits from that and a calm voice holds infinitely more power. If you really love her, own up to your shortcomings and become a man who can earn her utmost love, desire and respect without needing it.
Needing a woman’s validation is like pumping air into a punctured tire. You will get nowhere. So when in the grips of recon, take a moment or two. Separate who you are from your emotions. It took me more heartbreaks than you can imagine to finally learn this so don’t be like me. How much more are you willing to lose in order to accept what you already know?
Deep down, you may believe that your emotions or pain is her issue. Would you blow up Infront of your boss? or someone that you respect? if not then why do it to someone you care about. Your baggage is your own responsibility, so make a vow that your emotional wellbeing is forever in your hands, and no one else’s. This is the high road that any great man should strive for. So get on it you majestic beast 
This is hands down the first product page I’ve actually bothered to read thoroughly. You can practically sense that senstence “Or perhaps, fuck all that” it’s like Bill Burr is narrating it 