Learned a few things about me during this stage 2.
Still at the start of it but it’s still impressive and I write down every time I have “obsessive” thoughts. Often it means you are at a breakthrough point.
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What did you learn?
I absolutely love that effect (not the feeling) on TB. It gives me the freedom to craft my persona whatever way I desire. The old frames are getting shattered, the old ways have got forsaken. I’m the compass on the map of my life.
Paired up with WB, it’s swiftly changing me into a being that truly seduces reality.
I don’t know whether it’s TB, WB, or both, but the relationship between reality and me has never been as “intimate” as it is now. Meaning, reality and me have become passionate lovers, where my passion for reality makes her dance for me. A unique seduction dance between her and me that makes us both more and more enchanted, deeper and deeper in love with one another.
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Looking forward to hearing about your experiences then! Was looking for somebody who has done with TB what @Jouissance has done with EoG Stage 1.
Exactly.
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Where my focus go? I tend do focus so much on one thing I lose track of others.
My emotions tend to follow me because it’s a challenge for me to let them go.
I’ve also realised that my future wife’s hapiness is in my hand, I want her to be happy I can do things to help that (I’m not the final factor tho).
Realized that tolerating the pain of failing is what sets me apart and will make me a winner.
Confidence is higher, I was able to say to a journalist we would not accept him recording some content while I was presenting in front of people while he was arguing my colleague/superior allowed him to record some content.
I crossed Greg Doucette the youtuber at the gym last week, I was a bit awkward, he was doing cardio I said hi to him, shook his hand but didn’t want to bother him because it’s rude to annoy someone during his workout (especially cardio). He seemed open to talk tho but I still cut the conversation short and wished him good workout. Funny how I was expecting a annoying voice from him like in his video, but he has a deep, regular voice hahahaha
Anyway, I noticed the reason why I was awkward was because I was indecisive, I didn’t knew if I wanted to have a 1 min chat with him or if I was annoying someone while doing cardio, even if he seemed open.
So I learned the importance of figuring out what I want to make a decison and be smoother.
Recently I thought about the way I was raised toward violence. I always had lots of implicit trust toward authority, especially in terms of violence and regulation with it.
I look at my past when I was part of confrontation or people tryed to rough me up and honestly no authority was involved. So how does it break people’s expectation, or society’s expectation if I use violence, or at least not fear it as much 
Anyway, this idea just popped in my mind so it’s still fresh.
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I’m considering it! Already ran 1 stage of TB (not from NEW khan though) and will definitely run another in my life
Never planning on running the other stages
It’s looking attractive in my stack soon, but then again, new EOG is about to release
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Tbf I’ve also spend around 9 on EoG1 and 11 on LBFH, more time in recon than not, now just gonna let all that breath n execute.
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Kst3,
Middle of reconciliation but I go out anyway.
Had two girl fighting over me in the club. Well not fighting. But first girl was friend of the guy I went out with and told me she liked me lol just like this. She kissed me and everything. She sat next to me. All the shebang. I mean it was too much. Then a second girl that I don’t know but seen before acted like we knew each other and came over where we were seated and asked for my number. I gave her. She took my hand and had our hands tightening each others. She waited for when the first girl went for restrooms so she was checking on us. I mean I just went for drinks with 2 men friends. Then she called me to come over to her group of girls like I don’t know to show me off. I went with it greeted the gfs who where giggling. No idea what was going on.
Funny stuff later I started texting girl two and girl one was next to me her arm around me. She said I know you’re texting other girls but I don’t care. And girl number two saw girl one kissing me multiple times as she was sitting not far but apparently doesn’t care because she kept on texting me and didn’t mention it. Weird reality.
I didn’t know what to do and which one to take home to be honest. So I told both I would call them tomorrow and left. I was kind of overwhelmed. But it was fun, my friends were amazed and laughing their ass off.
For context I am 44. These ladies are like 20 something.
So definitely bold girls open me on Khan but shy girls I need to give them permission somehow. Different from WB where all kind of girls can approach me.
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Good God lol
I guess I’m going through this phase.
I did only one cycle of New Khan ST1, as I’ve used a non-NSE custom with Khan ST4/ WB/ SS(X) for about a year… but after using the fully NSE core updated custom for almost a month… I’ve experienced a LOT of interpersonal drama… like a LOT!!! 
I’m just grateful to have remained chill throughout most of it… but damn it’s been extra. I hope the challenges subside.
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Nice. I’m 45. Hanging with 20 something’s also.
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Darnn I’m old. I will be 56 in July
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I’m a July bday too
But you’re married
& never say you’re old
You can do better than that 
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What does have to do with anything?
Being older and single could perhaps be a bummer for some men, though it need not be… that’s all. Every age can be great if we make it so…
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I get it. There are whole days I honestly thought I would never get married. I sort of didn’t want it or a relationship for a long time in the late 90s and early 2000s. It just became too much work that didn’t feel worth it. Felt like I always had to prove shit to some people who weren’t worth what became a job.
My only advice to anyone who wants to get married is make sure you pick the right person.
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Its easier yes i am had some recon but much much easier compared to the pre QV2 days.
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New Khan St1 was easy. New Khan St4 not so much… like huge understatement 
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Oh really fellow ? can you please expand upon what your saying.
Omg… 
Sure, it could be just coincidences, but that passage from ST2 rang true.
Only, I jumped from New Khan ST1 store title to custom with ST4. I had such a great beginning of 2024. Got of debt. Women chasing me hard. Much younger than me… My libido even was getting better. 
Then, probably concurrent with my new custom, which isn’t new in the sense that I ran it for a year in a different form… two long term colleagues freaked out on me on what I consider trivial matters… and another put me through her extreme psychological turmoil in a difficult situation. Also, going to my apartment in the city in the evening, someone yelled a homophobic slur. I dress probably different than most guys, I try to look sexy for women lol, but I never get that response.
I remained mostly calm through everything. All this occurred during one cycle of New Khan ST4/ Wanted Black NSE/ SSX… (15min usage) 
I am running three customs (in my profile). The others are Khan Black ST1/ Primal Nights/ Revelation of the Nectar Within NSE (7min usage - every other day) and BDLM NSE/ Diamond. (15min usage)
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Bro with that stack, the guy who yelled the homophobic slur at you probably felt a very uncomfortable urge to extract and had to project it onto you.
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