I saw that. Thank you
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A year ago, I would have been completely clueless in this conversation about one’s shadow. But something has changed, maybe because I’ve use a couple of healing titles.
A few months back Saint responded in a thread that he didn’t want to see people creating a fuss over a dumb issue when, he noted, it was their shadow emerging.
I responded to him because without much effort at all, I’d been seeing those exact things rise up in me, and it was like a loud, logical argument. Part of me was saying “I’m right!”, and part of me knew…it was fear speaking disguised by energy and bravado. Like the guy who talks too fast for someone to really “get it”. While I listened and countered the inner arguments, I became aware…that this was a real part of me. A part I’d judged and silenced my entire life. Aka, my shadow.
I shared this since I felt good about knowing this part…and not squashing him. I saw him, felt his emotional turbulence, and welcomed him more. It was strangely…empowering.
So, I second your move to have us own the shadow within us. When I did, it stopped demanding control over my attention. It was just another part of me.
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I’ve gone through thorough healing and it helped me do a lot of shadow work, especially Total Breakdown. I’m way more true to myself, and the level of my self-deception (telling myself lies) has decreased tremendously. I feel, that’s the main reason I rarely get recon on ZP and it’s never intense.
ZP is about being true to yourself, not lying to yourself whilst suppressing the shadow, hiding it from ourselves and pretending it doesn’t exist is the exact opposite. I believe that recon is nothing else but our mind’s response to “waking up” those parts of us we suppress, conceal, and deny (aka integrating our shadow). Recon is like that feeling we have when we really want to keep dreaming our dream instead of waking up and going about our day. We get angry that someone/something woke us up and we want to fall asleep again. We procrastinate (just 5 more minutes). We’re groggy. We’re apathetic. We feel weak and spineless. We’re anxious about going about our day.
Naturally, not only healing titles help with that process (shadow work), although they help the most. All ZP is based on gradually removing layers of lies we surrounded ourselves (and were surrounded) with.
I realized that the recon I got yesterday almost got me off Primal which is the sub that addresses my shadow integration the most (before it was Total Breakdown, although I could still benefit from running it a lot). Being a masculine, sexual, carefree and just happy man is that part of me that got bullied the most for pretty much whole my life. That’s the very reason I see the most growth on Primal.
Wake up and look your shadow in the eye and understand that where you’ve seen a vicious enemy, your dearest friend awaits you.
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These last 2 days, I’ve faced some recon doing Emperor and LB, and I’m grateful you kind of confirm to me that yes, I push down my sexual side very often along with other sides waiting to be revealed.
For example, when I imagined running Primal just now, part of me pulled back, saying “Whoa boy! Not yet”, while still holding him down. But I am running Emperor currently, and I’m beginning to see myself as much more sexual around women. I worked with a woman today, and damn, my thoughts kept going there. —I was raised in a very sexually repressed family, and sexual desires brought a lot of fear in my adult life. Today actually excited me since it’s a part I’ve not seen much at all–I’ve rarely ran sexual subs. (And I usually don’t think of sex when thinking of Emperor.) I’ll let this unfold.
So maybe ZP and titles like these have the power to begin unravelling the suppressed parts.
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I think that Shadow Work is, in a sense, endless.
1/2 of the Earth is always in shadow at any given moment.
That is always the case. And it’s supposed to be the case.
I think the place where we can make a definitive shift is in our style of relating to those parts of us that are enshrouded in darkness and inaccessibility.
Basically comes down to humility. Courageous humility. Wash. Rinse. Repeat.
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The new version of Index Gate is now available. If you’re purchased it in the past, it’ll be in your downloads within the next few hours. The file name is labeled (May 2024).
We will update the relevant sales copy soon, but here is a list of the updates:
- AI Programming Updates – master AI in the use of programming, with scripting to help you manifest the perfect responses / pieces of code / etc
- Enhanced understanding of higher mathematics and abstract thinking in regards to programming
- Visionary scripting updated from ASBR and Limitless
- Enhanced all coding related scripting to perform better
- Enhanced deductive and inductive reasoning scripting in regards to programming
- Enhanced flow state and concentration scripting
While the list may not seem that comprehensive, this became a much more massive overhaul than anticipated, with every aspect being upgraded.
Enjoy!
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All roads lead to Rome yet choosing that of the least resistance seems to be the best. There’s definitely a difference between waking up somebody with a kiss and with a bucket of ice-cold water. I think the optimal solution is knocking them off the bed. 
ἡ ἀλήθεια ἐλευθερώσει ὑμᾶς
The fear and denial shifted to courage and love. Courageous love for all what we are. The humility is in understanding that the gift of life has been given to us and that inevitably it’s going to be taken away from us forever one day.
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What is the English translation?
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The truth liberates us
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The truth will set you free
I believe that the truth is our ZP. The point where there’s no room for lies and self-deception. There can’t be lies nor self-deception where reality fuses with you through the sheer power of just experiencing both, without any predefined lenses. On the other hand, I doubt reaching ZP is possible since, as Malkuth has said, it’s a never ending process. Only newborns experience the truth in its purest form.
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Google translate is your friend
Its Greek if I’m correct
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I use a Firefox extension called ImTranslator, which supports auto language detection, hotkeys for translation, inline translation, whole web page translation etc. Also supports four different translation providers: Google, Microsoft, Translator and Yandex, so you don’t have to sacrifice your precious confidential text to the dark lord 
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Limiting belief alert 
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Since there have been some developments when it comes to physical shifting, I wonder how the NSE could be implemented into it.
Some users have reported people regaling them with stuff related to their physical shifting, finding the right books and videos, meeting mentors and experts. Yet it was on titles without the NSE implemented. obviously.
I suppose visualizations and seeing the progress in the physical shifting would be the best tools to propel the growth the NSE offers. I just can’t wait till I lay my hands on LotS with the NSE implemented. Sorry, guys. 
Anyhow, what are we waiting for now?
@SoulFire no offence but I’m not interested in going off-topic, yet I encourage you to get familiar with basic psychology of child’s development.
Nota bene, the whole industry would benefit tremendously from knowing it thoroughly. I say it again.
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Dope outcome.
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Dope in deed.
And not to forget that she spoke about chimney stuff 
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Did you get the IG update?
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Are you familiar with the son clave?
His hypothesis is that the son clave is the perfect rhythm. However, read any of his articles carefully because he or the editors missed at least one mistake.
The son clave is also known as the “Bo Diddy” beat. I think “Magic Bus” by The Who uses this rhythm, or at least the clave. 
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Just as with love, you have to feel the clave.
Not just in your heart but in your whole body, from the tip of your ears, down to your little toe.