I wish I had the time, motivation, and technical know-how to super-impose @James’s features and hair onto that baby. I feel that that facial expression may be closer to how these exchanges feel to him (and me vicariously). hahaha.
Good! The pain sometimes is big but the reward is also big!
Sometimes inside I feel and but I’ve not cried or vomited.
The weirdest thing is that women are acting around me like I’m listening to sexual subliminals but I haven’t in a few weeks.
I went through DR with things that I knew were traumatic, then things that when I thought about them they were traumatic, then things that I didn’t realize were traumatic were healed, then things I didn’t even know could be traumatic were healed. Very tired but also more relaxed.
I vomited so hard the last 6 months that I changed from the inside.
I was going from victim to hunter, I actively hunt my traumatic stuff now and put me into situations where stuff Wil come up.
Not that I didn’t do that before, but now I can access traumatic stuff, dominate it and then remove it from my system.
I integratet my shadow part in a way that I am happy and relaxed that the shadow is part of me.
I had pain that I healed off and still healing.
I was always super sensitive to the point that it was too much, but now it’s a gift and part of me as well.
I wantet to end my life many times but now
I am relaxed and positive about life and the future
And so much more
I am still in st 2 and will continue 1-2 months with ST2 then move to the next stage.
Actually I want to try all the subliminalclub products now, because now they work better than EVER but I think the next 6 months is…
I have found that the harder DR kicks me in the butt, the bigger the pay off. At this time, I wonder if I am getting close to the top of a mountain and soon to be headed down back to the village to get more rewards of my journey.
I understand this. I’ve become less afraid of trauma and just actually curious about it. The other night I was at a social even and I think everyone ostracized me. They ignored me and just refused to interact with me. I got tired of it and just left. At first I felt ashamed and embarrassed like I did something wrong, but then I noticed that it was only about 10% of the shame and embarrassment that I would have normally felt. Then I just talked to myself like “well, so what if they did, does that change my life plans that I have” and the answer was no. So then I felt better. It was easier to talk myself out of the bad feelings.
Dragon Reborn Ultima seriously fucked with me to the point that I am considering going back and running Stage One for another thirty to sixty days and then moving on to stage Two. Do the program in order as instructed
I did a reading with a spiritual intuitive today and when reading me they said I was undergoing a massive energetic shift and process of purifying and releasing everything that no longer serves me in my physical, spiritual, ehtheric, and some other names I don’t remember bodies -from this lifetime and past life times, so as to be able to stand on the earth with nothing but love, compassion, and non-judgement for all.
So I imagine that’s DR going deep lol
I’ll write more about this experience in my journal cause it was very interesting.