Thinking of doing only 3 days washout… I don’t feel pressured or overloaded. Only thing I feel is wanting to go to K2 to start developping that drive and decisiveness so important in trading… But it’s not urgent, I’m still gonna do my second St1 cycle.
Doing 3 days washout means tomorrow morning I start my next st1 cycle and it will finish march 3.
Just last weekend I’ve realised few things about me. With my current salary, I don’t feel the anger of being underpaid, is it because I’m getting comfortable or is it because I feel less drive?
Also, I still have this fear of having other people’s anger affect me, fear of angering people… I’m not my kid self fearing my mom’s anger and walking on eggshells all my life anymore… I’m an adult and I can’t keep having that fear.
People being angry has a whole lot more to do with them than with me.
Having this fear allows people with problems or people with personnality disorder to be “right” in conversation with me even if they are clearly wrong because I sometime (not all the time, I still did something with my life hahaha) backed off.
Last weekend I made someone pay a small sum they owed me even if they were angry af.
Khan st1 made me realise just how much baggage I still had even if it’s magnitude was greatly reduced.