Is it weird that I can literally feel my self awareness growing?
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That’s what i feel too.
It’s so prominent that I think it’s one of the main effects from DRR.
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holy shit, i’ve been toxic. All my life, I’ve sought validation and permission to live, AND then manipulated others to get that validation if they don’t provide me wid it.
Today, realized I dont need to ask for emotional validation for anything. Then, I got so bored of doing everything becoz I realized I did most things to make others happy in someways.
This is fucking incredible. I’ll run drrst4 for 6 months or more.
Key insight: we are all alone. We don’t need anyone for anything. If u depend emotionally on someone for something, u r doing it wrong. Stop trauma bonding.
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If you’re talking about the NSE, extensive. The other scripting that supports this is DR’s implementation of Inner Circle, which is a modified version of the core. It’s somewhat extensive.
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Well, du doy, you’re Evil Morty; you are just being true to yourself 
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That’s self awareness for ya. I feel the same way. I was telling my wife yesterday that at some point I would love to find as many people as I can that I hurt , used , or fucked over in the past apologize and try to make things right if that person is willing.
I question my behavior all the time now. Not in a paranoid way but I definitely think way more before I act or say something.
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St2 seems to be undoing some OCD like behaviours. Things I repeatedly try to do but fail, only to repeat the exact same thing over and over expecting it to eventually work.
Mindset changing from perfection expectations to reach future outcome, to focusing on doing my best today. This is good because it takes away the “start fresh tomorrow” that I regularly use as an excuse to self destruct today.
Big changes are happening but in some ways it’s also subtle. It’s hard to pinpoint exactly what’s happening, but I can feel and know it is happening. I’ve had several healing dreams since I started and also reflected a lot on past memories. Each reflection feels like I’m able to leave something behind and feel less suffering from the past.
I’ve noticed urges to watch porn are almost non existent and I’m releasing a desperation that I have for sex. This has been a part of me that I’ve always struggled with and is why I try to stay away from seduction themed subs. DRR is definitely having a positive effect on releasing something that drives me to desire so much sex.
I’m going to do a 5 minute loop today and then washout until next week before starting st3.
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Would this mean that DRGold builds up an inner leadership as well?
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I don’t enjoy posting sometimes because I either feel like I repeat myself often or I sound cliche. That said I continue to be surprised by DRR. I have always felt obligated to care about things that in reality I couldn’t give a flying fuck about. It’s so exhausting. It’s been that way for as long as I can remember. Now I’m finally learning to let go and not care anymore. Not that I am becoming a Richard or anything. I don’t want shit to live rent free in my brain anymore
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Are you guys feeling like you don’t need an alpha title in your stack with New DRR?
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Definitely.
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Reread through st3 drr goals now, can confirm vision.
Two days ago went out to one of highest and nicest place in my city for dessert with friends, through the talk and symbolically environment overlooking the city, i realized the vision for the next couple of years what i want.
That created a sort of a lifetrack/timeline shift to where the gravity of attention and energy is moved to the vision and its circumstance instead of the current environment circumstances experience.
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Im running khan as part of bigger life vision before new dr red came, wasnt planing on it but right after i did dr st4 v2 one day it felt completely intuitively right for my path and archetype to commit long term to it.
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Careful with that because you can swing to the extreme and deny the very real human emotions that do require validation. Which in itself is another trauma response. That may not be relevant but I figured I’d throw it out there.
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100% correct.
However, my situation is that I can feel all the “human-relationship-emotions”. But no manipulation or negative emotion hits me deeply. I feel it and it just rolls off like water off a duck’s back.
Thank you for mentioning that. I forgot to mention that myself coz in my case, it was obvious.
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Does everything in the objective list exist in every stage with differing approaches/additions to achieve them? Or are there objectives that are not touched in the different stages?
Example:
Does it only exist in stage 3 & 4 or is it in stage 1 & 2 too but with less intensity/focus on it?
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I somehow convinced myself to take my time with DDR. The feelings on this are beyond what I have felt with any other Dragon Reborn title or any healing focused title in general.
I know in a post a while back how my feelings regarding specific periods of my past or often so strong it I can literally feel what I probably felt during that time. It’s makes me almost nauseous and I don’t know why necessarily. I do consider some aspects of that not just missed opportunities but also a lot of time wasted unnecessarily.
I have had such a difficult time learning how to forgive myself for not just that but all the bad decisions and mistakes I made. At this point it feels like forgiving myself is my goal with DRR. That will likely do a lot towards eliminating self sabotage. That and embracing self love.
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Biggest problem with subclub is making so many good subs that you want to run a long time.
Thought just a 4 month cycle with drred but this might be a neccessery lifelong sub or eventually a custom.
Anyone got to drr st4 to report some results?
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I’ve had a lot of dreams since my first ST3 loop. I’m feeling a little sad but also optimistic. I’ve been much more productive since the start of ST2 washout. I’ll go through ST3 and ST4, restart it again from ST1, but stack it with another title. I’m thinking Genesis at the moment, it feels like it will compliment DRR nicely but no need to lock anything in yet, still some work left to do with ST3-4 solo. It’s only early but I like the feel of ST3 more compared to the first two.
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Is this your first time on dragon reborn?
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