With a more clear and level head today, and after a loop of PS which helped break the recon of SB,
I would like to politely note that in the 4 months I’ve been on SB, my sex life has in general been rocky and unsatisfactory, also there has, more than once, been some pretty significant tension in my relationship.
Prior to SB I was on WB and Emperor, which is how I met my current partner. Things were great and the sex was lively.
I dropped WB and Emperor, did a proper 12 day washout, and started SB shortly after launch.
After the first loop, I noticed an immediate rift between her and I alongside some social rifts.
I persevered for a cycle, and saw some modest improvements but it wasn’t the same as it was, and things were more tense than they had been previously.
On cycle 2 I added WB back in, and initially things began to improve, possible that it was just switch bloom.
Now here I am about 3 months after launch.
Since the launch of SB I’ve run a single loop of Emperor, a single loop of Sanguine, 2 loops of RoftW, and now 4 loops of PS.
All of this little experimental loops happened with multiple rest days and were isolated incidents separated by weeks.
The prevailing theme here is that for whatever reason I’ve experienced sexual difficulties after running SB that have mostly persisted to the current day.
In these months my monogamous partner and I (same girl) have spoken about it, worked on it, etc. There have been some modest improvements as a result of that.
Now for the kicker. It FEELS as though my partner is no longer as sexually interested in me as a result of something that is triggered in me by SB.
My evidence for this is 3 months of being on it and watching the change happen. Also, by temporarily washing out from SB and running WB in a solo loop (in the same time frame) and seeing her instantly want to sleep with me.
If anything, I would say that I have enough evidence to suggest that most likely she simply isn’t attracted to the SB archetype but loves me inspite of it.
So!
Given that I value her immensely, and given that there are multiple other programs to choose from.
The most logical thing I can do, is just not run SB.
What I would like people to understand is that nothing in this is an attribution of blame, but is perhaps the understanding that certain people are attracted to certain people.
I’m not attracted to women of a certain type, and other men are. Why am I not attracted to them?
Energy, it’s that simple.
Now for a washout.
SB really is a fantastic program, and dispite the challenges, it’s grown me a lot in a lot of ways that will stick around.