Where my focus go? I tend do focus so much on one thing I lose track of others.
My emotions tend to follow me because it’s a challenge for me to let them go.
I’ve also realised that my future wife’s hapiness is in my hand, I want her to be happy I can do things to help that (I’m not the final factor tho).
Realized that tolerating the pain of failing is what sets me apart and will make me a winner.
Confidence is higher, I was able to say to a journalist we would not accept him recording some content while I was presenting in front of people while he was arguing my colleague/superior allowed him to record some content.
I crossed Greg Doucette the youtuber at the gym last week, I was a bit awkward, he was doing cardio I said hi to him, shook his hand but didn’t want to bother him because it’s rude to annoy someone during his workout (especially cardio). He seemed open to talk tho but I still cut the conversation short and wished him good workout. Funny how I was expecting a annoying voice from him like in his video, but he has a deep, regular voice hahahaha
Anyway, I noticed the reason why I was awkward was because I was indecisive, I didn’t knew if I wanted to have a 1 min chat with him or if I was annoying someone while doing cardio, even if he seemed open.
So I learned the importance of figuring out what I want to make a decison and be smoother.
Recently I thought about the way I was raised toward violence. I always had lots of implicit trust toward authority, especially in terms of violence and regulation with it.
I look at my past when I was part of confrontation or people tryed to rough me up and honestly no authority was involved. So how does it break people’s expectation, or society’s expectation if I use violence, or at least not fear it as much 
Anyway, this idea just popped in my mind so it’s still fresh.
