During the loop I started shaking in a spastic way, I told myself : show me the real reason, my body get ice cold and I see the whole trauma : fear that I could die. I let love overpower the whole trauma and then grab it by the root.
(during plant medicine ceremonys you expirience many different layers of realitys, one of these realitys is inwards, when you see that you are functioning like a Maschine, then you can go to the source program and make changes. My vision of that source program is like a giant modular synthesizer and there is a part of me that is plug in energy chords into the machine.
All I did was tracking this fear back to the chord where it is plugged in to the source computer and pull the chord out of the machine.
Result = Instand vomit
1 min later no more fear in myself and laying in the hammock experience Limitless love.
@SaintSovereign Limitless Love
@AlexanderGraves the vomiting is the best part of the story, you can see how rivers of shit is leaving your system and it gives you such a profound level of confidence that whatever happens you have a way to bring it out of you.
And if you resist vomiting there is another way out 
its called the double shit
