I decided to start with Water because I’ve often felt like a prisoner of my emotions, feelings, and thoughts throughout my life.
When I read the script for the first time, I was immediately blown away by the written words and the power that Water radiated.
Being the ruler of my inner world felt so important to me because I am constantly overwhelmed by my thoughts. They make me tired, moody, and drain all my energy.
I often find myself lost in thoughts about situations and conversations that most likely will never happen – and yet, during these useless inner monologues, I feel a mix of anger, hopelessness, and fear.
So yes, my overthinking has a tight grip on me. And I want to change that with Water. Since I’ve started listening to Water, I’ve found myself thinking more and more about what I want to do with my life – both in it and through it.
Instead of drowning in mental chaos, I now reflect on possibilities. Of course, I’m not completely free yet. I still carry the chains I put on myself – and those others put on me – but I can feel a shift in how I think and act.
All these new thoughts are bringing back something old – my desire to write.
To turn my mental cinema into poetic texts and set them free. At least, I often find myself thinking about it.
That alone is progress, because recently, I had stopped writing altogether.
I also find myself wondering more about what is happening in my life. Where I’ll end up. How I’ll live. It might sound like nothing has changed – I still think about everything and everyone – but the way I think has completely shifted.
Even when I’m emotionally stirred up, I feel like things are different now. I can’t quite describe how yet – but something is happening.
I feel drawn to books, texts, and other things that help me deal with or soothe my inner chaos. Gently and with healing – without pressure.
As described in Water, I have absolutely no desire to dig up my past anymore. I’ve tried that so many times, and it only left me drained.
It didn’t really help much either. I only ended up thinking about how shitty people in my life were and why the hell they caused me so much pain.
Driven by anger and hatred toward others, I lost something very important – myself. Now I’m beginning, more and more, to focus on me.
Yes, I had already started doing that, but now a different path is revealing itself. And I really like this path.
Combined with Love Bomb, it has – in my opinion – a powerful effect. It’s chaotic, in a way, but a good kind of chaos.
Like finding a hidden treasure in a dusty, covered-up apartment that you thought was long lost.
Radiant, yet surrounded by dust and cobwebs – but after just a moment of gentle cleaning, it reveals its true, imperfect beauty.
Water is something that does me a lot of good – something I’ve been searching for, for a long time.
Now it has found me – and I’m incredibly grateful.
. Often, it’s simply that others have a different perspective on certain things.
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