Also most of the time when people say i have to do this or that they put so much negative energy on it
ugh i have to get up and go to work today
I have to take my kids to school
I have to pay my bills
i have to blah blah blah
I can almost feel the negative energy coming from those sentences
What I was trying to get across yesterday was something called The Backwards Law or The Law of Reversed Effort.
That law exists. The first time I read about it was in a Joseph Murphy book. Then Reality Transurfing really drove it home by explaining pendulums, excess of importance and balancing forces. Regardless of the name you call that law, it is not as important as making consistent progress towards a precise goal.
“Some may say that today had Good weather,
others may say it had Bad weather.
I think it just had Weather.”
Is boredom a sign of recon?
Bro you gotta be outside of the forum a little
Very much so.
Take up kitchen dancing in a tutu
Or imagine it
For fun 
I realize how much I really want to find my true calling/purpose.
It’s almost relentless right now. 
I actually found mine at age 9, I guess. I just never had the courage nor the discipline to fully pursue it.
A few months ago, I started thinking that my life could have been wasted if I didn’t even try my best to go for it. Then I made the decision to really go for it. A few weeks later Genesis comes out.
I had an idea of my purpose at a young age too.
Feels like it’s still in me too, relating to the arts.
What is your purpose if you don’t mind me asking.
Storytelling/Filmmaking
Something along those lines for me as well.
Music fits in there somewhere too.
While I was listening to a stack sometime before, I kept seeing ads for scriptwriting. All over the place.
A former mentor of mine predicted for me film making, too. As a child I wanted to do comic books.
A few years ago I produced a comedy short film with my iPhone. That was fun.
For a while I was active as a writer and told short stories in front of audiences. That were fun times, too.
Now I’m thinking about working on a computer game. I had made some prototypes in the past.
My cartoons are not very good. A friend of mine called them outsider art.
I like this one speech of Steve Jobs where he talks about connecting the dots. Taking a calligraphy class in college and later using this skill for fonts on one of the first Mac computers. In hindsight what he did was good for his later purpose in life.
The purpose doesn’t have to be a single goal, but can be a theme.
Storytelling is a broad enough theme as I see it.
Still I am not very successful yet. I have a day job as a programmer to get the money. I probably have some limiting beliefs towards earning money with my creativity.
These limiting beliefs need to be transcended.
On Monday I started a new cycle.
Was listening to Genesis among other things.
From there, something is telling me more and more for two days that I should start listening to AM.
It is actually aligning with my plans.
What should I do?
Continue with Genesis or switch it to AM?
This^ because you may get even deeper or different insights. Finish out the cycle.
Every time I go to the khan black thread I wanna drop my entire cycle and hit early washout to grab it and use it along my spartan Mtmx custom but I’m going to milk one more cycle (2 in total) because that usually is enough according the zp guidelines, even zpv1 pre recon tech: two cycles will cause permanent changes enough for you to just flow to another thing
Thanks, I like your words.
Still interesting Genesis has “light” healing but out of all the subs I’ve ever run this one definitely just pulls all your issues out and throws them in front of you. It’s intimidating but necessary.