Main Disc. Thread - Khan ZP v2

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#244

Tagging @ouroboros , because I’ve been reading your journal lately.

I am on Khan ST1 for the third time now. I think there were many stones left unturned and I want to properly transmute and integrate everything.

The QTKS version of ST4 is good. So I will run through ST1 and ST2 again for further development, and then return.

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#245

Realized I put this in the ZPv1 thread and not ZPv2

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The thing that I have noticed yesterday after the loop of TB from the day before was that I became different in a good way….idk how to explain it but I will do it the best I can.

(As I was writing this I began to realize that the loop I ran also solidified my results from my first cycle, as well as how far I have come since that cycle. There was about a month in between the most recent loop and the loop from the last cycle.)

  1. I became a lot more professional in my interactions while I was at work with patients. While with co workers I was still my self in the way that I love to make people laugh and what not, but I was more mature in those interactions.
  2. While I still have “nice guy” tendencies, I felt it start to shift to a more gentleman vibe, rather than a people pleaser nice guy.
  3. While I have been placing more boundaries out of respect for myself, I am also being more helpful to those around me, but to the ones that are deserving of it.
  4. Walking slower than usual but somehow I was getting tasks done sooner. Unless a sense of urgency was needed of course.
  5. People seemed more relaxed around me, especially women.
  6. Ironically I felt very sexual, but even more in control. I will say that I have had some sexual healing. Note that this is also my 3rd cycle of Khan Black ST1.
  7. I am also more compassionate and empathetic but in a more masculine way, rather than a nice guy way. Women have actually began to confide in me more, of their own volition, rather than me trying to “fix” them.
  8. I have experienced growth in my emotional intelligence, as well as understanding and more accepting my dark side. I am no longer bottling up my emotions and I will admit I have actually cried a few times during my first cycle with TB, letting out a lot of negative emotions. I have also been more accepting of my rage. I have bottled up my anger and rage for many years now, and I realized that if I continue to do this, it would have a negative impact on myself and my relationships. I realized it’s just a part of who I am, I need to accept that part of me. Since then I have become much calmer in general.
  9. Began to respect myself a lot more.
  10. Humbled me and made me realize I have A LOT of growing up to do.

I was reluctant to share this but I guess it’s for the best , I won’t talk about the event that happened but I will talk about the aftermath.

After the event transpired the following day it was as if my internal world fell apart. I realized even though I have grown as a person……all the changes I have made in the end have been superficial and I have lacked a lot of deep change these past few years. One of the hardest and most emotional moments of my life was accepting that the only one to blame was me and me alone.

However just as it is my fault for my inaction and lack of deep change……it is my responsibility to be the one to make the deep changes, to face myself and my demons, and to become the best version of myself.

Since then I have been doing a lot better and I have been making small changes that are leading into bigger changes, but I am taking it slow and taking it one day at a time.

As I was writing this I made the decision to swear of romance and there for I will be dropping Wanted Black from my stack. There are plenty of physical subs in the store and Khan is enough to help me grow in that field anyways, plus wether it’s for a relationship or just a hookup, I have no desire to be with anyone until I have improved drastically as a man.

Also I am taking a few days off from subs to think about my next move. I have been way to focused on internal healing and while internal healing is great, I need to figure out if I need a more action oriented sub like ST2 or another round of ST1. The answer will come to me though.

I went in depth as much as I did because I wanted to show you guys, that Khan is much more than only romance and sex, it’s a title that will turn you into the best version of yourself. I also want to say that TB is no joke at all, it will break you down just like it did me, but I can already tell just how much better I am for it, and it is worth it.
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#246

Thanks for the tag! TB hits deep and wide. Good for you for doing it multiple times. Just to be clear, you’re coming BACK to it after some time with ST4?

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#247

Yes. I have a million customs and a QTKS with Khan ST4. I don’t think the cake is doing baking so I put it back in the oven. @ouroboros

#248

I’m wielding the external power of Khan in my career. I could very well reach the senior most levels of military or whatever the hell field I chose. I have exotic ass assignments and get a bit better treatment in situations, but I’m not picking up on this internally. I have a lot of bases to cover and I don’t feel like what I project or am objectively. It’s just meanings attached to me by society, and so far… they’ve been really good tinged with mild controversies, but I want to attribute my own definition to myself and the art of my existence.

I’m truly ultra rare, and have an ultra rare existence in a system that typically doesn’t favor people with my phenotype or background and I transcend everything, especially things my peers would consider limitations… and I still feel like shit. Imagine being among the best and still feeling low… @ouroboros

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#249

This is my all time favourite sub (with EoG being close second).

It makes me so fuckin fearless.

My self assuredness is fuckin crazy.

I have a high status but “I’ll get along with you, if I like u enough” aura

People ghosted me on this earlier but came back after lbfh and Heartsong.

Think it might be too much for some

Also recon on stage one was minimal, stage two is slightly more.
I get more recon from Heartsong and wanted than this.

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#250

This is probably why I saw a few times people liked the combination of Khan plus Chosen or LBFH.
It is like you need Fabric softener for your Khan to be more likable :slight_smile:

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#251

It makes sense lol the energy and status change is too much for people

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#252

I’m guessing someone should run Ascension and possibly Emperor prior to tackling Khan?

#253

Doe you have experience with alpha subs?

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#254

Goddam I know I said it often but this one needs to be made into ZPV2 max :rofl: I can’t fucking wait for it!!

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#255

Only a tiny bit.

#256

Maybe you should give it another try for a deeper insight

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#257

I’ve ran one cycle of emperor and one cycle of emp black (both very diluted and not to guidelines, until I realized running to guidelines is almost a cheat code)

I don’t think you need any other alpha subs prior, though as discussed earlier LBfH smoothens the experience by a lot in my experience

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#258

Almost done with Khan ST1 3rd cycle. Someone told me recently “I can tell you’re important and you know it (subconsciously).”

That was very interesting.

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#259

3 cycles, how was it? I’m planning join in the future. So you ran it for full 15 minutes? Alone?

#260

Khan ST1 be like that sometimes. One day it feels like a super chill and strong status title, and the next it’s as if you meet reconciliation itself

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#261

@Risky I started Khan in July 2022. The first 2 cycles were all 15 minute loops. This time I may do a microloop here and there, for recon reduction purposes.

1st cycle there was upgrades in internal and external status. Got some great positions at work. Leadership positions.

2nd cycle… recon.

3rd cycle… more recon and letting go of the past.

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#262

I foresee that Khan ZP MAX will be even more awesome title, with fresh NFTW wealth scripting, new alpha scripts from Emperor Black and etc.etc.etc.

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#263

Yeah that’s what I do from time to time is just a micro loop here and there but I am also not in a position to really run a few cycles of healing

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